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taz35 17-05-2010 04:41 AM

How're you doing today Julie?

*crawls down hole and gives Oliver a big hug* What's wrong? :( I take it the meds still haven't kicked in yet?

frenchhorn 17-05-2010 04:47 AM

thanks Taz *hugs back* nope they havnt, I took my stupid sleeping tablet at about 9.30 thinking I'll get an early night and now its 3.45 am, they are obviously not working, my GP gave them to me to get me back into some sort of more normal sleeping regime, really hasn't worked.
How are you?

taz35 17-05-2010 05:35 AM

*hugs Oliver and tries to get him to sleep* Sorry to hear that :( Have you tried drinking a cup of something warm? My mom always tells me to have a glass of warm milk or cocoa when I can't sleep... not that it helps, but worth a try?

I'm... I don't know. Just have that "out of it" feeling, like I'm not all here.

The following content has been hidden - Reason : TRIGGERING - SI
Seeing my counselor tomorrow, debating about telling him I've been popping pain pills and that the SI has escalated (?) to hitting myself with a hammer, hoping to break bone.

xxjuliexx 17-05-2010 06:15 AM

*hugs oliver* god i'm so cold...... no no i'm fine.... *nods* fine....

xxjuliexx 17-05-2010 07:32 AM

*rubs my forehead*

wildly insane 17-05-2010 09:15 AM

pops in to check that people are doing "okay" and sleeping soundly tucked up in blankets or curled up in their little holes.

I'm late for work but I don't want to go. I will though, I always do, it would be the start of a slippery downward slope if I didn't.

Leaves a bucketful of feel good hugs for those that want them and a coffee pot brewing along with a various assortment of teas and some banana bread.

feel like pooh still although not quite as pooh as when I went to bed last night.

lost in dreams 17-05-2010 09:32 AM

I am so lost at the moment. can i sneek in here for a bit?

CrazyHayley 17-05-2010 11:33 AM

*bounces about the common room*

Ooh I should be quiet, it seems people are sleeping or working or studying or something! I'm just soooo excited, in 40minutes I'll be on my way to the docotrs and I know that I won't cry or be anxious, I'm gonna get my injection to sort out my PMDD!!

Oh how I wish that there was an injection that could help us all.
*extra special tlc in the form that you can accept for each and everyone of you!!*

oh and Mark - I am so NOT learned on WoW, I often feel so out of my depth and you'll soon start to see me asking our fellow guildies for help! I just seem clued up 'cos I'm 3months of playing ahead of you. But I'm sure you'll pick things up more quickly with me, the guild, April and Crimson to help you along. It makes me happy to feel useful though and is fun to chat with someone I know as I go along. I'm glad we convinced you to get it.

*tries to encourage more people to the fantastic distraction that is WoW*

ooh, and does anybody have a Wii connected up to the internet? I do and have some games that do wi fi such as mario kart and I can play with people all over the world. Let me know if you do and then perhaps we can play together on something as a distraction too?

*goes out to smoking shelter*

Scarletdreamer 17-05-2010 11:34 AM

Oliver, sometimes sleeping meds can do the opposite of what they're intended to do, especially if your body is the type that is not cooperative with medication. I hope you managed to get some sleep last night, at least. *cuddles*

I spy a Hayley!! :D

It's crazy early here, just past 5:30am, and I just got up. Gonna be looong day if indeed my internship starts today. Am not so sure if it will though... didn't do some paperwork that I needed to... FULL OF FAIL!! :'(

So yeah. I'll find out at 8:30am whether or not I'll be starting today. :(

*hides in a hole in shame* :o

xxjuliexx 17-05-2010 11:43 AM

*hugs knees and rocks*

Doikers 17-05-2010 11:47 AM

GOOD luck with your internship April , I hope today go's well for you *Hugs*

*Hugs Oliver* I hope you managed to get some sleep last night .

*Hugs Lost in dream* Hi I'm Mark.

*Hugs Hayley* Ohhhh I hope your injection go's okay and works well :)

*Hugs Helen* I hope you slept ok and that your video call go's good .

*Hugs rest of the ward *

Posts Here! I'm going to go check it out :)

CrazyHayley 17-05-2010 11:57 AM

I spy a Mark! *huggles* you have just reminded me that I heard the postperson but haven't yet checked to see if I've nay nice post yet!

