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Doikers 24-09-2010 12:21 PM

I have an appointment at 12pm with Kat whom I have never had a proper appointment with before ( She does the accupuncture ) but she is really nice , I think it will be good to talk face to face with someone :)

How are you doing Helen? *Hugs*

xxjuliexx 24-09-2010 12:22 PM

i maded a post
(it's not important)
...:notsure: not that important...

Doikers 24-09-2010 12:23 PM

*Hugs Jill*

Doikers 24-09-2010 12:25 PM

*Hugs Julie* I read your post , I'm sorry you are so low :( but you do make sense.

xxjuliexx 24-09-2010 12:27 PM

thanks marky u didnt have to read it but thanks

MammaMia 24-09-2010 12:31 PM

Jill, I'm sorry you feel so unsafe. Maybe you should go to A&E, if you're feeling that bad?

Julie, I'll read your post in a minute.

Mark, I feel like **** but better than I was yesterday. Haven't cried so far today. Doctors went okay.

xxjuliexx 24-09-2010 12:45 PM

ignore my post it's not important

xxjuliexx 24-09-2010 01:01 PM

*curls up in a corner in a box*

SparkleKitten 24-09-2010 03:59 PM

All pale and shaky and afraid today. I'm scared of myself :(

Doikers 24-09-2010 04:03 PM

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry you feel so awful :( I hate it when I'm scared of myself .

Doikers 24-09-2010 04:08 PM

*Spots and hugs Louise*

misskitty112 24-09-2010 04:30 PM

*Hugs Julie and Sarah*

Oh my god, I survived the week! Whoooo! Know what this means? Banned Books week is next week and I have about double the amount of work to do for it that I did this week. Why can't I just learn to say "I can't do everything"?
The campout for this weekend may be canceled, and I'm secretly hoping for that. I need this weekend to catch up on all the schoolwork I've neglected, but I'd feel guilty not going to the campout, ya know?
I can't do everything though. I've pretty much given up most of my life this week to Jesus Week, even though it meant barely sleeping, not having time to eat, basically just going to class, work, Jesus week stuff, planning meetings. I. can't. keep. doing. this. But if I don't our *wonderful* vice president of BCM makes some comment about how I'm the secretary and don't do my job.
I'm going to land myself in a hospital if I don't start caring about me though.

On a non ranty note, my Witchcraft course starts at 1 today! woooo!

Doikers 24-09-2010 04:45 PM

*Hugs Felicia* Wow it sounds like you are working REALLY hard , please try and take just a little "Felicia Time" . Glad you are looking forward to your Witchcraft course :)

shadowedsoul 24-09-2010 04:46 PM

Cuddles all. Helen *shakes head* I'm okay everthings allright. Curls up

shadow13 24-09-2010 05:37 PM

I feel... Lost. Like I'm floating. Like this isn't real...Dizzy.

PoisonedApple 24-09-2010 05:57 PM

*worries and sits*
my friend g needs to get her legs amputated higher up (this makes the 3rd surgery since she was 7... she's 26)

FlyingNy 24-09-2010 06:12 PM

*Hugs everyone*

Welcome to the ward Shad. I think I already told you I'm Lia.

nicole94 24-09-2010 07:05 PM

*hugs everyone*

MammaMia 24-09-2010 07:15 PM

*hugs all*

Hope you really are okay Jill, because I don't believe you somehow x

nicole94 24-09-2010 07:27 PM

*hugs helen* how're you?

MammaMia 24-09-2010 07:42 PM

I'm itchy as hell, damm eczema :( Trying not to scratch. Other than that I'm much better than yesterday. How you doing??

nicole94 24-09-2010 07:48 PM

aaw, do you have any cream or anything you can out on it?
i'm completley freezing

SoMuchMore 24-09-2010 07:56 PM

*hugs crimson* i'm so sorry to hear about your friend. My thoughts are with her.

*hugs julie, jill, nicole, lia, and sarah*

*hugs oliver* good luck with the police. hope that it goes okay. sorry that you are feeling so slow right now, don't worry about posting too much. We just like to know that you are okay.

