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risenfromperdition 13-06-2010 06:16 PM

*hugs tight* im sorry to hear that. i know theres nothing to say to make it better, but just know am thinking of you and take care <3

MammaMia 13-06-2010 06:45 PM


Originally Posted by one_step_closer (Post 2350074)
My Dad died today. :crying:

I'm really sorry to hear that darling :( *cuddles tight* We're all here for you =[

Doikers 13-06-2010 06:52 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* I'm so sory to hear that :(

SoMuchMore 13-06-2010 09:14 PM

*cuddles lindsay* i'm so sorry. We are here if you need to talk hun.

*hugs everyone else* sorry I dont have much advice for you guys right now, but i am reading.

Kahlia1981 13-06-2010 11:00 PM

*hugs/waves at everyone*

Sorry in advance if I miss you in individual replies but my concentration and memory are really crappy:

Lindsay: I'm so sorry hun. *cuddles you* Here to help in any way we can.

Hels: Have you spoken to a Dr about the swallowing/gagging problem with tablets? Just to rule out any physical cause? I hope you enjoy your holiday by the way. *big hugs*

Mark: I hope that you managed to get through without SI but even if you didn't remember that losing one battle does NOT mean you lost the war. And, to be honest, I really do hear you on mothers trying to control what you eat. I'm 28 until Septermber, and if my mother accompanies me to do the grocery shopping she keeps making comments about what I put into the trolley and is always asking me what I'm cooking for dinner and so forth. *big hugs*

Everyone that I've missed: I have been reading what everyone has been posting, and the various threads associated with them, even if I haven't responded. I'm sorry that so many of us are struggling right now. I am thinking of all of you and hoping that there will be some light at the end of the tunnel that isn't an oncoming train.

I have to go out and buy some clothes this week. I don't really have anything suitable for winter, and winter is definitely here. I guess that happens when you have a substantial weight change in a year. *shrugs*

My mood's been really low the last couple of days although I've been putting on the "fine" mask. The facade of happiness. I've said something a couple of times and then said "just joking" when I wasn't joking at all. I don't even know why. *sigh*

*leaves hugs and safe care packages on the table and a box filled with stuffed animals beside the table* - You can never have too many stuffed animals :p

Scarletdreamer 13-06-2010 11:33 PM

*cuddles lindsay* so sorry, hon... :(

and i updated my r/v as not to take up space in here with my whinging... :-S

*cuddles everyone else* sorry for lack of individual replies... am sooo anxious right now. :'(

risenfromperdition 13-06-2010 11:50 PM

gah. had dinner at 4:20... am gona be hungry later now.. bad =[

MammaMia 13-06-2010 11:51 PM

Kahlia, I mentioend it to same doctor when I went to see her about going on the pill and stuff, I think she sorta agreed it was probably related to my overdosing heh :/ But going to speak to her again about it, well I have to. So yeah...

wolfos3d 14-06-2010 03:36 AM


Originally Posted by one_step_closer (Post 2350074)
My Dad died today. :crying:

*hugs* :sad:

anarchistl0ve 14-06-2010 05:38 AM


Originally Posted by one_step_closer (Post 2350074)
My Dad died today. :crying:

:( I know your pain i lost my mom last year. how many years young was he?

risenfromperdition 14-06-2010 06:08 AM

*curls up in corner* so tierd o.o
how're you becca?

anarchistl0ve 14-06-2010 06:13 AM

Bit better today.

risenfromperdition 14-06-2010 06:18 AM

glad you're a bit better :)
*yawn* im bored lol

Doikers 14-06-2010 12:09 PM

Morning everyone .
Late morning that it is.
*Waves and Hugs*

Doikers 14-06-2010 12:34 PM

I just posted my R/V link I'ts just me being self absorbed. sorry

xxjuliexx 14-06-2010 12:58 PM

*offers hugs to mark*

Scarletdreamer 14-06-2010 01:00 PM

Mark, love, it's not you being self-absorbed. We all need a place to rant and just get our feelings out and I'm glad that you started one and let us know when you've updated it. I, for one, am glad to know what is going on with you and what you're thinking about but won't post here. *hugs* I'm sorry you feel the way that you do, but I can understand, because I feel the same way... waste of space/time/energy/breath/money, etc. :( I wish I could make it all better for you, for all of you, but I can't. :( *holds you*

