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misskitty112 02-12-2010 01:54 AM

*hugs ward*
Hey Ian, I haven't talked to you in a while. How are you? *hugs* =)
*Hugs Helen* I'm sorry you feel so low. I'm glad to see I'm not the only person who's so scared of getting better, though.
*Hugs Lia* Are you feeling any better, darling?
*Hugs Laura* good luck with the professor! They can be horrible, can't they? Love you, dear.

I finished writing my news story on SI. And while I think it's the best one I've done, I am so triggered... *breathes* (On a related note, never write about people who SI, when you already really really want to.)

FlyingNy 02-12-2010 02:18 AM

*Hugs Felicia* I'm alright now thanks :) Do try to resist said urges, I know it's hard sometimes. Too hard. But you can do it :)

misskitty112 02-12-2010 02:26 AM

I'm glad you're alright.
I'm trying to resist the urges... keeping busy.

risenfromperdition 02-12-2010 02:57 AM

you know where i aaaam :) stay strong lovely <3333


misskitty112 02-12-2010 03:16 AM

lol Heather. I love you.

risenfromperdition 02-12-2010 04:28 AM

*giggle* love you too :)

Doikers 02-12-2010 09:51 AM

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Felicia*

I made it back to my flat , the main roads are all gritted . I love my parents but spending too much time with them can send me bonkers When I moved out 13 months and a half ago I was on edge all the time , now I'm used to privacy , To be able to do what I want and eat when and what I want . I hope I can cope over Christmas . Sorry minor minor rant . Does feeling this was make me a bad person ?:S

Doikers 02-12-2010 11:57 AM

I hammered up my Christmas Lights , I dropped quite a few nail fixings and hammered my thumb more than once but I did it! My first ever decourations that are all mine !! Its a bit angular but I bet it will look pretty at night , they are all white lights :)

one_step_closer 02-12-2010 01:12 PM

I don't think that makes you a bad person at all, Mark. I love my brother too but spending too much time with him now that he has moved out makes me on edge.

Well done with the Christmas lights! Pictures? I haven't put any of my decorations up yet.

Doikers 02-12-2010 05:44 PM

Thanks Lindsay *Hugs* I can't figure out how to make pictures come up on RYL . umm they are the wrong file type and too big :S erp .

Group went well , There were only 4 clients there , (The Weather I guess?:S) I live ten minutes for the hall but had my One on one with Kat before and she drove us both there , A Professor Lee was there , he is one of the people who came up with this course but he had to leave a bit early as he had to travel 150 miles up to North Wales in the snow. It went okay though :)

misskitty112 02-12-2010 06:54 PM

*hugs Mark* that does not make you a bad person. I hate going home from uni, cause I get used to not having that "authority influence" in my life. I bet your lights are awesome! I haven't put mine up yet. I do have a little tree in my dorm though.

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you?

Sooo... I cut last night. Not bad. It's actually rather pathetic. Shouldn't even count. I really want to make it worse... cause I'm just screwed in the head like that.

Doikers 02-12-2010 06:57 PM

*Hugs Felicia* I'm sorry you cut but please try not to make it worse :( You're not "screwed in the head" Hun, I know how you're feeling , Please take good care *Extra Squishes*

FlyingNy 02-12-2010 06:58 PM

Glad your meetings wer good Mark :) And no, it doesn't make you a bad person. I can't stand to spend more than about 30 seconds with my family.

*Hugs Felicia* I'm sorry you seem to be struggling so much right now. I wish there was something I could do other than say you can always PM me if you need to. Like Mark said, please try not to make it worse. I hate that so many of us are struggling. I love my wardies. <3

I had no school today due to the vast amounts of snow, I don't think we have ever had this much! I don't think I will be in tomorrow either, but I will go to bed at reasonable o'clock to make sure. Today was good though. I went out with my friend and sister and we had a nice walk and got stupidly lost, which was my fault. I have learned I need to admit it when I am lost, but I doubt I will ever take that lesson into account, and not just when walking. All in all though, it was a good day :)

nicole94 02-12-2010 07:12 PM

*hugs everyone* had the tiniest bit of snow again today, nothing special though. :( watched the news, they reckon the south-east is one of the worst hit, but we have nothing in oxfordshire. :/

misskitty112 02-12-2010 07:20 PM

Nicole, we only got a little snow too. Now it's just bitterly cold... ugh.

youngatheart 02-12-2010 07:29 PM

we only got snow today, the kids stayed home. hope it goes soon though as i need shopping!!

Doikers 02-12-2010 07:32 PM

*Hugs Youngatheart*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Lia*

nicole94 02-12-2010 07:33 PM

i know :( it's just icy here. SO slippy :(

one_step_closer 02-12-2010 07:34 PM

I only like snow on Christmas day when there's nowhere to go and i'm all warm inside.

I don't know what to do. I feel so bad and i'm tired of this life. I keep imagining ways that I could die and it's really tempting to act on what i'm thinking. I don't know if I should phone the voluntary crisis team or maybe even the real crisis team. I wouldn't know what to say.

FlyingNy 02-12-2010 07:42 PM

Lindsey, you could just tell them what you told us. If you're scared of losing your words and not being able to say anything, you could always write something down in advance and read it out. Please do try and stay safe. *Hugs*

*Hugs Nicole* They aren't kidding. I'm in the south east and we're up to about 6 inches. It's everywhere. All the schools are closed. How are you other than your outrage at the lack of snow?

*Hugs everyone else* How are you all?

