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MammaMia 09-04-2010 06:43 PM

Mark, I seriously doubt Sunday will be good, but thank you.

*hugs everyone*

My hair's been cut =)

PoisonedApple 09-04-2010 06:44 PM

*reads messages from earlier*
Mark~ What kind of milestone? *gets excited for you*
Helen~ Have a wonderful weekend hun. Who knows maybe you'll enjoy the weekend with the bf and haircut so much Sunday will just fly by without you realizing.
*cuddles April* Do you think sleeping some would help since you aren't feeling safe?
*group huggles April, Mark, Oliver, Helen, Kahlia, Laura and anyone else I can find in the ward*

MammaMia 09-04-2010 06:50 PM

I suposse you're right :) I can't wait to talk to my boyfriend already aha!! No doubt he'll be drunk when I next speak to him, typical boy!! *squeals and jumps about*

Sorry, just making the most of it whilst I can :D

Scarletdreamer 09-04-2010 07:23 PM

Awh Hels, I hope that this relationship works out well for you. :D *cuddles* And yeh, I agree, I hope that you'll be having so much fun that the weekend will just fly by. If not, well, we're here, as you know... :)

Oliver, sorry that you've had to put up with people being mean to you. That's never fun. :( I wish I could help you somehow... and I hope that this weekend goes okay for you. *hugs*

Mark!! I am getting more and more intrigued about this milestone!! *cuddles*

*huggles Crimson* Erm, hubby wouldn't let me sleep as I tend to overdo it when I do sleep during the day. So I played WoW and got my priest (who is level 60 [out of 80 levels]) to exalted with Darnassus, the night elf capital city. I worked on that for about 4 hours this morning... I know, lame, right? :-/ (Hayley, what do you think? :D Cool or what? I've been working on that for a loooong time... I also have a 41 warlock that's exalted with Darnassus, for the mount[s].) But anyway... how are you??

Laura, how're things going? *squishes*

I'm so tired... damnit... :( And I've practically the whole day ahead of me. I'm on campus until 5:20pm and it's only 1:20pm now. Four more whole hours... :( Boo hiss. At least I have the internet and books and my journal...


And of course I want to SI now that no one is here watching me closely. :(

I am so over myself. :crying:

SoMuchMore 09-04-2010 07:26 PM

*hugs april, mark, crimson, helen, kahlia, oliver, and whoever is around other various spots around the ward*

I'm sorry... I am trying really hard... but nothing is helping. I hate all of this.
*curls up in corner and rocks back and forth*

Doikers 09-04-2010 07:32 PM

I eat hot food for the first time in 4 days today . Feel like such a pig now :(

My Milestone is ( and I think I've built it up too much) , today marks the 2 year point that I managed to quit alcohol , I slipped up at the beginning of last month on 6 non consecutive days which really ruins it but had it not been for that it would be 2 years . :S

SoMuchMore 09-04-2010 07:38 PM

*throws some confetti for mark* That IS a milestone. Slip ups happen sometimes, that doesn't ruin anything. Great job!!

MammaMia 09-04-2010 08:00 PM

Congratulations Mark <3

*cuddles April, Laura, Mark & anyone else who wants one lots and lots*

Pictures to follow :D

Doikers 09-04-2010 08:01 PM

*Hugs Laura* I'm sorry you are struggling so much :( and Thankyou for the confetti

one_step_closer 09-04-2010 08:03 PM

I just lost my job :(

Doikers 09-04-2010 08:07 PM

*HUGS One step closer* I'm so sorry to hear that, what happened ? Do you want to talk ?

Scarletdreamer 09-04-2010 08:07 PM

*cuddles one_step* Awh love, I'm so sorry... :( I don't know if you want to talk about it or not, but we're here to listen if you need...

*throws confetti for Mark, and puts out some non-calorific cupcakes!!* Congrats!!! That's awesome... and Laura's right, slipups do happen... :) Am proud of you, for whatever that may mean. And I spy you!! :D

*cuddles Laura* So sorry that things are so rough at the mo, love... is there anything I can do? Feel free to PM me anytime... I'm here if you need. ♥

*cuddles Hels* Can't wait for pictures :D I like seeing my friends. Mark, you need to post a pic of you sometime. :) Can't be any worse than mine, I'm fat and icky and awful...

