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realflifefaerie 28-05-2009 11:19 AM

*hugs wildly insane* thanks for the hugs and support. Good luck with your busy day!

*hugs Lost Girl* welcome, I'm often around if you ever want to talk.

*hugs zowie* you aren't lazy, sometimes things aren't worth the hassle, and you have to be the judge of that. Maybe spend today looking for another course you may find useful?

I'm not doing well at the moment, am trying to pluck up the courage to post though haven't yet managed it.

MammaMia 28-05-2009 12:40 PM

Kahlia, OUCH, sorry to hear that but I hope you have a speedy recovery ;)

Hannah, errr things are sorta calm at the moment, not flying off the handle so far. But mum & one of my sisters is now in Turkey, lucky sods. But wee Charlie (one of my sister's dogs) is really really really poorly. My sister even is giving me her laptop lead (we have the same laptop) so I can babysit him when my dad's gone again. Am so worried though :(

ARRRRGH how the hell am I going to write 2x1500 words assignments in less than 54 hours or something :/ Have started one, written 12 words so far LOL.

*shuts up*

zowie 28-05-2009 07:51 PM

I'm having a drink with my sister tonight :)

alliwant 29-05-2009 12:17 AM

i cant do this its too hard. im at a friends at uni but all i can think of is hurting myself how pathetic am i. seeing the cpn 2moz and psychiatrist monday but its soooo hard. :(

wildly insane 29-05-2009 01:28 AM

*hugs alliwant* I'm sure you're not pathetic, I hope your visit with the cpn goes well.

*hugs Arwen* hope you have a good evening

*hugs Helen* sorry to hear about the dog, good luck writing those assignments, I'm sure you can do it, it's more a matter of just attacking it, thinking about it is a whole lot worse

*hugs secrets* try to eat hun

me, I've had a little bit of alcohol and am worried about going out tomorrow and am feeling down about job applications, I feel like I'm just getting something so wrong.

Lost_Girl 29-05-2009 02:29 AM

feeling like im not worth a thing- I let people in only to regret it

MammaMia 29-05-2009 02:39 AM

Still no assignments. Only written 12 words. I am nothing but a failure. Charlie is sitll poorly, he hasn't thrown up yet but debating whether to put him into his bed (he's having nightmares so can't move him yet anyway) and go to my bed. Or stay downstairs to keep an eye on him....

Damnation. 29-05-2009 04:32 AM

Feeling quite **** here. Housemate had to go to hospital today. Had some tests done. ...She's...got cancer. It's early, thank ****, but still :/. It's what killed both her parents. I dunno how I feel, really. She's confident that it'll all be fine, isn't scared/worried/whatever at all. I just feel more...upset, I suppose? She's gotta go to hospital again tomorrow morning, so I'm going with

wildly insane 29-05-2009 09:00 AM

*hugs Todlich* sorry to hear that hun, I hope your housemate isn't in denial or secretly supressing her fear, hope the trip to the hospital goes okay.

*hugs Helen* whatever you do don't panic it makes everything a whole lot worse, hope th dog feels better this morning

*hugs Lost Girl* you are worth a lot, unfortunately people end up hurting us and we don't understand why, don't stop letting people in, I know it's hard but it's the only way we get anything back.

*hugs everyone feeling low and lonely, hiding in corners or curled up in balls, anyone wanting to cry or to scream or anyone silent or scared*

I didn't get much sleep last night so am a bit tired, but am determined to be positive today. I will care about the people that turn up tonight, not the people who don't. Last day temping moving back in with my parents tomorrow due to lack of funds. So to treat myself I've just reserved to gorgeous baby girl rats I'm picking up tomorrow, am so excited.

realflifefaerie 29-05-2009 12:26 PM

*hugs Mammamia* How are the essays coming along this morning? Aim to do them in small chunks and see how you go. Poor charlie, give him cuddles it'll make you both feel better.

*hugs zowie* I hope you had a lovely time with your sister, sounds like fun.

*hugs alliwant* would your friend understand how your feeling? try to be as honest as possible with your cpn and psych.

*hugs wildly insane* i can sympathise with the job applications at the moment, I've been turned down by so many but unfortunatly it's the economy right now you aren't doing anything wrong. Rats sound like fun and a lovely treat!