Doikers 02-12-2010 07:51 PM

*Hugs Lindsey* I agree with Lia, Please talk to one of your crisis teams. Writing things down is always a good idea , I've done it in the past . If you are getting tempted it's important that you talk to someone I think .

misskitty112 02-12-2010 08:08 PM

*hugs Lindsay* I agree with Lia and Mark, please talk to one of your teams.

I'm already feeling low, and I'm listening to a song that just makes me feel worse. Why am I doing this? Why?

On a cool note, once I get paid and SI awareness day gets near, I found the shirt I'm gonna order. It says "I live to tell my story." and has an orange ribbon saying self injure awareness day. I want it so badly.

Doikers 02-12-2010 08:18 PM

Felicia , Try and listen to upbeat music , whatever type/genre you like right now . Is March 1st S.I. Awareness Day ?

misskitty112 02-12-2010 08:28 PM

Yep, March 1st is SI Awareness day.
Although I'd wear the shirt wayyy more often than that. haha.

nicole94 02-12-2010 08:42 PM

*hugs mark, lia, lindsay and felicia*
lindsay-please try and look after yourself hun.
lia-heh. strange, oxfordshire is in the south east too, i think its the only place with no snow. And i'm pretty triggerd right now tbh :( you?
mark-how are you tonight?
felicia- :O where did you see that shirt?? i want one! and please try and listen to some other music and distract yourself talking to us lot :P

Doikers 02-12-2010 08:48 PM

I'm feeling okay thanks Nicole , Bushed but feeling okay . *Hugs* How are you tonight?

Oh and Felicia I second Nicoles wanting of that T shirt , where do you get it from?

nicole94 02-12-2010 09:05 PM

*hugs mark* glad you're ok :) i'm pretty triggerd, but fighting through.

Doikers 02-12-2010 09:10 PM

*Hugs Nicole* Why so Triggered?

risenfromperdition 02-12-2010 09:15 PM

hey peoples :)
who wants to give me focus and concentration =s

nicole94 02-12-2010 09:20 PM

*hugs mark* i think it was college if i'm honest, i had to do my PDP and it was about my skills and qualities. But i don't have any, and the tutors were all telling me my 'skills and qualities' which aren't true, and i HATE that they think i am better than i am, like i am getting praise that i haven't earned, so i really wanna SI to punish myself :(

Doikers 02-12-2010 09:23 PM

Nicole Hun *Hugs* You don't deserve to be punished , I feel wrong when I get praise I don't feel I deserve but I think you ( and I ) can just be too hard on ourselves unjustly .

Doikers 02-12-2010 09:33 PM

*Tries to stay awake until 9pm*

Doikers 02-12-2010 09:40 PM

*Spots Julie and Hugs*
*Waves to Owen*

nicole94 02-12-2010 09:44 PM

*Hugs mark* i know :( i just feel like i have no skills or qualities, and they are trying to make me look good when i haven't earned it. eugh.

risenfromperdition 02-12-2010 09:45 PM

hey everyone <3

Doikers 02-12-2010 09:49 PM

*Hugs Nicole* I do feel the same way a LOT of the time , I strongly dislike getting compliments sometimes , I don't feel I deserve them . Are you safe hun?

Doikers 02-12-2010 09:58 PM

*Spots and Hugs Oliver* How are you Oliver?

Doikers 02-12-2010 10:07 PM

*Night time Hugs My Ward mates*

Please take good care guys :)

FlyingNy 02-12-2010 10:14 PM

Night night Mark *Hugs* Sleep tight. Don't let the nargles bite.

Nicole, they wouldn't say it if there was no truth in it, but I see your point. My English teacher was forever beating me up for my self esteem issues (not literally) and telling me I needed more confidence in myself. She once threatened that if she head the words 'I'm going to get a D' come out of my mouth one more time, she was going to give me a D on my next coursework piece. Anyway, point is I know how you feel. You don't deserve to be punished, you should feel proud :)

Cazki 03-12-2010 12:10 AM


Originally Posted by IceQueenHasAHeart (Post 2588066)
I live in Kent too Ian :)

Wow! Do you lol. Where abouts in Kent? I live in Dartford.

I'm ok thanks Kitty, how are you? *Hugs for everyone*

SoMuchMore 03-12-2010 12:18 AM

*hugs everyone tightly*

I wish I could say what is going on in my head.. but i dont think i'll ever be able to :-/

o i was promoted at work tho.. thats a good thing i suppose. trying to keep in mind that one reason is enough.

MammaMia 03-12-2010 12:22 AM

*hugs everybody lots*

Cazki 03-12-2010 12:27 AM

Heya Helen and Laura, how are you both?

MammaMia 03-12-2010 12:33 AM

I'm cold, ill, exhausted & tiny bit low...

misskitty112 03-12-2010 12:50 AM

For everyone who asked where I found the shirt I want:

It's a girl's style though... I see some men's shirts, so maybe they have it on there somewhere.

risenfromperdition 03-12-2010 04:35 AM

*sleeps in corner*

effervescence 03-12-2010 07:51 AM

Hello everyone. I haven't been in here for ages, like a year, but I may need to check in again. Just getting tired of everything.

Doikers 03-12-2010 10:18 AM

*Hugs Laura* Congratulations on your Promotion !!!!!

*Hugs Effervescence* Hello ,I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Helen* I'm sorry you feel all those things :( I hope you're less tired and exhausted This morning and I hope you feel more Up too :)

one_step_closer 03-12-2010 12:34 PM

Hi everyone.

I'm seeing my occupational therapist today but I don't know if i'm going to take my car or just get the bus. I don't even know if the busses are running. I hope I can get my car out and that it's safe to drive.

Doikers 03-12-2010 12:53 PM

OOHH Lindsay *Hugs* Drive safe :)

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