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Damnation. 11-03-2009 09:56 PM

*Cuddles all*

Outta ****in' nowhere! I'm triggered! =D. Again <__<;;. Does anyone else get that? Sitting around doing something and then suddenly BOOM! Triggered to hell and back. Happens to me a lot D:

Kahlia1981 11-03-2009 09:59 PM

*cuddles all*

Damnation. 11-03-2009 10:13 PM

*Hugs Kahlia*

wildly insane 12-03-2009 01:16 AM

*hugs all*

Dayna, yep get that *hugs*

*hugs Kahlia* hope you're doing okay

*hugs Jade* you're not alone hun, is there a reason you're stressed?

*hugs MaryAnne* you doing any better?

*hugs SteelMaiden, BoundNoMore, Helen, Shell, Kat*

Eclectica 12-03-2009 01:18 AM

I've been SHing for seven years, nearly eight. AND I STILL FAIL TO HIDE MY CUTS.

Talking to the psycholo yesterday and talked about where I SH... and mum said "and your sides too". WTF -__- I'm dumb. How the **** did she see THOSE?! I wear long enough tops n shiz... Urgh.a haubudifahilfa Arm is finally healing. But slowly.

BoundNoMore 12-03-2009 02:06 AM

*sits in cormer rocking self*
Does it ever end????

Damnation. 12-03-2009 07:06 AM

I'm starting to hate the small hours of morning. No one to talk to. Not tired enough to sleep. Entirely alone.

I don't like it. Being alone means there's a high risk of urges that I don't want

Kahlia1981 12-03-2009 08:18 AM

Dayna ~ I have the same issues with the early hours of the morning - more like 4am to whenever my housemates wake up. Just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone and offer some big hugs.

*hugs and cuddles all*

Jetforce 12-03-2009 10:41 AM

How is everybody there?

*leaves a few cupcakes for ppl to munch on*


zowie 12-03-2009 10:46 AM

*Hugs Steel, Helen, Kat, Jade, Dayna, Amanda* Sorry if I missed anyone!

Hello Jem! I'm actually okay, little bit tired but feeling pretty positive.
How are you?

*Leaves hugs for anyone who may pop by* xxx

Jetforce 12-03-2009 10:49 AM

Hey arwen!!!

Glad ur doing okies there :-) Hope it keeps up for u

Me? umm, i feel hopeless and not so great i suppose...oh well *sighs*


zowie 12-03-2009 11:05 AM

*Cuddles Jem* Hang in there honey. xxx

Jetforce 12-03-2009 11:17 AM

Thx's arwen

trying too atm...*squishes u back*

Kahlia1981 12-03-2009 12:15 PM

Hi Jem & Arwen - *big hugs to both of you if you can accept them*

Am feeling really down and lonely and scared and .... blech. Just trying to keep going.

*leaves hugs to all*

Jetforce 12-03-2009 12:21 PM

*cuddles Kahlia*

Hang in there :-)

*gives u a cupcake to eat* lol

MammaMia 12-03-2009 07:12 PM

*big hugs all around*

Hahahahaha Friday tomorrow =D =D =D

*dances around sharing the happiness and hygs*

Damnation. 12-03-2009 08:18 PM

*Hugs all* Nervous about talking to the asshole again after a week of avoiding him :/

LilyAnnie 12-03-2009 08:58 PM

*peeks around door* Any room for a little one? I need somewhere safe to hide for a while...

Steel Maiden 12-03-2009 09:17 PM

*hugs all* The Voices are saying I'll end up in hospital on a sect 136...I'm triggered...

Tears of Solitude 12-03-2009 09:39 PM

Lily Annie Your always welcome xxx

Dayna Big hugs, hope it goes alright

Katrica Sorry you feel down and scared

Zowie, Jet Force, BoundNomore, Huge hugs xxx

Helen, Friday is sooo nearly here finally xxx

Wildly thanks for asking after me, Im feeling a little better today. How are you feeling today.

::::::::::::::: hugs to everyone ::::::::::::::: How is everyone today ??????

Love Jade xxx

wildly insane 12-03-2009 10:06 PM

urges urges urges and I can't think of a reason to bother fighting them :P pooh

lily annie, there is always room, *hugs*

*hugs Jade* glad you're feeling a little better, I'm up and down like a yoyo although this down seems to have settled for the time being down *shrugs*

*hugs Arwen, Helen, Kat, Kahlia, BoundNoMore, Jem, Dayna and anyone else in here this thursday/friday morning*

Damnation. 13-03-2009 12:33 AM





ravynsoul 13-03-2009 12:39 AM

*hugs Dayna* what's wrong?

*hugs Hannah, Jade and everyone else who's been around*

Damnation. 13-03-2009 04:09 AM

I just feel like an evil bitch. That guy, I've been talking to his girlfriend (who he led everyone to believe was his ex). Ugh...she feels out of place in the guild he and I are both in. She wouldn't have if it hadn't been for me. It's my fault she feels uncomfortable in a place she once gave her life to .__.

fallenshadows 13-03-2009 05:42 AM

Too much stress and no great way to get rid of it... Struggling to stay SI free, well and struggling just to keep going adn keep from exploding. Plus the insomnia sure doesnt help either.

Bacchus 13-03-2009 06:08 AM

Work has got me staying up all night. I usualy keep my self pretty distracted. But a whole night alone in the quite is a great way to let all my fears and anxietys fester and boil inside. I kind of feel like I don't have to explain it. Everybody here knows exactly what I am feeling. Oh well.

