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Cazki 06-06-2011 12:34 AM

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Yodabear* Are you ok? I'm here if you want to chat

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs lj*

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 12:35 AM

*hugs Atlantica back*

How are you doing?

Cazki 06-06-2011 12:37 AM

Thanks :) im so so, are you ok?

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 12:39 AM

Bouncing around I think. One moment I feel frightened of something, the next I am fine and the such. I dunno what is going on, but its weird

Cazki 06-06-2011 12:42 AM

Oh im sorry its horrible when your mood and that goes up and down. I just wish there was more i could say and do to help. Your a great guy :)

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 12:47 AM

I certainly hope so... I can never figure that out for myself to be honest. (re your last sentence/comment)

Something just doesn't feel right... and I don't know what it is right now.

*hands you brownies :)*

frenchhorn 06-06-2011 12:59 AM

*hugs all*

I'm back from my orchestral week away.

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 01:11 AM

*hugs Oliver* (I think thats your name right?)

How did it go?

frenchhorn 06-06-2011 01:15 AM

*hugs Matt* yes Oliver is right.

The week went well, although I'm not doing so well now, seriously suicidal and want to OD
hows you?

Cazki 06-06-2011 01:43 AM

Hey Oliver! :) I'm really sorry that you rnot doing well. *Hugs Oliver*

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 04:11 AM

*hugs Oliver* I am sorry you feel that way, I also wish right now I could do some SH, but I am trying to resist. I know you can too :)

Doikers 06-06-2011 11:07 AM

*Hugs YodaBear*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Oliver* welcome back :)

Laura2.0 06-06-2011 11:28 AM

*hugs all* sorry I don't have the time to read all the reply properly.

Mark: they asked me 'whats that on your leg' and I did the usual crappy excuses.
'I got caught in a barbed wire fence'. I always say that.

Doikers 06-06-2011 02:19 PM

*Hugs Laura*

dontwantyoutoknow 06-06-2011 03:25 PM

Hey everyone, sorry I've not been around lately. Don't really know where my head's at.

*hugs everyone*

Does anybody want to connect on Tumblr, Facebook or Deviant Art?

I wish there was a way to subscribe to RYL users, so that you can see when they start a thread without having to check their profiles. So wardies, please please PM me a link if you start a thread and need some support. A lot of the time I don't have words and just leave a hug, but I will always listen/read. I don't go through the whole boards much. Any one got a blog or journal they want me to keep up with? Whether on here or elsewhere.

*makes everyone a cuppa*

Doikers 06-06-2011 04:38 PM

*Hugs MJ* If you want to be Facebook friends I'll PM you ?

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 04:49 PM

I give up. Meh. Its for the best I guess

Doikers 06-06-2011 05:42 PM

Don't give up YodaBear *Huge Hugs*

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 05:52 PM

*hugs back* I am trying not to, but I would like to. :/

PoisonedApple 06-06-2011 06:57 PM

*hugs everyone then sits in a corner* well **** a duck I meant to come back up to my office and make a thread and reply to people but R is out sick so I have to cover the front all day except my break and lunch... I guess I'll post more at lunchtime.

PS~ *special hugs Mark* good job on your sobriety!

aklx 06-06-2011 06:59 PM

Sosososo ****ing Angry!

Doikers 06-06-2011 07:31 PM


*Hugs Crimson* Thank you hun :) I'm sorry you're stuck at the front desk.

*Hugs Mrs Pan* Whats up hun?

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 07:53 PM

*hugs doikers, crimson and mrs pan*

What's up Mrs Pan?

*sits in the corner* I am going to just cry here, don't know... I guess this will help

Louise 06-06-2011 09:29 PM

hugs everyone

Doikers 06-06-2011 09:46 PM

*Hugs Louise*

Louise 06-06-2011 09:47 PM

how are you mark

Doikers 06-06-2011 10:05 PM

So Some news about Oliver.
He is currently in hospital after an OD this morning and is expecting to be transfered to a psych ward today . He Sends Cuddles for all .

So I guess he may well be offline for a bit , he asked me to tell you guys .

Doikers 06-06-2011 10:06 PM

I feel okay thanks Louise How are you ?

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 10:19 PM

*hugs all*

Thanks for that info Doikers

dontwantyoutoknow 06-06-2011 10:36 PM

Oh nooo *cuddles for Oliver*

Doikers 06-06-2011 10:51 PM

*Hugs Matthew*

*Hugs MJ*

YodaBearInterrupted 06-06-2011 11:06 PM

*hugs Doikers and MJ*

Apparently, some of my co-workers and grandmother tried to get me to go voluntary after work finished today cause they were "concerned"... *sigh* I had to fight them off (not literally, figuratively)

I hope the rest of the afternoon gets better

Louise 06-06-2011 11:18 PM

i am sorry to hear about oliver thanks for letting us know,

I am not bad just tired mark.

