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YodaBearInterrupted 11-06-2011 11:59 PM

*hugs everyone in here*

I made some cookies for you all :)

SoMuchMore 12-06-2011 12:48 AM

*hugs matt* thanks for the cookies *takes one*

*hugs oliver* thats a lot of mood cycling :-/ no wonder you're worn out. Hopefully you can get some rest tonight. Oh and thanks for the offer of a PM, I might take you up on it.

*hugs laura* Good luck with all the applications! Are you unsure that you want to do social work in general or unsure specifically because of your diagnosis? If the second, don't let it stop you from being what you want to be... I know that is a lot easier sentence to say then to do... but honestly, if I had let my social anxiety disorder corner my uni degree I would never have made it into graduate school for next year. (Sorry, you dont have to listen to me.. just my experience)

*hugs mark* hope you sleep well hun.

Okay I haven't been able to talk about what i feel all day.. so I'm just going to say this simply without emotion. I cut. Out of anger. After 5 months of not, and it doesnt just feel like a slip up. I feel like my hometown is killing me slowly if I can't even last 2 weeks here.

I don't know if typing that out helped or not... but at least someone knows.

Cazki 12-06-2011 01:02 AM

Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Laura*

Laura2.0 12-06-2011 10:02 AM

*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Ian*
*hugs Matt*
*cuddles Laura* I think you are right. The disorder is just a part of me, not all. Are you going to live at home for a longer time, or is it just temporary?

Doikers 12-06-2011 11:37 AM

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Matthew*

*Hugs Laura* I'm sorry hun , but 5 months is AMAZING !!!

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Laura*

Laura2.0 12-06-2011 11:51 AM

It's hidden, because I don't want anyone to know but I do have to write it out. I think I'm fvcked. People will notice... damn

The following content has been hidden - Reason : because I want to

I already cut today. I looked in the mirror and cut my face, because I hated it so much.

Emo 12-06-2011 11:51 AM

Is anyone around ?
We really dont feel good my husband gone out and we are alone and vulnerable :shame::crymd:

Emo 12-06-2011 11:53 AM


Originally Posted by Mute.Scream (Post 2848103)
It's hidden, because I don't want anyone to know but I do have to write it out. I think I'm fvcked. People will notice... damn

The following content has been hidden - Reason : because I want to

I already cut today. I looked in the mirror and cut my face, because I hated it so much.

*hugs mute scream *
sorry you cut

here if you need to talk about it

Laura2.0 12-06-2011 11:56 AM

*hugs Angel* sorry you are alone. Here if you want to chat.

I didn't cut for more than a week. Then I cut this morning. It's like that a lot. I guess there's just too much emotions that need to be let out after a week.
I did cut close to the hair line, so I'll try to arrange my hair in a way that people wont notice too easily.

Emo 12-06-2011 12:20 PM

*Hugs* thank you

unsure what is going on with us everyone in the system is feeling bad we are trying to comfort each other the best we can . but its hard.
The little ones are scared and want there daddy ( my husband) he has only been gone for an hour and there missing him a lot God knows what they will be like if my husband has to work at any point ( he don't work at the moment because he is our carer)
He is going to be another hour or so , unsure what to do to keep there mind of it.

I know what you mean about not cutting for a week the emotions just build up and you need some way to relive it, it gets too much to cope with some times.
Its just finding something else that will do that , i havent found anything that helps myself
but hopefully you will find something that helps you

Laura2.0 12-06-2011 12:24 PM

maybe tell the little ones that they managed already half of the time and that they can manage the other half, too?
Can you distract yourselves? Watch TV or just stay here on RYL.

Emo 12-06-2011 12:29 PM

The little ones want to go for a rest there kinda tired with crying
i feel tired too , it emotionally draining .
Thank you for you support
Hope you will be ok

Laura2.0 12-06-2011 01:35 PM

I'm going back to M. this week. I'll probably be really busy and don't know if I can come online much.
Just wanted to let you all know.

*hugs* going to miss you.

Doikers 12-06-2011 01:54 PM

Hey Angel *waves* I'm Mark.

*Hugs Laura*

dontwantyoutoknow 12-06-2011 08:57 PM

Just to say I'm still here. *leaves hugs for all*

Doikers 12-06-2011 08:58 PM

*Hugs MJ*

frenchhorn 12-06-2011 09:14 PM

*hugs all*

I'm feeling really unsafe *hides in corner*

Doikers 12-06-2011 11:12 PM

*Hugs Oliver*

*Nigh time Hugs My Wardies*

frenchhorn 12-06-2011 11:18 PM

*hugs Mark* night

misskitty112 12-06-2011 11:38 PM

And I'm back :) *hugs everyone*

I am so glad to be home, even if I always feel like I'm intruding on the grandparents I live with...

I'll catch up with you guys when I'm not dead tired. I've slept maybe 5 hours in the past three days...

frenchhorn 13-06-2011 12:08 AM

*hugs Felicia* nice to see you back and hope you get some sleep.

Cazki 13-06-2011 12:53 AM

Hi everyone :) im around if anyone wants to talk

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Angel*

frenchhorn 13-06-2011 02:07 AM

*hugs Ian*

Emo 13-06-2011 02:44 AM

I cant sleep at the moment and i have to do prayers soon as well so there is no point in sleeping until after my other set of prayers

hows everyone else ?

Doikers 13-06-2011 10:24 AM

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Felicia* I hope you're sleeping well hun.