*hugs lost girl* you're worth more than you think.

*hugs Damnation* your feelings are naturally, going to the hopital with her is really kind.

Things are spiralling downwards, I thought I'd realised but I can't accept it. Ah well revision beckons

zowie 29-05-2009 01:15 PM

I had a nice night. But I became really spaced out, the weird kind where my eyes roll up, and couldn't concentrate. It was really annoying.

MammaMia 29-05-2009 01:16 PM

The assignments are not going to get handed in, I don't care to be honest, I have to re-take the whole year. Charlie's feeling much better or seems to be. Didn't throw up last night :D So he *should* keep his lunch down today. We don't normally give him any but as he hasn't been eating much (we starved him til 7.30 last night), he gets to have some. Though he does still seem to want to sleep lots....

alliwant 29-05-2009 03:42 PM

she does but shes got her own problems. i was in such a hyper today due to lack of sleep and pro plus. my mood is dropping rapidly and i dont want to fight against it i know i should its just hard. just want to run away back to uni. everyone says im looking better but all i can think about is dying :( could do with a hug

realflifefaerie 29-05-2009 03:51 PM

*hugs alliwant* maybe sharing them together would help? Have an afternoon nap, it may help your mood.

*hugs Mammamia* is there anyone you could speak to before the deadline to let them know you won't get them in on time?

It's too hot today.

MammaMia 29-05-2009 06:27 PM

I think I've just about given up

zowie 29-05-2009 06:28 PM

Why do I sleep so much??

youonlyliveonce 29-05-2009 07:49 PM

right ive come back from uni for the weekend or appointments etc and i find out mum has moved most of her stuff out o the house and into the her fiancee house. and was like yeh i want the house up for sale asap i was like ok then i knew it was happening but it was allways in the future not now. means ive gotta move out of the house ive lived or all my life yes i have extremely bad memories their but that was my house. it all seems to be going at 100 mph i know i am at uni and it wont affect me much apart from holidays. dont get me wrong im glad we are moving but god didn't expect it so quick. my mood is really low and thinking about the future i cant see one for myself. everything is soo hard now even seeing my friends and playing the sports that i love. im panicking and i don't know what to do

Damnation. 29-05-2009 09:47 PM

I hereby declare 'blah'.

And I want a cigarette. Even though I don't smoke :thumbup:

shadowedseraph 29-05-2009 09:51 PM

*hugs cheryl* upheaval is always stressful, not sure what to suggest to you but try to stay calm, sorry im not more help but my head is all over the place
*hugs to anyone else that wants them*

Eclectica 29-05-2009 09:55 PM

I've been smoking SO ****ing mmuch recently. It's stupid. I can't go 30mins without craving one. I hate it. But I am planning to quit on my birthday (8th june so soon). Bleaughsfduiafhusilsgniols

*Hugs all*

*Hugs Toddy*

Going to Bristol with the bf to relax for a week. Whee. Bad timing is that the system is waking upa gain.

realflifefaerie 29-05-2009 10:02 PM

*hugs Mammamia* don't give up, uni wrk won't be forever honey.

*hugs zowie* sleep i good, especially naps. Sometimes your body needs the rest.

*hugs cheryl* I can imagine thats bittersweet, have you spoken to your mum about how you feel about it? hope your appointments went/go ok.

*hugs damnation* blah isn't good, though I do agree today. Its just too hot to do anythin.

*hugs Eclectica* have a lovely week away! And your birhtdya i the day before mine!

I just want to scream right now.

MammaMia 29-05-2009 10:51 PM

Uni work may not be forever, but life is.

Eclectica 30-05-2009 12:57 AM


I'm ****ed.

Thanks Vetis.

Damnation. 30-05-2009 01:33 AM


Originally Posted by Eclectic*a (Post 1650806)
I've been smoking SO ****ing mmuch recently. It's stupid. I can't go 30mins without craving one. I hate it. But I am planning to quit on my birthday (8th june so soon). Bleaughsfduiafhusilsgniols

*Hugs all*

*Hugs Toddy*

Going to Bristol with the bf to relax for a week. Whee. Bad timing is that the system is waking upa gain.