*hugs helen* you are right, none of us are "bad" wardies. How r u today?

*hugs felicia* wow you are busy.. I really can understand that, uni is keeping me crazy busy too, luckily the last 2 days or so ive gotten to slow down a little. Next week will be back into the craziness tho lol. Please try to take care of yourself. Glad that you are looking forward to your witchcraft course!

*hugs shad* i'm sorry you are feeling dizzy/floating. I think I can kinda understand what you mean by that... it sounds sort of dissociated. Here if you need to talk.

*hugs mark* good luck with the appointment!

Well I think i slept long enough heh.. its 12:45pm... i just got up. Now I have to clean my apartment and try to get some homework done because my parents are coming up here tomorrow so I wont have any time to do things tomorrow.

I had a panic attack at work last night. Let me tell you, was that fun. (sarcasm.. if you couldnt tell heh). I was trying to hide it for so long but then i just kinda walked out for a few minutes. Work people have no idea about anything so they were kinda like, why r u leaving? I think i just said something about having to use the restroom.. i dont really remember. I wanted to SI so bad to stop it... but couldnt b/c at work, and because i dont want my rents to know that i'm actively SI-ing. Anyway, that was my evening. the newsroom was very tense last night, the editors were angry and yelling.. i think that is probably what triggered panic-y feelings.

FlyingNy 24-09-2010 08:00 PM

*Hugs Laura and Nicole*

Hey guys. Somone said to me yesterday, 'you really don't trust anyone do you?' That's not strictly true. I trust people here on the ward. I know you won't judge me. You won't blame me or think any differently of me.

Oh and Nicole, so am I. I have my massive dressing gown on that makes me look about 20 stone and i'm wrapped in my duvet.

nicole94 24-09-2010 08:05 PM

*hugs laura and lia*
lia-i know right, winters here! lol.
and also, lia, if you want to tell us what you were worrying about last night, we are all here for you. and my PM box is always open.x

one_step_closer 24-09-2010 08:05 PM

*hugs everyone*

I can't live with BPD. My emotions are too strong to cope with.

nicole94 24-09-2010 08:08 PM

*hugs lindsay* you can live with it sweetie, i know you can, and beleive me i know how strong the emotions can get, but it's not always like that, are you in DBT?

FlyingNy 24-09-2010 08:13 PM

*Hugs Lindsey* Nicole's right, you can live with this Lindsey. We all have faith in you and understand it won't be easy, but you're strong enough to do this. The very fact that you're hear now proves that. EDIT: I've just been nosing on your profile and I see you're 1 week and 2 days free. See, you can do it. It might be a small step, but it's those that build the foundations to true recovery and happiness and I know you can do it. :)

Thanks Nicole, I had the strongest urge to call you Rachel just then for reasons unknown, I don't think there's even a Rachel on this ward...anyway. Yep, it certianly is, but that means Christmas :) I've already eaten four mince pies and it's only Spetember.

I've been on this ward for 3 months and 17 days and have finally built up a trust in the people here. Feel as if you've achieved something, there are very few people I trust completely with anything I have to say. I will find the words one day, I just don't know if there's anything to tell.

nicole94 24-09-2010 08:15 PM

lol lia, where the hell did you get rachel from?! and no i dont think there is a rachel on this ward :/ we need a rachel XD. and dont you go on about christmas, my mum is obsessed XD

FlyingNy 24-09-2010 08:35 PM

Lol, sorry. I love it though. Don't you? My hands are cold.

How are you today anyway Nicole?

nicole94 24-09-2010 08:41 PM

lol, it's my feet that are cold!
i'm gd taa, feeling a bit weird as i'm sorta realising i have a crush on my tutor already XD it's not my fault! she's lovley! <3 how're you?

