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MammaMia 22-08-2007 09:26 PM

*hugs you both*

Newlife, can you not get any help? =(

l.e.g.o 22-08-2007 09:35 PM

im meant to be going back to doctors next week

but im not going cos im not being insulted

im sorry

i shouldnt say anything

MammaMia 23-08-2007 02:03 AM

Why do you think they insult you? Or should it be how?

l.e.g.o 23-08-2007 09:20 PM

doctor said that as my parents dont know it suggests i dont love them

also basically looked down on me and says i shouldnt feel how i do and made me feel worse

MammaMia 23-08-2007 11:04 PM

I'm sure you do love them. I've got an appointment coming up to see if I have depression but I haven't told my parents. I rarely tell my parents anything because they never give the response I want, most of the time it's ignore them, or shouldn't you apolgise or whatever. It's ruddy stuipd, sometimes they even tell me off (usually not needed to). And stuff. I love them & all my family but can't talk to them. I just don't want them to know and I don't want them to know I feel like this or anything. I'll probs get meds and will have to hide them. Fun. It's like when I wasn't self harming this year, they've accused me when I was either not doing it or when it was my really bad exzema but my mum don't believe me. :( I hate them for not trusting me. So why should I trust them in telling them stuff whhen I know they'll give me the wrong reaction....

emily.disenchanted 23-08-2007 11:30 PM

I dreampt about him again, I cant do this. I'm trying to get over him for the sake of our friendship which is going to hell in the hand basket any how. I want him and need him and 2 months without seeing him, without his hugs Im going more strange that I usually am. New phone yay, whats the first thing I did, I transfered all the photos of him from my old one across the ones I said I took off my phone but couldnt because I cant get through my day without him. I can sms him without swamping him and when he sms's me I never know how to reply. He is my best friend and its all falling apart *cries*

~*forever_broken*~ 24-08-2007 03:40 AM

*checking in...again...drunk and bleeding*
Don't want to give up my knife...keeping it...am I still allowed in?
*finds corner and collapses*

Johanna80 24-08-2007 08:59 PM

I hate my life *cries and tries not to drink or bleed. Keeps Ally company in corner*

Burning_Phoenix 24-08-2007 09:44 PM

Do you guys have room for one more? ... I feel like this is a good place for me right now...

*grabs blanket and goes searching for a lonely corner*

Stellata 24-08-2007 09:48 PM

Yep, there's plenty of room.

I'm still in my sound-proofed room. It feels lonely, but safer. I'm so scared. I don't feel safe, and everything and everyone is scaring me.
And I feel so alone.

l.e.g.o 24-08-2007 10:08 PM

*comes in and curls up to cry*

i want to harm

only way to feel better

too much in my head




how is everyone

guttergirl 24-08-2007 10:27 PM

i hurt myself tonight and i dont feel so good about it
can i stay over here for a lil while please,if yous have room?

~KemicalRain~ 25-08-2007 12:37 AM

*stumbles in* i am so immature and insecure why do i have to feel like this arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh h

~*forever_broken*~ 25-08-2007 12:42 AM

*offers round a strong pot of tea and some biscuts*
Take care all
*grabs blanket and her stuffed lamb and rejoins Johanna in the corner*

~KemicalRain~ 25-08-2007 12:47 AM

hey ally do you want to talk to someone who wont remember the convo (basically do ya wanna vent) cos i am here

~*forever_broken*~ 25-08-2007 12:55 AM

Hey steve,
Eh, I'm kind of in a blank state right now...nothing much to say.
Appreciate it though. Do you have anything you want to talk aboyt? How you doing?

emily.disenchanted 25-08-2007 09:53 AM

*hugs everyone who needs hugs*

Hands over the blade and finds a teddy and radio

pea soup 25-08-2007 10:47 AM

*checks back in*
not that i ever checked out.....
i would like the tranquilizing gun now please....it might finally put me to sleep..