*cuddles everyone else*

Just updated r/v thread AGAIN... geez, I think I use that thing way too many times in a day... lol. :-/

PoisonedApple 09-04-2010 08:11 PM

wow lots of posts.

1. proud of you slip ups and all mark.
2. can't wait for pics helen.
3. what happened one_step?
*cuddles and rocks laura*

i'm tired and frustrated but pushing myself through my day.

*huggles everyone*

Doikers 09-04-2010 08:12 PM

April the fact that you are proud of me means a lot to me :) I don't have many friends so my online friends matter to me :) You are not fat , awful or icky , seriously you look great . I'll try and get a photo up soon ....

one_step_closer 09-04-2010 08:14 PM

Thanks everyone.

My mental health has been really bad and I have been off sick since September. Because I am suicidal and keep overdosing HR decided that I am too unwell to work. They said that I am just as unwell as the patients I work with so they don't want me working with such vulnerable people. They also think that work is making my mental health worse.

Scarletdreamer 09-04-2010 08:14 PM

Wow, lots of people are viewing this thread... yey...

Crimson, hope the rest of your day goes okay. Where are you located? (not counting the 7th layer of Hell... heh) *hugs* I'm tired too, just took a brief nappish thing, only laying my head down on the desk, but it worked. I feel a little more alert now. Heh.

*cuddles all*

Scarletdreamer 09-04-2010 08:17 PM

One_step, I take it that you work in a MH related setting? or summat like that, anyway... "the powers that be" said that I can't do my internship in a clinical or counseling setting due to my current MH, suicidal and all, so it makes sense. I'm sorry though :( very sorry, especially since you're in such a bad place right now. *hugs gently* Things will get better... maybe post on here more so you can get more support? and do you have any support IRL?

Mark, I'm glad of that. :) I don't want to sound snotty or anything but I do like it when people think well of what I think of them. If that made any sense, that is... :P Thanks for the compliments... *curls up next to*

So, so, so tired... :(

Doikers 09-04-2010 08:24 PM


A so-so pic of me , I hope this works I've never used photo bucket before

GRRRR how do you make it a pic not a link?

MammaMia 09-04-2010 08:28 PM

*cuddles everyone*

So many people viewing the thread, feels bit creepy??? :P

Sorry to hear about the job Lindsay :(

PoisonedApple 09-04-2010 08:28 PM

I'm in Anchorage, Alaska April. I had it on my profile till my mother in law joined the site... then I made a decoy account and changed my location lol.

MammaMia 09-04-2010 08:30 PM

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Doikers 09-04-2010 08:31 PM

Hey Helen , Your hair looks great , it really suits you :)

PoisonedApple 09-04-2010 08:33 PM

I still feel tired and icky but I just found out that a radio show I used to listen to (and that I love) is back on the air via a different website so now I'm excited. *bounces around the room listening to The Shaman's Brew* I'm listening to the archives though because it's been on again since last November lol.

That's a lovely pic Mark. (always nice to put a name and face together:) )

That sucks Lindsay(?). But it may be for the best for you right now. And when you are feeling more well they may just hire you back.

PoisonedApple 09-04-2010 08:34 PM

Oops I was typing when u posted pics Helen!
That hair cut rocks on you!

MammaMia 09-04-2010 08:36 PM

Thanks you two =)

Scarletdreamer 09-04-2010 08:37 PM

Mark, you're really cute. :) Love the smile. And I don't think you look icky/overweight/ugly at all!! *hugs*

Hels, your haircut is so pretty. It suits you very well, just as Mark said... I love the pics. :D Thanks for uploading them!!

I'm distracted now by my LiveJournal, am updating it... :)

MammaMia 09-04-2010 08:40 PM

Thanks April <3

SoMuchMore 09-04-2010 08:40 PM

Helen - your hair looks great! I really like it!

*hugs lindsay* im sorry about ur job, but like crimson said, maybe they will hire you back when you are more well

*hugs crimson* Im sry that you feel tired/icky.