*extra special good luck huggles for April* Ooh fingers crossed the paper work has all been sorted and that you can start your internship! I'm sure you'll do fab and they'll love you!! Who wouldn't?! We all love you in here!! Stop thinking you're a failure, 'cos you're far from it! *sends positive thoughts Aprils way*

*leaves calorie free sweet and savoury snacks for everyone with a variety of soft drinks*

Time for me to check the post and then get ready to leave for the doctors!

*bounces to check the post*

xxjuliexx 17-05-2010 12:04 PM

so wats up wardies
*hugs knees*

xxjuliexx 17-05-2010 12:32 PM

*curls up and waits*

Scarletdreamer 17-05-2010 12:39 PM

*cuddles Mark* How'd you sleep? Hopefully well... :) And yey for the post... I have a bill I have to pay, oopsies... at least it won't be for a lot. :-S I just hate paying bills is all. But on the up side, I have a bunch of things I ordered ("for cheap"!!) coming to our post office box so that's good. :D Some psychology books about transactional analysis and REBT (rational emotive behavioral therapy) as well as a Sirenia cd and some stuff from c28.com (Christian clothing site - awesome stuff :D). Lol. So at least it's not ALL bills. :-/ Have you ordered anything recently?

*cuddles Hayley* Good luck with your appt today!! :D I bet you are totally over the roof with excitement on not having to PMDD anymore... hopefully it works. Not to jinx it or anything. ;) I'm sure it will. Let us know how it went and how you're feeling (sane? :P) afterwards. :)

*cuddles Julie* What's up, sweetie?

*cuddles everyone else* Sorry for the lack of individual replies, once again, don't feel up to doing many, sorry. :(

I'm getting really nervous about my internship now... ughhh. I have to call the secretary of the psych dept to see if he got me scheduled for it... then I need to ask him if I can start the internship without having done allll of the paperwork. :-S I am so scared. I feel like such an EPIC FAIL that it's not even funny. :'(

Slept okay last night although my hair dried funny... will have to use the straightener on it later methinks. I suck at straightening hair; this will only be my second time doing it. Haha. My hair's not really curly but it's wavy and can get curly if it's long enough and dries in the right conditions (i.e., humid areas). I'm glad that I don't live in Florida or Georgia or something!! where it's already 90'F or more... and humid. Heh.

I think I'm dehydrated... tsk tsk. :-S *random*

Need to go do summat useful... :-S

*hides in her hole again* :'(

xxjuliexx 17-05-2010 12:43 PM

*shakes head* nothing i'm fine

one_step_closer 17-05-2010 12:53 PM

Hello everyone.

Scarletdreamer 17-05-2010 01:01 PM

Hey Lindsay. *hugs* How are you doing?

Julie, as someone said on a previous page, we've been hearing the word "fine" a lot lately... are you sure you're okay? *cuddles*

I spy Kahlia!! *cuddles*

*hides back in her hole* :(

Doikers 17-05-2010 01:08 PM

*Hugs Julie* Whats up?

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you?

April , I ordered a candle holder , 2nd hand from ebay. I've really gotta put a reign on my spending for a couple of weeks , stick to my budget ( On which I haven't included online spending oops) . Both my parents birthdays are coming up and they are both 60 this year so thats my luxery spending for a little while . I have a few books I can read if only I could get the concentration / attenetion butI can't even focus on a movie ( Of which I have tons) I really want my Focus back , it's why WoW works you can spend 10 minutes on one thing then pop off and do another all the time , not much focus needed . Sorry that got long .That clothing website sounds interesting , I may have a gander at it .

xxjuliexx 17-05-2010 01:15 PM

*nods sucking thumb looking at the floor*:notsure: fine... more then fine perfect

Doikers 17-05-2010 01:24 PM

*BIG HUGS for Julie*

CrazyHayley 17-05-2010 02:02 PM

*huggles Julie* well I hope you saying you're fine is perhpas you tring to have a positive mental attitude, but when you say that and you're still curling up and sucking your thumb, those actions are comforting things that we do, therefore I feel that you need comforting, not for us to go "oh Julie's fine", so please PM me if you don't want to blurb over the ward.

*huggles April* Hope the hair straighening worked out! I've burnt my ears before...damn mirror confusing me! lol *more positive thoughts April's way for the internship*

*huggles Lindsay* How are you and your kitties today?