I'm doing okay today. Have to leave for work in half an hour... ugh... only have one meeting today, though, which is good - if it's not cancelled - the poverty workgroup. I'm hoping that it's not going to be unGodly hot outside today... grrrr... that makes me so frustrated when I'm all sweaty and sticky and nasty, without having done any type of exercise at all (except running up and down stairs every once in awhile, lol). So yeah. Ugh, how I dislike hot weather. Especially when it's humid, which it is now. :(

Anyway, sorry to whinge... :-/

*spies a Mark and glomps*

*leaves a great big box of cuddles for everyone on the table - help yourselves!!* :)

shadowedsoul 14-06-2010 01:58 PM

I hate me, why the hell was I born. Waste of space.

wolfos3d 14-06-2010 02:32 PM

*hugs Mark* You are not a waste of space.

I baked cookies! *puts them on the table* I even ate one of them.
I updated my r/v thread too.

Scarletdreamer 14-06-2010 03:01 PM

i'll go read it once i'm done here, jess. *cuddles* thanks for the cookies, they're delicious!! :)

i spy a mark too!! *glomps again because apparently she missed the first time* hehe...

i'm at home working today... woot woot. the computer at work wouldn't work and my supervisor has the week off, so one of the other people there said i could work from home. so work from home i shall do. :) that makes me happy... closer to jarrod, closer to my blades (you didn't hear me say that), closer to food when i get hungry, etc., etc... home is just better. heh.

so i'm going to have to figure out what to do today. i still have to type up my weekly notes to my faculty supervisor so i will probably be pretty busy with that today... urgh. :-/ oh well. i have to get it done by today i think, so yeah. :-/ hope he doesn't get angry with me...

*sighs and curls up next to mark to work on her notes*

Doikers 14-06-2010 03:01 PM

*Hugs Julie , Jessica , shadowedsoul, april :)*

So I the way it work for me is that my houseing benefit gets paid straight from the benefit people too my landlord and I found out today that it's not been paid for 2 week. I've been living here without rent , I hope it's just some computer blip and nothing serious like me being evicted! ,

To the tune of Bob the Builder,

Am I anxious ? Yes I am!

Ugh triggered.......

Is Glomped 2nd time around

shadowedsoul 14-06-2010 03:43 PM

Hmm my mood has gone from bad to worse. All that's
running through my mind is iwant to hurt myself really
badly. Really stiuped thoughts like everbody would be better
without me here. All I do is really stuiped stuff and cause
argro. I hate me iam such a waste of space.

MammaMia 14-06-2010 04:30 PM

Am I the only one who doesn't post about their R/V thread being updated? Think you've set off a trend here April :P

Oh & if anyone takes offence at me saying that, then my apologies, because it certainly wasn't intended.

Really worried about someone, but trying to do other stuff.

wolfos3d 14-06-2010 04:40 PM

Heh. Maybe you should start posting about yours. :P It does mean that we aren't bitching in here as well though so that must be one advantage.

one_step_closer 14-06-2010 05:31 PM

I've had a stressful day, getting my Dad's death certificate and registering the death, phoning people like his GP etc. I'm feeling exhausted and numb. This is so unreal.

PoisonedApple 14-06-2010 05:58 PM

Sorry I haven't been around much everyone. I was getting so stressed and just all around ucky that David made me stay home from work Wed-Friday of last week. He even called in sick for me all three days. So now my cover story to coworkers is that I had a debilitating migraine. I get them sometimes but usually not bad enough to stop me working so not entirely implausible. I got bored of being home doing nothing and now all but the kids room is cleaned in my house... all the laundry and dishes done, stove wiped down, counters wiped down, sinks shiny like new, etc etc. Even all my clothes hung up or folded and put away instead of a heap. *nods* But back to the grind this morning. *puts head down* I don't want to be here. Me n David should switch places and him work and me stay home with the kids for a bit. (excepting that my pay is crap and his job experience would land worse than what I've got...)

Kahlia1981 14-06-2010 06:28 PM

Hello all.

It's early in the morning. That kind of time where people like to say "it's too early in the morning for it to be early in the morning". I'm a wee bitty bit cold so I'll send some of that to those of you that are having problems with the head - although you can send the humidity elsewhere because we get severe problems with that here - if you guys can send some of the warmth this way.

