*hugs Lindsay and Mark* how are you both?

Waiting on the crisis team phoning me to tell me that i've done well by cutting my grass today. I don't feel like i've done well. I am a fraud living in an alien world.

How are you doing, Oliver?

*hugs Lindsay*

I'm not doing so great, I want to OD, but have to go buy the tablets tomorrow.

What's making you want to OD?

really strong urges to do it, I can't explain them I just need to OD, its like a force acting over me making me do it.

*Hugs Lindsay*
<---- you two are very dear to me , PM box always open
<---- You are always there for me :)
*Hugs Oliver*

*hugs everyone and goes to lay down in a dark room*
Sorry everyone, I can't even focus enough to get caught up and do replies.
*hopes the migraine goes away during my VPW nap*

*Hugs Crimson* *Hugs your Head*

Oliver, I understand that feeling. It's horrible but please remember that you don't need to act on it. You are in control.

Thanks Mark *hugs back*

Crimson, I hope you feel better soon.

*hugs Crimson, Mark and Lindsay*

I'm off now to my trans swimming group, have a good evening/morning all.

Hey everyone :)

Apart from family (and my parents obviously) which most of them live quite a long way away i have no one. I do have one person who i really like and i talk to them quite alot. We have been talking for quite sometime and are hoping to meet soon.

*Hugs Oliver* I'm so sorry about the person who was nasty to you Oliver

*Hugs Mark* How are you?

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you doing?

Oliver, I hope you enjoy the swimming.

Ian, i'm sorry you don't have many people to talk to. I know how that feels. I'm always here if you need me.

I'm not really sure how i'm feeling.

I cut last night. First time in weeks. Tired of this ****.

*hugs Mrs Pan* xxxxx

I'm sorry to hear that *hugs* Do you want to talk about anything?

I think i'm close to cutting too. I need something.

Oliver - if watching an opera makes you a freak, the unfortunately I'm a total freak too! I watch ballet as well, that probably makes me uberfreaky? So sorry, people are such jerks!

*hugs to everyone* How we doing guys? x

Anything I can help with? xxxx

Thanks, but i'm not sure that anyone can help. I'm very suicidal. I just need something to tide me over until I get things sorted.

How are you?

pretty much the same. coping tho. Listening to Nessun Dorma. it's my favourite piece of music ever.

Hope you manage to get things sorted <3

Thank you. I hope you feel better soon.