Johanna80 25-08-2007 11:39 AM

We are having a really cozy corner here now. Lets be like sardienes, suporting sardines!

emily.disenchanted 25-08-2007 12:25 PM

I wish I was drunk then I wouldnt have to remember how **** I am feeling, like daggers through my heart and its not even like I matter any more

emily.disenchanted 25-08-2007 05:27 PM

he is drunk and stonned he messaged me to tell me so, why does it feel like Im dying, why cna he do this to me, he promised me no drugs, that bitch is bad news

(sorry for multiple posts tonight, I feel unworthy)

maybe if I needed stiches people would notice Im not ok

l.e.g.o 25-08-2007 09:49 PM

im sorry

i harmed

i want to die

*hugs everyone then retreats int corner*

~*forever_broken*~ 25-08-2007 10:18 PM

*hugs emily and newlife and moves over*
Come on over if you're ok with squeezing in... We've got blankets, stuffed animals of all types, pillows, tea,and biscuts.

l.e.g.o 25-08-2007 10:59 PM

im sorry

i want to hurt so much more


~*forever_broken*~ 26-08-2007 12:26 AM

Newlife, hunni, what's up?

MammaMia 26-08-2007 02:42 AM

*wants to scream*

I'm so ****ing hyper but I know when I calm down I'll feel *****

Burning_Phoenix 26-08-2007 08:08 PM

*hugs everyone who wants/needs it and offeres cookies*
I'm thinking of you guys, but I'm pretty busy right now... Hope you all feel okay :-)

Auburn Shadow 26-08-2007 08:17 PM

I want to hurt. I deserve to hurt. I want to hurt until it feels normal. Want to hurt until I can't feel anymore.
Damn. Sorry.

MammaMia 26-08-2007 08:27 PM

I have such bad pain in my tooth, hope its ot my nerve again =(

l.e.g.o 26-08-2007 10:55 PM

i need to harm deeper

im to blame for what could be the breakdown of my aprents marriage apparently

my boyfriend hates me i think

life hurts


how are you all?

MammaMia 27-08-2007 02:14 AM

I wish I could give you my BAD pain.

Then you'd hurt (sadly) and I wouldnt have to suffer

~*forever_broken*~ 27-08-2007 05:28 AM

*hugs newlife*
Hunni, if he hates you he's totally not worth it...and there's no way you would be the reason for your parents broken marriage...no matter what anyone says.
*hugs again*

emily.disenchanted 27-08-2007 06:14 AM

*hugs everyone*

MammaMia 27-08-2007 12:04 PM

*hugs everyone*

My teeth are still very sore =[ so not really feeling like being online much atm

~*forever_broken*~ 28-08-2007 03:03 AM

*stumbles into the kitchen and returns with the biggest bottle of water known to man*
Alcohol.........bad......feel like sh*t

*curls up in corner with water, blanket, stuffed lamb...and bucket, ick*

l.e.g.o 28-08-2007 12:49 PM

*hugs ally and everyone else who needs/wants a hug*

im feeling used

emily.disenchanted 28-08-2007 01:35 PM

1 Attachment(s)
the pretty moon makes everything seem better ( I like the blood moon) somehow makes reading Dracula more fun

Burning_Phoenix 28-08-2007 03:21 PM

*checks back in*
*curles up in a corner and just cries*

l.e.g.o 28-08-2007 03:27 PM

*hugs to all*

Johanna80 28-08-2007 03:46 PM

Sigh, why does nothing ever happen?!

l.e.g.o 28-08-2007 03:50 PM

whats nothing

life hurts

~*forever_broken*~ 29-08-2007 03:56 AM

*hugs to everyone*
I'm sorry everyones feeling so crap. Please take care.
*curls up in corner again and cries*
Praise God I can cry here at least...

l.e.g.o 29-08-2007 11:37 AM

*hugs ally*

everything feels painful

Johanna80 29-08-2007 03:14 PM

*skulks in, sits down under table and starts rocking*

MammaMia 29-08-2007 07:52 PM

I've been rather ill =[

l.e.g.o 29-08-2007 09:44 PM

i tried to die

it didnt work

*curls up*

Johanna80 29-08-2007 09:49 PM

To much work to die...
I still have dreams left...

~*forever_broken*~ 29-08-2007 11:46 PM

*hugs Johanna and Newlife*
I'm sorry guys...
Newlife,hunni, what do you mean you 'tried to die'? What's up hunni?

emily.disenchanted 30-08-2007 09:51 AM

if its not one thing, its another. the last few days have been getting better, Ive been feeling ok about me, I even got a shoot for Sunday and now it seems that the world of my friends is falling down, Nat my bestie was taken to hospital in an ambulance night before last, Izzy had her heart broken by a stupid slut dating a really decent guy and ****ing prats keep pushing andrew to do drugs....... **** IT

MammaMia 30-08-2007 08:12 PM

I'm ill with two infections =[

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