*Hugs Ian*

*Waves to Angel* Are hugs Okay?

Doikers 13-06-2011 02:41 PM

Struggling ........I really want a drink , or to injure, sorry.:/

dontwantyoutoknow 13-06-2011 02:48 PM

Mark - keep fighting it. You know deep down it'll make you feel worse after. *hugs*

How is everyone today?

I feel really bad. Really unsafe. Did a fair bit of damage last night. And I feel like such a hypocrite. :-(

Doikers 13-06-2011 03:31 PM

*Hugs MJ* I'm sorry you feel that way hun , Please look after your injurys :/ You're not a hypocrite , we are all here to support each other *Extra Hug*

Emo 13-06-2011 06:08 PM

No hugs please ok at you waving at me though thanks
Feeling a little tired i should have slept more than what i have done today
last night was my first time doing Islamic prayers having to get up every 2 hours to pray at night
and praying in the day i have to get use to
if this is what i want and it is

I know that if i want to be Muslim i have to stop self injuring because it isnt allowed at all
hopefully i can do it

Doikers 13-06-2011 06:25 PM

*Waves to Angel* How are you? Out of intrest why is Islam against S.I.? I hope it's okay to ask ?

Emo 13-06-2011 06:38 PM

Because self injury is harm( bad ) because Allah has given you this body and you are not to mutilate it also because of prayers if you have just self injured you cant go and pray until it has stopped bleeding as blood isn't pure

Am doing ok apart from being tired i think i will go for a rest after my prayers

Louise 13-06-2011 06:41 PM

hugs everyone

Doikers 13-06-2011 06:46 PM

Angel, Can Muslims can Peircings?
My Brother in Law is Muslim and dosent have any that I know of.

Emo 13-06-2011 06:50 PM

There not meant to but i have a pierced nose i need to remove it but i cant do it on my own as i have tried and i cant get a grip of the ball and screw it off so i have to go to a piercing shop and get them to remove it for me

Emo 13-06-2011 07:05 PM

Oh my husband managed to remove it for me.

Doikers 13-06-2011 09:48 PM

Oksy Angel :)

Doikers 13-06-2011 10:12 PM

*hugs all my wardies*

*Waves to ANgel*

Emo 13-06-2011 10:25 PM

* waves back to mark *

trying to think what to do with myself until my next prayer at 10 o clock
i cant watch a film because id have to stop it half way through.
Am listen Nasheeds ( Islamic songs ) there really nice.
I missed the start of the tv programs that started at 9 o clock so there not point watching them
Maybe ill just sit on line here and see who wanting to talk

shadow13 14-06-2011 12:02 AM

Hey everyone. It's me, Shad, I'm back again. I've finished with my psychiatrist now, he's done all he can but I never told him I was a recovering self-harmist. (Had him 6 months) I'm now relying on a dear friend of mine - one VERY close to me.

I'm back because someone sent me spiraling.

I thought I was done,
I thought I was fixed.

But I'm not.

YodaBearInterrupted 14-06-2011 12:09 AM

*waves to Angel*

Hope everyone is doing okay... I'm just really frustrated

shadow13 14-06-2011 12:16 AM

worked it out (been gone a long time) 8 months 2 weeks 5 days free :)?

Cazki 14-06-2011 12:19 AM

Its going to be a special occassion in less than 40 minutes

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Angel*

*Hugs Louise*

shadow13 14-06-2011 12:27 AM

I changed my signature, if you can see. It used to be:

Am I still falling?
It feels like it. Nobody's caught me yet...
I'm still falling and all I see is darkness.
No light. Trapped.
Forever in this nightmare called my life.
I'm fading, I'm falling... But I don't want to.

it's now what you see below.

YodaBearInterrupted 14-06-2011 12:39 AM

Hi shadow, I'm matt

What's the special occassion atlantica?

Cazki 14-06-2011 12:51 AM

well its no big deal really, but it means alot, especially when i think back and stuff. Its my 4th ryl birthday!

YodaBearInterrupted 14-06-2011 01:14 AM

Congrats lol. Actually, its almost my 4th as well :)

:makes stuff for everyone in here:

SoMuchMore 14-06-2011 05:23 AM

*hugs ian* yay happy ryl bday! lol.

*hugs matt* how r u doing now? why r u feeling frustrated? Thanks for always making us virtual goodies in here :)

*waves at angel* hope you stayed safe and found distractions.

*hugs mark* i hope you managed not to drink or injure. You are doing great hun. I know you can keep going.

*hugs louise* how r u?

*hugs shad* congrats on being free for so long! thats awesome!

*hugs laura* So you asked this way long time ago, but I haven't been able to get on for long enough to respond... but I'm home for 3 months unfortunately... i don't know what I'm going to do.

*hugs mj* you are not a hypocrite hun. Nobody here is... We are all struggling and trying to help.

*hugs felicia* welcome back! I'm sure your grandparents dont feel like you are intruding. Hope you got some rest.

*hugs oliver* i hope you stayed safe.

*hugs laura* good luck with M. Stay safe hun. I'll miss you too.

I'm still here.... yeah... I don't know what to say about myself. I'm annoyed with my family and flat.

shattered1 14-06-2011 05:43 AM

waves hi then curls up in corner

Emo 14-06-2011 09:27 AM

Good Morning everyone * waves*
How is everyone doing today ?

Doikers 14-06-2011 10:51 AM

*Waves to Angel*

*Hugs Shad* Way to go you!!!

*Hugs Matthew*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Shattered1*

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