*Hugs back*

Ech, you and me both. Well, with the cravings, anyway. Phantom smoke smell's back =D! So my mind's been like 'getafaggetafaggetafaggetafag' <____<;;;;;;.

You has fun in Bristol with the Blankinator though, yes?

And as for Vetis, do your best to control him. You're better than he is, just you keep remembering that <3

Long*Past 30-05-2009 01:40 AM

I'm home, and I have decided that I am safe enough to check outta here.
I'll drop by de temps en temps, but I think I'm good to go, for now.

Thanks everyone.
*leaves huggles for all*

MammaMia 30-05-2009 01:45 AM


I can't

wildly insane 30-05-2009 01:54 AM

friday night/early saturday morning hugs for everybody

The evening went well, I was surprised at the number of people that turned up, although was rather stressed at worrying that people weren't enjoying themselves and I couldn't talk to everyone all the time. I'm not the best conversationist so it was difficult to try and keep every one happy. I really hope they had a good night. I did which is good as was really quite worried about it.

Hugs Kat, hope you have fun in Bristol :)

*Hugs Todlich*Hugs Helen*Hugs Secrets*Hugs Arwen*Hugs Shadowedseraph*Hugs Cheryl*Hugs Alliwant*

Sorry I don't have the words right now, I would love to say something to make you all feel better, but I can't, so I can just hope that things get better for you soon, take care, hugs :)

MammaMia 30-05-2009 01:56 AM

Sounds like you had a good night Han. If you want to talk to Jade, she'll be back in a bit. Fancy chatting on msn though? I'd like to talk to you more :) xxxx

Biba 30-05-2009 04:37 AM

Hi secrets. how are u.. i hope ur keepn good.
wildy insane.. hi i hope u to are well

thank u to both of u. you were kind to me when i was feeln way down.
im doing good these days. worried yes that il fall, but its nothing i havnt experience before. tc xx

MammaMia 30-05-2009 05:41 AM


People suck, but **** them all (Y)

zowie 30-05-2009 10:54 AM

Sorry, would do individual replies but only just woke up. Feeling a bit drowsy.
Had some weird dreams, I didn't like them. They upset me.

wildly insane 30-05-2009 10:59 AM

*hugs Lucy* am glad you are in a better place, don't worry about it because it may never happen :) stay strong and take care

*hugs Arwen* sorry to hear about your dreams, hopefully you can forget them soon enough.

*hugs Helen* I hope things worked out

*hugs Ashley* am so glad you are feeling better, take care of yourself

*huggles for everyone*

Steel Maiden 30-05-2009 11:19 AM

I nearly commited murder yesterday. He saved himself.

youonlyliveonce 30-05-2009 12:15 PM

hugs steal maiden . what did the nurses say

today is going to be the day. im sorry

realflifefaerie 30-05-2009 12:22 PM

wow vets was busy last night!

*hugs Sorcha* I'm glad you can check yourself out, hope being at home is lovely.

*hugs Mammamia* dont give up honey, and Im with you on the people thing atm, my flatmates have stolen the little food I have. =[

*hugs hannah* I'm so glad you had a lovely night, you deserve it.

*hugs lucy may* I'm so happy for you that things have improved.

*hugs zowie* nasty dreams aren't fun, hopefully as time goes on you can forget them.

*hugs Steel Maiden* Im around if you want to talk

*hugs cheryl* what's happened honey?

Secrets has rage this morning, shes been woken up numerous times by drunks, the best way to be woken up and after working up the courage to have breakfat she's found her food vanished. The fairies obviously were hungry, though the fairies decided the chocolate buttons would substitute =]

youonlyliveonce 30-05-2009 12:29 PM

its all just 2 hard i give up. thanks or the hugs wish somebodies hugs cud sort me out

sorry ur flatmates nicked ur food.

MammaMia 30-05-2009 12:55 PM

*goes around and gives you all hugs*

Arwen, deams suck, I know the feeling. Want to talk about them?

Hannah, ahaha, wouldn't say they're sorted but me & jade had a good rant *coughs* I mean chat :P I was bit naughty, was pratically shouting my head off at one point, bearing in mind it was like 3am. But some of what you'd said helped us both ;) Hope you slept okay ;)

Secrets, how rude of your flatmates, could you steal any of their food??