Mark - yay i like when i can see what people look like, putting names to faces is nice. And I agree that its a nice picture of you.

*hugs april* sorry your so tired today.

Doikers 09-04-2010 08:44 PM


Mark, you're really cute. :) Love the smile. And I don't think you look icky/overweight/ugly at all!!
Thanx April , that really made my day :)

MammaMia 09-04-2010 08:45 PM

Thanks Laura.

*big group cuddle*

Everyone's really posting fast tonight, can't keep up!!!

Scarletdreamer 09-04-2010 08:51 PM

Awh, am glad I made your day, Mark. :D (as long as you were being serious, anyway!!) I meant what I typed, too. :)

Yeh people are posting fast... heh. My brain is so muzzy right now!! that it's hard for me to keep up too.

Thanks Laura *hugs* How are you doing now? any better?

Doikers 09-04-2010 08:55 PM


Awh, am glad I made your day, Mark. :D (as long as you were being serious, anyway!!) I meant what I typed, too. :)
Yep I was being serious :)

Scarletdreamer 09-04-2010 08:57 PM

Awh good. :) *hugs*

Another picture of me, once again from Easter weekend... this time showing my silly side. ;)
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In the pic you can see the bleached bits from where my husband and I dyed our hair blue for our first anniversary last October (2009)... lol... the roots are my hair's natural color. :)

SoMuchMore 09-04-2010 09:00 PM

*cuddles april* no... not really. Ive been shaking slightly for hours. Trying to keep distracted, but nothing is working. I think if i SI I'll feel better, but im always trying not to.. I want to quit fighting tho.

Doikers 09-04-2010 09:01 PM

Dyeing your hair blue! hehe what colour are you going for next anniversary ?

MammaMia 09-04-2010 09:21 PM

Love the pic April.
Hope you don't have to SI Laura.

& I'm in floods of tears :/ Great.

Doikers 09-04-2010 09:33 PM

I'm really tired . I only got up 10 hours ago (that was a struggle) and I am seriously thinking of just falling back into bed. I feel like I'm being lazy , depression I guess . My mood has been all over the place recently I can be ok and then really low in a matter of moments.

Asleep is the safest place you can be....

jonikd 09-04-2010 09:45 PM

*pops in to check up on everyone, leaves hugs enough for all*
Helen, your hair looks awesome =you look awesome :) Hope your weekend goes well, just enjoy the moment 'k?

Lindsay that's bad news about the job hun, probably for the best right now but you need to look after yourself ok? *hugs Lindsay and tells her she's great at what she does*

I'm on a blackberry and having all sorts of operational issues so sorry I can't respond to all, and I can't open all the photos, but sounds like you're a gorgeous bunch!

I'm off to scatter my Uncle's ashes soon, so will be back in the ward later without a doubt.

Stay safe fellow ward mates.

*grabs a takeaway latte and wanders off*

frenchhorn 09-04-2010 10:33 PM

*cuddles everyone* I can get internet bwtween 6am and 11pm so will be able to get on here a bit
you all look lovely and handsome in your photos.

SoMuchMore 09-04-2010 10:57 PM

*cuddles everyone* sorry its not more.

I gave in. I have stuff to do tonight so I had to. Numb is better than barely functioning. And nobody will even be able to tell that i am numb b/c i am good with masks.

MammaMia 09-04-2010 11:42 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Thanks JK & Oliver for the compliments.

Mood's sinking slowly. But doesn't necessarily mean I'm headed back to being low. Got to try keep positive :/

Scarletdreamer 10-04-2010 01:04 AM

*gently cuddles Laura* I'm so sorry you gave in, hon, but I understand the need/urge to... and the desire to feel numb can be so attractive at times... I don't blame you one bit. :( I wish I could SI... I've been bothering the scratch on my hand so it's going to be a massive scar (for a scratch anyway), but oh well. Had to do it today. I'm worried it's becoming a compulsion... :-/

*cuddles Hels* I'm sorry that you're not feeling too great, but maybe you could boost yourself up a bit by treating yourself? I dunno, take a hot bubble bath or a bath with salts, or read a book you really enjoy, or have a hot drink then toddle off to bed. :) Sorry if those are rubbish ideas, it's difficult for me to come up with the best ones. :(