*huggles Mark* I can understand the lack of focus from the point of view of when my M.E is really bad. When I was first ill I had to pretty much learn to read again and then could only manage short stories as my memory was so bad I'd forget who was who and what had happened. I still can't manage some books that I would like to be able to...one day...Anyhoo, I got back into reading by reading (please don't laugh) Mr Men books and Winnie the pooh!! Ok so perhaps a bit childish, but they are simple stories (with a moral, lol) but the sense of achievement I got of just being able to read a book again outweighed the embarrasment of reading what a 7year old would.

So then....I've had a little prick in my arse and loved it!!!!! :laugh: yes the contraceptive injection to stop my periods and therefore stop my PMDD is in me, it will take 7days to distribute around my body properly, which is good as it would be in 10days that I'd be due to go loopy again. So we will know for definate in 10days if it's worked or not. But it did before, so I'm sure it will. :-D I was so happy walking back after I had it done that I found myself grinning hugely as I was walking along and then burst out singing along with my MP3 player.....then I realised what I was doing and thought people may think I was mad......and then laughed loudly at the irony of it, that I was acting 'mad' 'cos I was 'sane'!!! :hehe:

ooh I've lots of people to text to apologise for not contating them in months and being a crummy friend (understatement!) and hopefully I'll be much better now that I should be on an even keel with only my M.E and physical disabilites to deal with (only! ha, but that feels so much easier now)

Gosh, I've waffled far to much. *germ free huggles all round for those who want them*

*toddles off into corner to start texting*

Doikers 17-05-2010 02:14 PM

:D yey for you Hayley , I SO hope it works for you again , if it did before I'm sure it will this time :D

I've got a headache , waiting for the paracetemol to kick in , then I may pop out , just for a bit .

Oh Hayley , Do I make sense typing on WoW ? I panic and type as fast as I can but my fingers don't always go where I want them to lol , just aware that my typing might be weird .:S Sorry

one_step_closer 17-05-2010 02:16 PM

I'm not so good. My brother hasn't got into the course he wanted and i'm scared about how he'll react (he doesn't know yet.) I worry so much about him and when negative things happen it makes me more determined to kill myself.

Doikers 17-05-2010 02:24 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* Pleas don't do anything "Stupid" , it sounds like your brother will need you around to help comfort him and Just to be a BIG/Little sister to him , Besides which we here all value you . I know how it is to be suicidal , It Royally hurts beyond words :( I'm always here to listen ok, even if my replys are not always instant :)

one_step_closer 17-05-2010 02:27 PM

Thanks Mark. *hugs*

MammaMia 17-05-2010 02:33 PM

*cuddles everyone lots*

Doikers 17-05-2010 02:35 PM

*Cuddles Helen* Have you had your video call today yet?

MammaMia 17-05-2010 02:42 PM

No, having it tonight :) Exciting haha.

CrazyHayley 17-05-2010 03:06 PM

*huggles Helen* Glad you've something exciting too today

*huggles Mark* yeah your typing is ok. It can get very confusing when lots of chat is going on in the chat box in busy areas. I try and keep a look out for green writing, that's our guild, and pink writing when I whisper to you. There are other chat options but I end up writing in the wrong chat sometimes, but so do lots of others, so don't worry about taking your time or making mistakes. its a learning process.

*huggles Lindsay* Its horrid when we worry about our siblings and it makes us worse. I know how much I am affected by my brother's ED. Like Mark said, talk to us in here, please don't do anything 'stupid' and just try your best to be a supportive comforting sibling when your brother needs you. We can't protect them from everything or make everything ok for them, just like they can't for us. Please don't let the negativity drag you down further. *extra positive huggles*

time for me to play on WoW for a bit methinks....*toddles off into corner to become a gnome!*

MammaMia 17-05-2010 03:16 PM

*curls up*

I'm glad too Hayley x

nicole94 17-05-2010 06:15 PM


MammaMia 17-05-2010 06:30 PM

*holds Nicole*

Seems my best isn't good enough now. Great. ****ing bollocks. I don't know what to do :'(

nicole94 17-05-2010 06:38 PM

*hugs helen*
my mums a bitch

MammaMia 17-05-2010 06:41 PM

*hugs Nicole* What she said/done babe??

taz35 17-05-2010 06:43 PM

I'm in a decent mood, or maybe it's just the caffeine talking. But I'm trying to do individual replies. If I miss anything important, or miss someone - I'M REALLY SORRY :(

*hugs Hannah* How come so pooey? :(

*hugs Vikki* Of course you can hide out in here. What's on your mind?