*offers more hugs for everyone*

zowie 30-05-2009 04:51 PM

*Hugs Hannah and Secrets back* Yeah, they were horrible dreams, but it's not bugging me anymore.

*Hugs Steel* Replied to your thread in Serious.

*Hugs Cheryl* Do you want to talk about it sweetie?

Thanks Helen, but I'm trying to not think about them. I did have one nice dream though which involved having a cuddle with my old rabbit :)


It's so hot today! The sunshine gave me the energy to have a bath, put on a pretty dress and do my hair and make up. I've got nowhere to go but sometimes it feels nice to make an effort rather than bumming around the house in my PJs.
Did a bit of food shopping, and as we have vouchers (which expire today) for 5 off anything over 15, Dad's gone back to stock up on booze :D
I'm going to go sit in the garden with a Diet Coke, a ciggy and a book :)

*Leaves hugs and warm thoughts for everyone*
<3 xxx

shadowedseraph 30-05-2009 04:58 PM

*hugs to everyone that wants them* I feel like s**t i'm supposed to be getting better but instead i seem to be getting worse, my heads a mess and yet i have to be supportie for the rest of my family and pretend that everythings ok!

.... rant over!

Eclectica 30-05-2009 06:53 PM

I can't control or fight Vetis, really. He's in control, he's my master. I've learned that now. As long as I do what he says he won't hurt me or my friends and family.

I never knew he was so in control of me.

zowie 30-05-2009 10:34 PM

*Hugs shadowed* I know what it's like to feel like you need to be okay for the sake of your loved ones, but I've come to realise that they'd probably rather know what's wrong and be able to help, rather than be in the dark and later on have things esculate and become worse.

*Hugs Kat* What has made you realise he's so in control? You are your own master, and you can fight him.

Dad's actually bought so much alcohol, it's really going to tide us over. So, yup, drinking tonight!

Eclectica 30-05-2009 10:43 PM

I've always known what he's like, his desires etc, and I've been turning into it. And I never knew until I felt him giving me the thoughts.

I've surrendered. He's too powerful. Kat D isn't happy. The others are staying outta it.

shadowedseraph 30-05-2009 11:21 PM

*hugs Zowie* i suppose your right but its so hard to tell without sounding whiny or attention seeking!

Have fun with your drinkies :0)

MammaMia 30-05-2009 11:59 PM

*curls up in a ball*

wildly insane 31-05-2009 01:17 AM

Hiya, am now ensconced at my parents, my mum has already told me not to stay up too late lol. Loving the weather, oh my yes. I am now the proud owner of a pale grey rat and a dark grey rat I have named Freyja and Puck respectively they are uber cute, but still rather terrified at the moment.

*hugs Helen* hope next week is better for you and i'm always here to help

*hugs Shadowedseraph* I know it's tough, sometimes you have to tell people that things aren't okay, you have to look after yourself sometimes

*hugs Kat* stay safe hun, don't let him make you do anything you don't want to do

*hugs Cheryl* don't give up, keep fighting

*hugs Secrets* am so sorry to hear they've stolen your food, that sucks, hope you found some food and that the rage went and you ended up enjoying the day.

*hugs Steel Maiden* how's hospital?

*hugs Arwen* sounds like you had a pretty lovely day, am so glad, enjoy those drinkies :)

*hugs Jem, Katie, Emma, Todlich, Gil, Vicki, Lucy May, and anyone else hiding in a corner or just dropping by*

MammaMia 31-05-2009 03:36 AM

Feeling really low tonight. :'(

Jetforce 31-05-2009 01:55 PM

*Drops by with chocolate cupcakes*

Hope everybody is keeping well!! xx

MammaMia 31-05-2009 02:44 PM

Things change. Places change. People change.

Life just full of changes hey? :( It's knowing when to move on for the right reasons.

shadowedseraph 31-05-2009 04:54 PM

*hugs mammamia* change can be good or bad, how are you doing?
*hugs wildly insane* i know i should talk to them but im not sure what to say

MammaMia 31-05-2009 05:25 PM

Indeed it can :) I'm not doing so great but thanks for asking :]

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