*cuddles Mark* You're right, asleep IS the safest place you can be (or so I would hope)... just hopefully no nightmares. I've been having nightmares for the past few nights and it's just been awful... :( I hate them so much and wish that they would go away. :( I hope that you feel better tomorrow... and remember, you - the none of you in this ward - are as awful/icky/ugly/fat/etc. as you think you are!! ♥

*hugs JK* I hope that your day goes well. I'm headed off to take a hot bath in a bit... accidentally wore flipflops and capris today when it was in the 40s ('F). BRRRRR. I froze, lol. Well, not really that bad, wasn't outside a lot, but it was pretty chilly for flipflops. I also managed somehow last weekend to pull my Achille's tendon on my right leg especially, so it kills to walk a distance. :( But anyway, enough whinging on my part... how are you doing?

Sending prayers and good wishes out to you all... ♥

Scarletdreamer 10-04-2010 01:05 AM

Oop Oliver, didn't mean to forget you!!! *cuddles* Glad you have internet connection and can get support here... is there a GLBT group online you can talk with as well? because I know that we all aren't the best support for that (specifically)... just a thought. :) And man, it's quieted down in here since earlier... it was crazy (awesome) how many people were on. :D So how's the performance thingy going?

hope.is.overrated 10-04-2010 01:42 AM

I've been feeling strange these days...I am numb since the beggining of the week and nothing seems real anymore...I woke up one morning and didn't recognize the person looking at me in the mirror...I can't feel anything...not too mention my head was totally empty yesterday...I stayed seated on the couch for hours staring at the off tv set...Now today I my mind was full of thoughts, a lots of them...I can't focus

I saw a dog being hit by car today and didn't get scared or shocked...anything...it felt I was seeing this scene on a TV, or something...There's something really wrong with me

MammaMia 10-04-2010 01:57 AM

*cuddles everyon*

I feel better than I did earlier, must have been a wobbly moment...

frenchhorn 10-04-2010 09:25 AM

*cuddles April* yeah I have a website like this but for LGBT youth so thats cool, the course is going ok so far, its going to be tough lots of hard music and have a full day of rehearsals today.
*cuddles everyone* I got to go to breakfast now.

MammaMia 10-04-2010 11:54 AM

Morning everyone :D *cuddles all*

Love how quiet the ward went after my last post. Hope everyone's okay.

I have a migraine and woke up crying from my nightmare & then believed it was Sunday. But managed to finally remind myself that it IS Saturday thank god =)

Sun's out shining & warm yet again!! Shame we have to stay in for a wee while, until these men have gone and then we can go to my Nan's :D Might be going to the park before then with couple of my friends..:P

Doikers 10-04-2010 12:59 PM

I didn't get up until 11.15 am , SO LAZY ! I've just got no motivation for anything , feel generally low , and triggered too:(

I really wanted to sleep straight away last night so I was a bit naughty and took 2 Diazepam ( 10mg each ) , it worked but I can't keep doing that I simply am not prescribed enough . I 'm dreading trying to get to sleep tonight.

*Hugs ward mates*

MammaMia 10-04-2010 01:01 PM

*hugs Mark*

You are NOT lazy at all :) Lie in's are good & you obviously needed it. Don't be so hard on yourself. I know it's easier said than done. *snuggles*

jonikd 10-04-2010 01:53 PM

*briefly pops by again to make sure you all ok*

Helen, sorry you had a rough patch, awesome that you've bounced back, that's tough to do!

Mark, sleep is healing, don't beat yourself up ok. If you need to increase meds then maybe talk to your doc huh *hugs*

Laura, so sorry you cut hun, make sure you look after the wound and treat tomorrow as a new day (or today depending on your time zone lol )

April, hope you're doing ok, my day was long and emotional but the ceremony went beautifully on a hill overlooking the sea and the sun shined for my baby uncle :)

Hugs everyone else, I will get better at checking in all the rooms and corners when I get home and back on my laptop.

Off to bed now over here in the southern hemisphere!

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