Doikers 06-06-2011 11:31 PM

*Hugs Matthew*

*Hugs Louise*

*Night time Hugs All My Wardies*

PoisonedApple 06-06-2011 11:33 PM

Thanks for letting us know Mark *extra hugs and a care pack for Oliver*
*hugs all*

Ok so this may be triggering for being graphic so I'mma hide it...
The following content has been hidden - Reason : friday after work and the result
I got on the bus friday and when I looked out the window after sitting down, this one guy punches this other guy. Just one punch and the guy was down. He hit the pavement so hard that he just started pouring blood from the back of his head. I kinda went into shock since he landed right next to my seat on the bus. had i been standing there and not in the bus I could have reached over and touched him. That's how close he was. And I've seen fights before and I've seen people bleed before so that's now what freaked me out. He was bleeding so much so fast his blood looked deep purple because it wasn't oxidizing as fast as it was pumping and it was pouring out and down the sidewalk so free-flowingly that it seemed like it had the consistency of water. It reminded me of spilled watercolor paint. (I think this was my brain trying to rationalize it when I went into shock) Even after an EMT got off the bus to help him, he was unresponsive and even with a cloth on the wound and pressure being added he was just pouring blood through and around the cloth.
So this morning when I went to work and we got close to the transit center that image was the first thing to hit my mind. It was so triggering for me. It bordered on the ridiculous side.
I'm feeling better now about it but I worry about this afternoon when I have to go home and tomorrow when I have to come back.

I've also decided this morning to start a mood diary in hopes that it will help out when I have a chance to see a professional (after I find one)... I dunno. I've decided to see a professional before then talked myself out of it.... Repeatedly... But I am trying. I have decided to fix up some physical issues of late too. Maybe I've finally put my figurative foot down on the issue.

Cazki 07-06-2011 12:49 AM

Thanks for letting telling us about Oliver. I'm sorry that you felt so bad that you ended up oding. I'm thinking of you Oliver, your awesome.

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Crimson*

I'm not doing great. I'v been thinking of things.... fed up cant cope

SoMuchMore 07-06-2011 05:21 AM

*hugs mark, crimson, ian, louise, matt, mj, kelly, mrs pan, and everyone else*

I'm so sorry to hear about oliver. thanks for letting us know mark.
thinking of you oliver. *hugs*

I hate it here. 1000 steps backwards when in my hometown.

Doikers 07-06-2011 11:03 AM

*Hugs Crimson* I'm sorry you had to witness that and that it happened at all.

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Laura*

Laura2.0 07-06-2011 02:32 PM

*hugs all*
*cuddles Oliver*

Thanks for letting us know Mark.
How are you all?
I'm busy with feeding kids here and it is suuuper hot. Wish I didn't have to worry about the scars on my arms.

Doikers 07-06-2011 05:18 PM

*Hugs Laura*

dontwantyoutoknow 07-06-2011 05:43 PM

*hugs everyone*

I'm really agitated and restless today. Help?

PoisonedApple 07-06-2011 05:52 PM

*hugs Ian, Mark, Laura-Star, Mute-Laura, MJ*

How is everyone this morning/afternoon/evening?

YodaBearInterrupted 07-06-2011 06:01 PM

Meh. Doing a bit better today I guess

Doikers 07-06-2011 06:44 PM

*Hugs MJ* Do you know why you are so agitated hun? Do you have Meds to take . Could you listen to relaxing sounds if you have an Ipod ?

Doikers 07-06-2011 06:45 PM

I Feel okay thanks Crimson , It feels weird , How are you hun ? *Hugs*

*Hugs Matthew*

PoisonedApple 07-06-2011 07:40 PM

*screams into a pillow* fan-****ing-tastic! A is MIA... she didn't come in this morning, didn't call, didn't answer her cell... S is calling her mom since her mom works down the block in another state office. Either way R is sick again today so I may get back in at lunch or I may just be back in tomorrow... :(

*hugs all and leaves care packs, plushies and chocolates*

Doikers 07-06-2011 08:20 PM

*Squishes Crimson*

Laura2.0 07-06-2011 08:21 PM

*hugs mark*
*hugs MJ* do you want to talk about why you are so agitated and restless?

SoMuchMore 07-06-2011 08:32 PM

*hugs everyone*

Hope everyone is staying safe. Thinking of all of you.

Laura2.0 07-06-2011 08:33 PM

*hugs other Laura and waves*

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