I'm struggling to keep up so my apologies for not doing individual replies. Just wanted to drop in and let you know that I'm thinking of you all.

*leaves hugs and care packages on the table*

PoisonedApple 14-06-2010 06:50 PM


Originally Posted by MammaMia (Post 2352162)
Am I the only one who doesn't post about their R/V thread being updated? Think you've set off a trend here April :P

Oh & if anyone takes offence at me saying that, then my apologies, because it certainly wasn't intended.

Really worried about someone, but trying to do other stuff.

Nope. There's a few still that don't. And I don't always say when mine's updated... just when I need some support on it or can't bring myself to retype something :)
No offense taken though *cuddles*

PoisonedApple 14-06-2010 08:22 PM

Anyone else find scratches and cuts on themselves and have no idea where they came from or how they got there?
*sits and waits for someone to be here so it's not so very lonely*

SoMuchMore 14-06-2010 08:33 PM

*hugs crimson* Sounds like you needed a few days off.. sorry that you are back to the grind today. And that has happened to me before about the scratches and cuts, it can be kinda concerning. Normally though they arent too bad.

*hugs helen* i only posted in here once to say that mine was updated and it was b/c i didnt want to trigger or re-type it out. lol no offense taken though. How r u today?

*hugs april* glad to hear that you are doing okay today. I hate being sticky too. Yesterday my work was so humid, even tho it wasnt hot in there it was still gross.

*hugs mark* hope that your rent gets all sorted out. It seems like you always have problems with bills that arent your fault... so unnecessary.

*hugs lindsay* I'm sorry about your dad hun. Hope you are alright, here if you need to talk.

*hugs jill and jess*
Thanks for the cookies jess! *munches on one*

*hugs kahlia* Its definitely not cold here.. you can have about 10 degrees (Fahrenheit) and then it would be perfect here and warmer for u :-P

So busy with work. Its throwing me into a funky sleep pattern. I dont think its good that I'm going to bed every night at 3:30am and waking up at 11 or 12... oops. Dunno what else to do tho, i dont like getting home from work at 1 and then going straight to bed. Need time to unwind.

MammaMia 14-06-2010 08:42 PM

Glad nobody took offence at what I said, to be fair, it was bit unnecessary. Think was trying make myself laugh in a strange way :/

Laura, I don't know how I feel? Numb? Just feel relieved that finally heard from my best friend about 3 hours ago and she told me everything, so feel so much calmer about that at least.

risenfromperdition 14-06-2010 08:48 PM

*snuggles everyone*
its yuck out lol

PoisonedApple 14-06-2010 08:54 PM

yay! people are around!
yeah its not bad just kinda triggering anyway because of location right now *plays ostrich w/ head in sand for a bit* we all need to unwid before bed but if you want to start getting to bed earlier try moving your bedtime back by 15 minutes at a time till your body is used to it and its a time you think is good...
*cuddles everyone*

PoisonedApple 14-06-2010 09:20 PM

i spy a kahlia! *pokes n runs away*

Kahlia1981 14-06-2010 09:26 PM

Crimson: I get that with scratches and cuts, more often with bruises though to be honest. *cuddles you*

Laura: Thank you, we could really do with the warmth. It's freezing (for us) here - 17 degrees Celsius apparently at the moment. Crimson's suggestion about altering the bedtime might be worth a try if you can. *hugs you*

Helen: Sorry, but I read the part of your post directed at Laura and I just wanted to say that I'm glad you heard from your best friend and were feeling relieved and calmer afterwards. *huggles you*

Heather: *glomps you* Sorry to hear it's yuck out. Hope you are doing okay.