FlyingNy 24-09-2010 08:46 PM

I didn't know you were a lesbian. Not that there's anything wrong with it, I've no room to throw stones, I just didn't know is all. Word of warning though, you don't even want to go there. I fell in love with my English teacher and I could have backed off when it was simply a crush but I didn't and I fell hard on the ground and am still there now she's walked off and left me. Now that makes it sound like something happened, it didn't, what I mean is she's moved away. Anyway, I'm just gonna shut up.

nicole94 24-09-2010 08:53 PM

lol, you didnt? you should do (although actually i'm bi, so y'know) we talked in the homosexual home in general support threads. and you told me about your english teacher. i know nothings ever gonna happen, but i can dream XD shes just so nice! shes really pretty and she is so understanding about my MH issues. <3

shadowedsoul 24-09-2010 08:58 PM

Cuddles all. Erm. Curls up in corner

FlyingNy 24-09-2010 08:59 PM

Ah yes, I remember now. I just forgot. Things tend to fly my memory pretty often. Just don't fall in love with her because trust me, it hurts like hell.

*Hugs Jill* How are you today?

nicole94 24-09-2010 09:03 PM

lol, thats ok. and i think i sorta may be falling in love with her :/ but its ok, i've been here so many times before that i know how to handle it.
*hugs jill*

shadowedsoul 24-09-2010 09:12 PM

Hey lia:don't think I can answer that honestly right now.
How's you?

FlyingNy 24-09-2010 09:12 PM

How have you survived it? I couldn't do it more than once. It hurts too much. Two years I loved her for. I still do. Just I'll never see her again.

I'm alright Jill. Just rocking out here in the ward. We're all here for you if you do want to talk though.

SparkleKitten 24-09-2010 09:13 PM

*cuddles all*

So I got an appointment to see a surgeon about my gallbladder. I'm scared. Really scared. I know I can't go on like this but I also know I don't want surgery. :(

Thanks for being here for me through everything. Some days I really need people to talk to who won't judge, so thanks

nicole94 24-09-2010 09:17 PM

lia-i think it helps that i can completley emotionally detatch myself from situations when they get too hard... :/

FlyingNy 24-09-2010 09:21 PM

I'm learning how to do that. For months after she left I felt nothing. I didn't allow myself to.

Sarah, it's ok, we're always here if you need us. I know what you mean. I love this place too. I don't have a lot of advice about tomorrow, but I'm sure you'll be OK. We'll all be thinking of you.

shadowedsoul 24-09-2010 09:25 PM

Cheers lia. Erm got so many messed up thoughts running through my head. Also feeling very triggered the thoughts won't go away.

Doikers 24-09-2010 09:25 PM

Well I typed it out and accidently deleted it sheesh . Very loud hectic evening with mum,dad,sister,bro in law , Baby neice, Granny , Hyper Uncle , Aunt , 4 year old cousin I've never met . Was okay glad many have left and its quiet .

My Assesment for this therapy???? meetings went okay , I came out to a new worker ( to me ) as an injurer , was a little awkward but okay .

nicole94 24-09-2010 09:26 PM

yeah. its like sometimes i cant, but theres certain things that i can. heh. i think i just like her because she is so caring, yesterday we were in a lesson and she changed to whole lesson plan so that i didnt get panicky. i dont know any other teachers that would do that.

MammaMia 24-09-2010 09:27 PM

I can vouch for the hurting like hell bit. Not that I fell in love with any of my teachers. Well I've had crushes, think most people do, but some fall harder than that I know and it uscks :(

*cuddles everyone*

Lia, I think it was you that asked how I was? I'm relatively okay, itchy, ha! How you doing? Thank you for your PMs last night x

SparkleKitten 24-09-2010 09:29 PM

Wish it was tomorrow, but alas its not until 21st October, so I'm panicing already :( hope you are all okay *massive cuddles*

MammaMia 24-09-2010 09:35 PM

What's 21st October Sarah? *cuddles tight*

Ward's moving fast again tonight, don't think we've moved this fast in a while?? Or maybe it's just because I'm not around in the ward so much these days aha.

Kahlia1981 24-09-2010 09:38 PM

*huggles all*

Just realised that it's our milestone day Helen & April again today (25 Sept)!!
*big hugs to all*

Feeling extremely tired as I got up at 4am.

SparkleKitten 24-09-2010 09:40 PM

Consultation with a surgeon :(

I may hate my gallbladder but I want to keep it :p

Doikers 24-09-2010 09:41 PM

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Jill*

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