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ˈsäləˌterē 16-01-2011 10:04 PM

Helen says Nando's is a resaurant that specialises in chicken dishes from Portugual.

SparkleKitten 16-01-2011 10:07 PM

*cuddles all* I'm scared of getting a diagnosis. I know I need one so my meds don't damage me or anything, but I'm scared of what they'll say to me :(

Doikers 16-01-2011 10:08 PM

Man ,I'm missing posts , so apologies in advance

shadowedsoul 16-01-2011 10:14 PM

hmm not sure i want to tonight, sorry guys. feeling low again. damn im pathetic

Ileana 16-01-2011 10:15 PM

Hi there *waves*

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 10:16 PM

Sorry had to eat -hugs everyone-

I will tell the ward what I have to say, I just think I should wait until the day gets closer..

SparkleKitten 16-01-2011 10:19 PM

*cuddles Jill* you are NOT pathetic darling, you're wonderful


*cuddles Kitty* what day dear?

Hey Ilena *waves*

Doikers 16-01-2011 10:23 PM

Jill you're not pathetic *Hugs*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs Ileana if okay* Hey I'm Mark, welcome to the ward :)

ˈsäləˌterē 16-01-2011 10:23 PM

*Waves Ileana*

Kitty, we would love to hear what you have to say, but just cause you want us to know how you feel, not as a goodbye, if that's what you're tryin to say.

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 10:29 PM

-hugs sarah and mark-

I'm not sure what day, Sarah. Whenever I run out of non-soberness I'm thinking..

You guys are awesome. It's not your fault. Just know that..

SparkleKitten 16-01-2011 10:30 PM

Kitty please stay safe :(

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 10:36 PM

-snuggles sarah- It won't be for at least a week, possibly a little longer.

I *have* to carry out this plan. It will benefit everyone in the end. Not doing it is hurting everyone around me. I wish I could explain it in such a way that all of you could understand it. But I don't know how. It makes complete sense in my mind..

SparkleKitten 16-01-2011 10:40 PM

What plan, explain, please. I'm worried

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 10:43 PM

I can't explain hun. I don't think I'm allowed... I'm not entirely sure on the rules here but I don't really want to chance it..

MammaMia 16-01-2011 10:47 PM

Guys, just to let you know I'm moving on from RYL. Just don't need it anymore. If anyone wants to stay in contact via FB/MSN, then drop me a PM :) xx

SparkleKitten 16-01-2011 10:50 PM

*cuddles Helen* We'll always be here if you need us hun :) xx

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 10:50 PM

-hugs helen- Stay safe hun.

MammaMia 16-01-2011 10:54 PM

*cuddles you both* Be happy guys =) You'll beat all this **** one day.

SparkleKitten 16-01-2011 10:57 PM

Thanks hun :) x

FlyingNy 16-01-2011 11:16 PM

*Hugs Helen* I'll miss you! You've been great here on the ward and I hope you will come back and visit! The ward's going to be weird without you, but I'm happy for you that you feel able to move on :)

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 11:16 PM

I don't want to do it. -sits in her corner and rocks- Someone please tell me why I shouldn't?

The following content has been hidden - Reason : possibly triggering
Here is the list of reasons I have decided I should:

1. I am a failure. I will never amount to anything in life.
2. My husband wouldn't have to worry about providing for me anymore. And there would be enough food stamps for him to eat for an entire month. With 2 of us, $200 in food stamps just isn't enough. That's living on $100 of food for an entire month for each of us. If I weren't here, he would have the full $200 to use for food for himself.
3. I know I was never meant to be here. I am Wiccan and believe in reincarnation. However, I believe I was a soul awaiting a body, and my biological mom accidentally got pregnant, and the baby needed a soul, so I got sucked in. That is why all of this horrible stuff has happened to me I just know it. It won't end until I do.

Everyone would benefit if I were no longer here...

I think that about sums it all up nicely. Well, not nicely, but it pretty much sums up all of the reasons I have come up with in a shorter list. I have no reasons as to why I shouldn't.