*huggles those who want/need/can accept hugs and waves at or sends support to those who don't/can't*

Sorry I haven't been so good at supporting lately. :-( Things really haven't been all that crash hot here. I've just spent the last night awake because I couldn't sleep. Just getting a bit over it all to be perfectly honest. *sigh*

Doikers 14-06-2010 09:51 PM

*Spots an April and Huggles*

Scarletdreamer 14-06-2010 10:00 PM

*huggles mark back* thanks... i needed that. :)

sorry for the lack of individual replies, but just wanted to say, crimson, good to see you around again!! i was wondering where you'd gotten off to and was hoping you were okay. *cuddles* also, what level is lurial now? :D

i'm really not doing too well. we had lunch out, and i ate my entire lunch, which is a lot for me... am so full from it yet. then we went on a walk, my idea, for about an hour... then went to my parents' house. i think i managed to hide my fresh cuts from them, even though they are right in a very visible place and not covered by bandages right now. :-S

i'm so tired. like... seriously exhausted. i'm wondering if i'm anemic or if my dehydration is so severe that it's making me fatigued. i really don't know. i haven't been taking vitamins for months but started back up yesterday... i need to text or call my np about that. :-/ anyone in here have any ideas? lol, i know you're not doctors but hey, you might have some insight that i don't...

*hides in the warren*

Scarletdreamer 14-06-2010 10:10 PM

and i'm going to do it again... r/v has been updated. :-S

xxjuliexx 14-06-2010 10:14 PM

morning all it's 8:14 am
i should really go have breakfast hmmm i dont really wanna:pinch:

risenfromperdition 14-06-2010 10:15 PM

*sits with* have breakfast sweetie, it'll give you energy for the day *nod*

Doikers 14-06-2010 10:15 PM

Morning Julie :-)

PoisonedApple 14-06-2010 10:49 PM


Originally Posted by Scarletdreamer (Post 2352906)
crimson, good to see you around again!! i was wondering where you'd gotten off to and was hoping you were okay. *cuddles* also, what level is lurial now? :D

yeah... surviving. i think lurial is lvl 25 now.... 24 or 25 anyhow... haven't played in a few. i'll probably play some tonight. get my mind off everything. wow and facebook are my plans. i should add you guys eventually :hehe: hard to catch you online for wow when i am at home :P but then for all i know you're on but on another server:satisfied:

*huggles julie* make you a deal you eat something for breakfast and i'll eat something for lunch, yeah?

PoisonedApple 14-06-2010 10:52 PM

april - read your r/v thought i should say something but no pearly marbles left i'm afraid in this mind of mine... though anemia and water are probably the culprit together regarding your dizziness and fatigue. *cuddles*

*tackles mark* how are you today?

Doikers 14-06-2010 11:34 PM

Triggered Crimson , I had to get out of bed as I was biting my arm !! I used to do that years ago I guess it's a form of S.I. .
Anxious about my rent ,
Depresed just because my brain wants to depress me these past couple of weeks , * Sigh*

*Tackles Crimson back*

katnovia 14-06-2010 11:39 PM

hi everyone. Sorry, no big replies or anything..

I just wanted to slip on and basically say 'i'm alright'. been just getting on with every day life, had to in a way.:::::POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING:suicide::::: attempted su on thursday morning, poor attempt, however enough to wave the red flag to tell me to shut down for a bit. i think im alright now. too numb to feel anything.

I wont be about for a while, not sure how long. i'm into hospital tommorrow morning to have my gallbladder whipped out. supposed to be day surgery, but we'll see.

take care everyone, and remember i'm thinking of/praying for (delete where appropriate) all of you. lots of love.

Doikers 14-06-2010 11:44 PM

Oh Kat:( I hope you feel better soon ,
Good luck with your gall bladder surgery tomorow , I hope it go's smoothly :) *Hugs*

katnovia 14-06-2010 11:49 PM

thanks mark *hugs back* i'm sure the op'll be fine...if not ..at least its a good distraction anyway, stops me wanting to kill a certian C*** of a Pedo who currently has more access to my niece and nephew than I do...B*****!........helps with the depression too... i have something uncontrollable/unstoppable to focus on.

Doikers 14-06-2010 11:53 PM

Yeah , just foucs on your Op and it will be over before you knows it:) I personally coulden't tell you where your gall bladder was :S good job I'm not opourating (Spelling?) *Goodnight Hugs* I'll be thinking of you tommorow morning

katnovia 15-06-2010 12:03 AM

right hand side just under the ribcage, snuggled in just below the liver...lol...:) (it's operating *gentle smile*) G'night mark, I appreciate the thoughts *warm hugs*

Scarletdreamer 15-06-2010 12:13 AM

feel so low... :'(

just took a step back into my past and it makes me so sad. shouldn't've done that, bad april.

all i want to do is die, or fast-forward my life to a better time...


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