Kahlia1981 13-03-2009 06:14 AM


Originally Posted by .Poisonous.Cyanide. (Post 1482483)




*hugs Dayna* ~ You aren't any of those things sweetheart. For a minute there I was going to ask if you were the voices in my head talking to me because they say those things to me all the time.

*hugs all*

Got to make a big decision today .... and don't feel mentally up to it. Feel like a stupid, pathetic waste of space. *sigh* I guess you get that.

Bacchus 13-03-2009 06:25 AM

I'm pretty good at screwing up big decisions. Want to tell us what it is, I will chose the worst possible choice, and you can go the other way.
Really what's up. We are out here in the dark waiting to listen.

Kahlia1981 13-03-2009 06:32 AM

Well for most people it wouldn't be a big decision but for me it is ...

Normally I am part of a choir that travels away at Easter to perform in an Eisteddfod. This year I have only managed to attend one rehearsal due to my housemate attempting to end his life before the second one and my emotional reaction to that. Then I developed a phobia about going out at night which was quite possibly due to lack of sleep and the fact that I'm currently unmedicated for my mental illness. Now I'm on Xanax which I take 3 times a day and means that I don't feel safe driving at night. I have missed several rehearsals but am still listed as going to be going away for the Easter weekend ... tonight they start learning the movement/choreography for the novelty, which means that I really need to be there if I am going away ... and I don't think I am going to be able to do so. Secondly, if I go away I will have to pay something like $250 for accommodation and bus trip and so forth, that I don't have and am not likely to have, or stay with my parents. I have just recently had a huge blow-up with my parents that (even though we have started to heal) means that I don't trust them and keep thinking that they are trying to kill me. So, I don't know what the f*ck I should do. I want to go, but I keep thinking that it isn't a good idea due to the money and the driving at night et cetera...

I know, it's just a little unimportant decision, but right now it feels like the biggest mountain on Earth to climb. :(

Also, I haven't told my parents that I have been offered a surgery date which is for something like 2 or 3 days after we get back from the Easter trip ....

Damnation. 13-03-2009 06:58 AM

x_O *Hugs Kahlia muchly*

Kahlia1981 13-03-2009 08:49 AM

*clings to Dayna*

Bacchus 13-03-2009 08:59 AM

I'm real sorry about that. That is not fun at all to be in a position like that. You have every right to feel stressed out and depressed about being in such a position. Take care sunshine.

Jetforce 13-03-2009 09:29 AM

*cuddles every1 in the ward*

wildly insane 13-03-2009 09:40 AM

*hugs* sorry am late for work, hope people get to sleep and wake up ready to face the day *hugs again**leaves porridge, tea and choc chip cookies (home made)*

zowie 13-03-2009 12:07 PM

Sorry, don't have the energy to reply to everyone but I did read and I do care.

*Big hugs for everyone*

I just sort of realised that my life revolves around drinking. It's kinda sad.

Jetforce 13-03-2009 12:22 PM

It's ok Arwen

Just look after urself there

Maybe consult somebody about giving up the drink? just a suggestion...
tc there xx

Snuffles 13-03-2009 03:21 PM

Well I am back...

zowie 13-03-2009 09:42 PM

I don't think I could give up the drink. It's basically all I do with myself these days, whenever I have money.
Now that I've quit smoking it's the only thing I spend my cash on.
I guess it's not too bad. It's only Friday and Sunday definately, sometimes Saturday and sometimes weekdays. It all depends on how much cash I have.
Which I suppose is a bad thing because I have to admit, if I had enough money, I would drink as much as my body can tolerate.

Enough about me. I'm rubbish.

Hello Katie!! *Hugs* How are you?

Anyone else gonna check in tonight?

MammaMia 13-03-2009 10:13 PM


realflifefaerie 13-03-2009 10:22 PM

Can I check-in again...please?

MammaMia 13-03-2009 10:29 PM

People never really check out :) But yes of course you can :D

realflifefaerie 13-03-2009 10:38 PM

I'm sorry I vanished.
I know I'm rubbish, how are you?

Kahlia1981 13-03-2009 11:09 PM

*hugs all*

I feel like
And now I'm all alone again
no where to go no-one to turn to
Without a home without a friend
without a face to say hello to

Only I don't have Eponine's fantasy with Marius to keep me going.

Right now I'm struggling to see a point in going on. I'm sure I'll find one ... I always do. I just want all the pain and heartache to stop. I just want to "check out" of life for a little while until I can get my head sorted. *sigh* Pity you can't do that hey?

Sorry I'll stop whinging now.

MammaMia 13-03-2009 11:33 PM

You're not rubbish darl, I'm alright, but very very tired. You?

MammaMia 13-03-2009 11:34 PM

Kahlia *squishes* Sorry to hear you're struggling. Anything I can do to help? xxxx

realflifefaerie 14-03-2009 12:12 AM

Thanks, I feel rubbish.
I get distracted by bad things so easily, I actually don't know how I am right now, very lost and confused.

wildly insane 14-03-2009 12:15 AM

I don't think I should be left to my own devices.

*hugs Secrets, Snuffles, Helen, Kahlia, Dayna, Jade, Jem, Shell, MaryAnne, Kat, Arwen and anybody else curled up in a corner somewhere*

Snuffles 14-03-2009 12:35 AM

Pretty **** actually zowie...

But just happy to have the net back on =)

Damnation. 14-03-2009 02:59 AM

*Hugs all*

...I miss my sister

Kahlia1981 14-03-2009 09:44 AM

*hugs all*

Katie ~ I don't think I said it yet, but glad to have you back. Hope things are going okay.

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