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YodaBearInterrupted 14-05-2012 06:06 PM


Originally Posted by happiness...its all a lie (Post 3221755)
the feeling of being trapped is horrible, maybe write out things you would like to do or like to achieve and research ways of doing it? Hope your feeling better today.

Do you hate the fact hes right or the fact you feel you need to go back on APs? It is annoying i was so down about going back on anti depressants but now im on them and feel more normal again its better because i know in the long run it makes things better. Im sorry he was patronizing towards you for calling etc i suppose its his way of being encouraging/supportive. Do you want to talk about what you didnt tell him in here?

Happiness -- I do write alot... i keep a journal. I often forget to write in it, but I am on the 4th one. I don't exactly write about what I would like to do or achieve, its more a journal to rant in and write about I feel and the such. I do end up writing or translating Latin to English alot, which is odd I know, but sometimes it makes me feel better when I do that.

I think I hate both -- that he is right and that I know in my heart that I should be back on APs. I don't think he was patronizing, I think it was more I hate hearing those words and sentences cause I hate feeling or knowing that I need help. Its a heart vs mind battle sort of... in my heart I know that I should be back on AP meds, but in my mind I fight back and say that I don't and the voices compound that.

I didn't tell him i ended up back SHing again. I know it was not a good idea to do, but it was the only way to break the emotional stranglehold of pain and stress I was going through. I have done it twice since I have seen him last week -- much of it is because I am overwhelmed with everything that is going on at work and at home.

YodaBearInterrupted 14-05-2012 06:10 PM

*hugs Lindsay* -- I laugh each time I see your sig because I find it hilarious - and yes, I do READ ALL THE BOOKS! LOL

*hugs Mark* -- I hope you are feeling better today

*hugs happiness*

*leaves some goodies (brownies/cookies/candy) on the table*

Twisted_Illusions 14-05-2012 06:31 PM

I need somewhere to hide for a while....

Nomophobia - what tattoo are you getting done? I hope your appointment goes ok. You'll be fine.

YodaBearInterrupted 14-05-2012 06:46 PM

*hugs Twisted* (if okay)

How are you doing?

one_step_closer 14-05-2012 06:49 PM

Matt, I also read ALL the books (except boring ones :-p) How are you today?

Emily, how are you?

Twisted_Illusions 14-05-2012 06:49 PM

Hugs are always welcome :) thank you.

I'm not doing so well to be honest.

How're you?

YodaBearInterrupted 14-05-2012 07:00 PM

*hugs Lindsay and Twisted again*

I am doing okay I guess for right now... kinda like sitting on a neutral plane... but I would say I am liable to slip up depending on if something happens -- and that can even be a small tiny thing

Would you like to talk about it Twisted? If you feel comfortable with doing that.

one_step_closer 14-05-2012 07:05 PM

Emily, i'm here if you need to talk.

Matt, hold on to that ok feeling and see if you can do things to build on it.

I'm just trying to forget about everything and focus on my online life.

Twisted_Illusions 14-05-2012 07:18 PM

Matt - I know the feeling, like Lindsey said hold on to that feeling and build upon it. Here if you need to chat. And I should talk about it really, but I wouldn't even know where to begin. I've done somethings that make me hate myself this weekend and I can't take it back or make it go away and so I'm left with this all consuming guilt...

Lindsey - Thank you. =) and the same to you I know what you mean about just concentrating on your online life....you can pretend that real life doesn't exist.

happiness...its all a lie 14-05-2012 08:32 PM

*hugs* how is everyone?

*sits down to watch tv* im very tired but quite happy today :)

one_step_closer 14-05-2012 08:39 PM

I'm glad you're feeling quite happy.

I'm just watching a TV programme about extreme weather.

happiness...its all a lie 14-05-2012 08:51 PM

cool, im watching rspca animal rescue then eastenders lol. Is your programme good?

How are you today?

Twisted_Illusions 14-05-2012 08:57 PM

I'm watching how I met your mother....when I should be doing work, lol.

Someone please kick me into gear?!

happiness...its all a lie 14-05-2012 09:06 PM

lol oops...erm do some work? hows that for motivation!! could you do work with the tv on in the background thats what i did ive applied for 2 jobs!

one_step_closer 14-05-2012 09:10 PM

Happiness, the programme was ok although I was focusing more on RYL. Later i'm going to watch Sun, Sea, and A&E; The Secret Millionaire; and Road Wars.

I'm not entirely sure how I am. RYL is being a good distraction at the moment.

Emily, GET ON WITH YOUR WORK! I told you in capital letters and that means you have to obey me.

happiness...its all a lie 14-05-2012 09:16 PM

Im glad ryl is helping you at the moment. Sounds like you have a good evening of tv planned. What else do you like to watch?

Twisted_Illusions 14-05-2012 09:19 PM

Ok ok I'm going.... lol

Enjoy your evening/day or whatever time of day it is wherever you are.

happiness...its all a lie 14-05-2012 09:25 PM

lol evening thankfully soon time for sleep!!! i love sleep

one_step_closer 14-05-2012 09:43 PM

I also love sleep but I hate the battle of trying to get out of bed in the morning.

I like to watch medical documentaries mostly. And dramas like Casualty and Holby City. What sort of things do you like?

happiness...its all a lie 14-05-2012 10:27 PM

cool, i like things on the crime channel, home and away and neighbours or animal programmes.

I hope it isnt too bad to get up tomorrow.

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