*hugs Hayley* You sound so happy :) Here's hoping the injection works just like last time, if not better :D

*hugs April* Hope your internship let you work even without the papers! And about receiving stuff in the mail - it's the one thing I love about ordering online :D Makes me excited to check the mailbox every day :)

*offers extra squishy hug to Julie*

*hugs Mark* Hope your headache has gone away by now. I know what you mean about the lack of focus... I have a chemistry assignment due on Wednesday and am only about 1/4 done =/ Can't seem to focus on it at all.

*hugs Lindsay* Please don't kill yourself :( Like Mark said, it sounds like your brother could really use you there to support him. My pm box is always open... although I'm not so good at giving advice =/ I'm a listener.

*hugs Helen* Hope your video call goes well. What's wrong? :(

*hugs Nicole* Why the tears? :(

*hugs any other wardies who have been in/out but haven't posted*

nicole94 17-05-2010 06:44 PM

*hugs helen* i tried to talk to her about the fact im really uncomfortable around her boyfriend because i'm scared of men (she knows about the abuse when i was younger) and she told me to stop being pathetic :(

taz35 17-05-2010 06:54 PM

*hugs Nicole* That's ridiculous :( She shouldn't have said that to you. Have you talked to her since?

nicole94 17-05-2010 06:59 PM

*hugs* i've said hi, yes, and can i go on the laptop. thats it. :(

MammaMia 17-05-2010 07:09 PM

That's pathetic as Taz said. Maybe try again by writing a letter so you can get it all out or something??

Taz, thanks honey. I'm really really stressed out about money, I owe even more. I can't do this. I HAVE NO ****ING MONEY :'( I'll have to get it out of my savings & replace it when I FINALLY get my JSA money, but it's not the point :'( What the **** am I going to do :'( I need money & a job :'(

nicole94 17-05-2010 07:11 PM

i wont write letters, its better to say it face to face, that way theres no evidence.

xxjuliexx 17-05-2010 07:39 PM

morning everyone
just about to head out to aqua robics

*rubs eyes and then goes around and hugs everyone*

MammaMia 17-05-2010 07:40 PM

Fair enough Nicole.

Enjoy Julie :)

Doikers 17-05-2010 07:58 PM

*Hugs Julie*

I'm sorry your mum isn't being very understanding Nicole :( *Hugs if ok*

Helen , Having no money sucks :( have you any idea when you will get your JSA? * Hugs*

PoisonedApple 17-05-2010 08:20 PM


*huggles Crimson* thanks for the info on your toon, I still don't know how I'd work out how to get onto a US server though....?! Enjoy your WoW. I've just stopped playing for a bit. Seemed a good point to rest after handing in a few quests. If I started any more I could still be up when Eoghan drops by!
Do you know how to change realms from the character screen? If you go to change realm, then look at the bottom of that little window there are tabs sorta like internet tabs but on the bottom. :)


oh and Mark - I am so NOT learned on WoW, I often feel so out of my depth and you'll soon start to see me asking our fellow guildies for help! I just seem clued up 'cos I'm 3months of playing ahead of you. But I'm sure you'll pick things up more quickly with me, the guild, April and Crimson to help you along. It makes me happy to feel useful though and is fun to chat with someone I know as I go along. I'm glad we convinced you to get it.
Lol. And April has Jarrod and I have David to help too :)

