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one_step_closer 28-12-2010 01:33 PM

Hi Willow, I hope you're well.

Mark, it seems like everything I do just reinforces the feeling. I can't get away from it. I'll just have to keep surviving even though it's the last thing I want to do.

nicole94 28-12-2010 02:22 PM

*Hugs everyone*
I SI'd :( I feel like such a failure. I tried really hard, honestly, I got the urge about 6pm yesterday, and I managed to hold it off until 3am today, but then I just gave in. :(

MammaMia 28-12-2010 02:26 PM

*hugs everybody*

It's okay Nicole. You still can't take away those six days that you didn't harm and you did so well to not just give into the urge straight away *cuddles* Please look after your wounds.

nicole94 28-12-2010 02:29 PM

*Cuddles Helen*
Thanks hun, I just feel so bad :( And I am looking after my wounds.
How are you?

MammaMia 28-12-2010 02:39 PM

*cuddles Nicole* Please try not to beat yourself up, it won't help make you feel any better. I'm good x

nicole94 28-12-2010 02:44 PM

*Cuddles Helen*
I'm trying, but I feel stupid, and it's worse cause I didn't get the same feeling as I usually get, I still had that calm feeling you get when you SI, but I also felt really ashamed and like I was hopeless. Is that normal?

MammaMia 28-12-2010 02:50 PM

*cuddles Nicole* Don't feel stupid sweetheart. Because you're not. You're doing SO well. You've come on a long way since we first started chatting here. I know you may not believe me or see it for yourself but you have. I don't know if it's normal, I suppose you can react with any kind of emotion. After all self harm isn't 'normal'.

nicole94 28-12-2010 02:58 PM

*Hugs Helen* maybe... heh. Maybe it's time for me to throw my blades away?

Doikers 28-12-2010 03:02 PM

*Hugs Lindsay**Holds Hand*

*Hugs Nicole* I'm sorry you cut but you still made 6 whole days ,Thats great .

*Hugs Helen*

nicole94 28-12-2010 03:06 PM

*Hugs mark* Thanks....
Eugh, I feel so low today. I don't like it :(

Doikers 28-12-2010 03:11 PM

Awh *Hugs Nicole again* Can you put on some cheerful or upbeat music *Offers My Paramore Collection*

nicole94 28-12-2010 03:14 PM

*Hugs mark* I'm listening to girls aloud at the moment, but thanks for the offer :) (I also have my own paramore collection upstairs :P)
Eugh. I really, really wanna move out.

Doikers 28-12-2010 03:23 PM

Oh I know that feeling Nicole *Squishes*

MammaMia 28-12-2010 04:00 PM


Originally Posted by nicole94 (Post 2627621)
*Hugs Helen* maybe... heh. Maybe it's time for me to throw my blades away?

I would recommend doing that if you feel able to *cuddles* I threw all of mine out (well ones I had left) earlier this year and it's played a huge part in me staying so free *hugs* I'm sorry you feel so low. I know you want to move out so badly, but it's not easy at all :(


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2627627)
*Hugs Helen*

hugs Mark

nicole94 28-12-2010 04:06 PM

*Cuddles Helen* I think i'm ready to throw them out, but i'm not completley sure.....
And I know it wouldn't be easy to move out, but I hate living here :( I have nowhere to go anyway, haven't even decided what part of the country I wanna live in when i'm older, cause I know I don't wanna stay in oxfordshire :/ heh.

Doikers 28-12-2010 04:07 PM

If you feel strong enough to throw your blades away Nicole Hun that would be a massive step forwards:)

nicole94 28-12-2010 04:10 PM

:) *Hugs Mark* I have an idea which I can't say on here because I think it's against the rules, but yeah, I think i will do my idea :)

Doikers 28-12-2010 04:14 PM

Nicole , That sounds mysterious :P Go with it if you feel it's a good idea :)

MammaMia 28-12-2010 04:17 PM

*cuddles you both*

Was going to go shopping today but buses are still on Sunday service :( So will go tomorrow instead as they go onto Saturday service until 4th Jan (apart from Sunday :P)

nicole94 28-12-2010 04:20 PM

lol mark, aahhh, i like being mysterious. :P And yeah, i think i'm gonna go for it.
*hugs helen* lol. That sounds confusing :/

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