Edit: I find it selfish of me to not go through with the plans just because I don't want to..

ˈsäləˌterē 16-01-2011 11:26 PM

For one, because you're a wonderful caring person and we would miss you terribly!

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 11:32 PM

I'm not wonderful, though. I'm utterly useless and will never amount to anything..

-rocks back and forth faster-

ˈsäləˌterē 16-01-2011 11:36 PM

You can't judge that for yourself. That's up to other people and we say you are wonderful! You're not useless sweetie! You're a good friend to anyone on here who needs one, including me! Trust me, you already are something!

PsychoKitty2010 16-01-2011 11:39 PM

Not according to my mom...or anyone in real life, really...

Ileana 16-01-2011 11:55 PM


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2660485)
Jill you're not pathetic *Hugs*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs Ileana if okay* Hey I'm Mark, welcome to the ward :)

Definitely, it's ok. I'm not new here lol I'm an oldie, used to post here all the time when it started...i don;t come online much these days.

Cazki 17-01-2011 01:46 AM

Heya guys :) How is everyone?

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Helen* I'l miss you Helen :( you joined about a month after me i think. Take care hun

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Lia*

Welcome back Ileana :) *Hugs Ileana*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs Jill*

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 01:46 AM

-spots and waves to ian- How you be?

Cazki 17-01-2011 01:49 AM

I'm not bad thanks... Kitty. Not that it would matter if i wasnt.

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 01:54 AM

...yes it would..

Cazki 17-01-2011 01:54 AM

How are you Kitty?

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 02:02 AM

Still alive. Not doing so hot. Still looking for (a) reason(s).. But alive..

Cazki 17-01-2011 02:04 AM

Oh im so sorry i just read the other pages. Please dont do anything, i care about you and so do many others here.

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 04:59 AM

-spots and waves to solo- hows you?

ˈsäləˌterē 17-01-2011 05:05 AM

You're so sweet kitty! I'm still struggling. I don't know if I'm tryin to talk myself into or out of breaking my streak of almost 4 months free. I've also been worrying about you. Im havin computer trouble so I've missed the last few hours n I'm typing this on my iPod.

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 05:06 AM

-offers protective teddy- Don't worry bout me. No point in it..

ˈsäləˌterē 17-01-2011 05:13 AM

Thanks for the teddy! I can't help worryin about you kitty. I care! If we switched places, I'm sure you'd worry bout me too.

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 05:16 AM

Yeah I would. Cuz I care about everyone but myself. That's why I have to go through with the plan.. I care too much for the people in my life to not go through with it... Sorry

-curls up in her dark corner-

I don't want to do it...but I have to..

ˈsäləˌterē 17-01-2011 05:18 AM

I'm gonna come sit with you.

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 05:21 AM

K, if you want..

ˈsäləˌterē 17-01-2011 05:23 AM

Yep! Are you still cold?

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 05:29 AM

No, not anymore..

ˈsäləˌterē 17-01-2011 05:31 AM

Good! Maybe you'd like an iced coffee then?

frenchhorn 17-01-2011 05:34 AM

*hugs Kitty and Solo* sorry your both struggling, can I come sit with you?

ˈsäləˌterē 17-01-2011 05:35 AM

Of course Oliver! Scooch right in here.

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 05:37 AM

Thanks Solo but I think if I had an iced coffee I'd get cold again..

Sure Oliver, you can come sit with us.

-sits up and hugs knees to make more room and starts rocking back and forth-

frenchhorn 17-01-2011 05:39 AM

*comes and sits with Solo and Kitty*
thanks both. *hugs both*

PsychoKitty2010 17-01-2011 05:41 AM

-hugs oliver- You okies?

ˈsäləˌterē 17-01-2011 05:42 AM

Thanks Oliver! *hugs back* How ya doin?

frenchhorn 17-01-2011 05:47 AM

awful. *hugs*

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