Wowsa... 10 pages since I was last on. and so many of us going through bad/tough times. *huggles everyone to make it all better ~wishful thinking I know but I like to pretend it works~* My morning has sucked. I got in the front door to work and the bag I had my lunch in broke and stuff fell everywhere... How is everyone else doing presently?
I got tired of the b.s. frequently this weekend and so I played a good bit of WoW... My new toon is now lvl 16 or 17... not bad for 1.5 - 2 days of playing on and off. I can't wait till G is out of my house... but as she keeps telling me 3 more days then she's out of school and then out of my house.
The following content has been hidden - Reason : very long and ranty...
The following content has been hidden - Reason : explaining part of why so much WoWness this weekend. *shakes head*
Yesterday I tried to tell her that it isn't up to her what my kids can and can not watch on tv and she threw a fit because "it has mature language and mild violence" and "it's rating says its not for children" then when i pointed out its a parental choice and even at r rated movies if your parents say its ok they can't bar children from going in and that it has more to do with maturity level than age she said it was wrong of me to think that... J told her sheltering kids will only make them rebel more and she told her she was wrong, i told her to look at her own family MIL babies the hell out of her and she hates it, M left home at 15 and C left home at 16 because of the way MIL treated her kids... G said MIL didn't shelter them and has never babied her... *eye rolls from the whole house -including MIL-... then she argued and lied about her watching buffy and angel with my kids... She lied to my face in front of 4 other people (3 of which had seen her do this) to say she had never done that. then I called her on her lied and she went to the kids room and shoved the door towards the frame and ignored me. (in my own immature moment) i said "real mature g" and she told me she didn't touch the door. i pointed out that the doors in the apt don't move on their own for her to say she pushed it but wasn't trying to slam it (she had her hands full and pushed it with an elbow) and she got huffy and stomped around the house for the next hr....
The following content has been hidden - Reason : More Grrr Argh
And I hate when people touch me for the most part... ya know the whole personal bubble thing? G walked up behind me yesterday (after the above hidden thing happened) and got so close to me when I was standing talking to V I didn't even move and I could feel her pushed up against me. She knows I don't like that. So I merely told her that I'm tired of asking and if she does it again I'm elbowing her in her solar plexus. I told D and inadvertently MIL (she was in my room) that she had been warned and not to coddle her if she comes in whining about it later. MIL asks "what was she pushing you?" I don't care if she's pushing me or not. I don't like it and she's been asked and told before... now she's been warned there are consequences. Later while doing laundry G admitted she does all her **** on purpose! I knew this deep down but everyone keeps telling me its just that I don't like her so I fight with her and threaten her... She admitted in front of V that she intentionally picks fights with me! But if I tell anyone that with V as my witness she'll say what she always does... "of course V will agree with you she thinks you're hot so she'll agree with anything you say" I can't wait till the end of the week (but before thurs I have to check to be sure I have all my makeup and hairclips to be sure she isn't stealing more of my **** -according to her I make that up too, regarless of the number of things I magically find with her crap-)

Doikers 17-05-2010 08:50 PM

Gosh , well Crimson it sounds like you're having to cope with some very childish behaivior :( I sorry about that please accept some * HUGS *

WoW toon 16-17 in 2 days ! wow you're going faster than me, it's a good distraction though isn't it , I've been dipping in and out today , fishing , I can't go up to the next level (Expert fisher) as I'm low on funds , time to make some money methinks . better get my meds set for taking this evening and tomorrow morning now so as I don't forget ,Anyway Crimson I hope things start looking up for you soon , :)

Doikers 17-05-2010 09:02 PM

*Waves at April* How'd it go , How'd it go ,How'd it go ?

PoisonedApple 17-05-2010 09:06 PM

Note: Updated r/v If you read it iggy the hidden its the same as above.

Thanks for the hugs Mark I needed 'em. *thinks blissfully -3 more days*

Wow is great at distracting and better than that my desk is on the other side of Ds and she daren't act like that or start **** there cuz then her "Crimmy hates me" cover'd be blown to smithereens so I get left alone when I in there playing WoW. But I'm only farther than you in some ways. My fishing just got to Journeyman so I'm a long way from expert still. First time playing a priest too... easier than I thought it'd be but still working on remembering to heal and fear the mobs at the right times. :) but I am leveling easier because I've been fighting things 3-5 levels higher than me and (when I remember to heal and not die) getting more XP per fight.

PoisonedApple 17-05-2010 09:07 PM


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2301809)
*Waves at April* How'd it go , How'd it go ,How'd it go ?

Oh yeah that was THIS MONDAY... *joins in the asking and pokes for good measure*

frenchhorn 17-05-2010 09:18 PM

*cuddles all*
I promise I will do individual replies again some point later, I feel really bad for not replying individaully for a while, sorry don't mean to abandon you all.

I am currently very confuzzled and depressed, its not a good combination, plus a bit angry with my horn teacher.

*wonders around ward to hug everyone*

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