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PoisonedApple 13-07-2010 06:46 PM

*cuddles april* You doing okay (dumb question I know....)?

SoMuchMore 13-07-2010 06:49 PM

*hugs nicole* i'm glad that you called childline and that they were helpful.

*hugs lia* how r you feeling today?

*hugs april* I think it is definitely normal to feel apprehensive/worried about jarrod in the army. How else are you hun? Don't hide in the corner and cry, you can talk to us you know.

*hugs taz* try not to lie.. i know it can be hard especially when trying to make your parents think you are okay. I've thought about the whole, "teenage problems" before thing too. I even wrote this whole poem out once that was called "i'm getting to old for this." So you are definitely not alone in your struggles with that.

*hugs amy* hope that you managed to not scratch those spider bites. They can be so itchy i know, but it really just makes them worse to scratch

*hugs jill* how r u doing?

*hugs helen* i'm sorry that you've been thinking so much about suicide, that can really bring down your day :-/ Hope you are okay right now hun.

*hugs mark* sorry that you are still feeling so low. I wish there was something i could say to help counteract those feelings. Was your walk helpful this morning?

*hugs heather* hope you managed to get some sleep.

I spy crimson! *hugs* How r u today?

I'm really lacking motivation to do anymore of my online class. I took a few days off while I was at home and now I just want to quit it, especially since its not actually required for anything other than my own benefit. O well, i'm sure once i actually get myself to work on it it'll be okay again.

Other than that, feeling a little strange. Don't really know how to explain, but its like I think something is going to happen. Probably just another shift in MH issues. That's what it usually means when i feel like this. So pretty much just moving in the normal invisible circles that I always do. I'm very much so over all of this. And starting to get angry so i'll shut up now.

MammaMia 13-07-2010 07:03 PM


Originally Posted by Fallinstar0317 (Post 2399923)
*hugs helen* i'm sorry that you've been thinking so much about suicide, that can really bring down your day :-/ Hope you are okay right now hun.

*hugs Laura* It can bleh. I'm not okay but hey. Sorry you're not doing so well. Hope you can find the motivation again soon *cuddles tight*

Scarletdreamer 13-07-2010 07:23 PM

I am not doing well. I don't know how to explain it. Just numb/low/apathetic, like Crimson & Mark. I don't know.

I just cried some more. I feel awful. I can't get away from the feelings either, and my bestie is coming in 40 minutes... and I really am going to try & hold it together for her but I'm scared that I'm going to start crying whilst she's here.

It's okay that you had to go, Mark, no worries. I love chatting with you though. :) How was the visit with your dad? and how are you doing now?? *hugs*

I'm sorry no other individual replies, am not ignoring any of you, I promise, just am feeling like utter ****. :'(

shadowedsoul 13-07-2010 07:34 PM

Hugs April tight. Hmm I'm doing I have got no idea.=( meh.

Doikers 13-07-2010 07:45 PM

Thing just "are" April , A couple of people asked if I enjoyed my walk, it wasn't VERY long , I should have enjoyed it , but I'm just numb , I feel empty , I know cutting would help short term , I am drawn to doing it , as ever *Sigh* sorry I'm not being a very good wardmate lateley. I'm just going to have a bath , that might help me feel more cared for ( Not the right words )

SoMuchMore 13-07-2010 07:56 PM


My r/v thread if you are interested. Its pretty long. But it gives some history of me. If it doesn't make sense I'm sorry.

misskitty112 13-07-2010 07:58 PM

I'm just going to come in here and sit until life feels better. Is that okay?

Doikers 13-07-2010 08:06 PM

Thats okay MissKitty , I'm Mark , how are you?

Doikers 13-07-2010 08:20 PM

*Hugs* Laura , I Read page 3 of your R/V thread , you are very good with words , I wish I could write / speak like you do , I get so stuck with words. But this isn't about me , it's about you , I know the feeling , walking down the street , every bus , every tree branch an oppurtunity :(
*Extra Huggles*

And I got your Some history of you , it's nice of you to share , thankyou :)

misskitty112 13-07-2010 08:26 PM


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2400103)
Thats okay MissKitty , I'm Mark , how are you?

I'm Felicia.

I'm alright just going through a rough time with problems with my uni and trying not to SI... and wanting to be completely perfect for the play I'm in, and trying to keep the ED at bay so my cast members don't see when we all go out.

and I'm tired. and want life to feel better.

SoMuchMore 13-07-2010 08:46 PM

*hugs helen* I'm sorry to hear that you are not okay. Feel free to PM me if you want to.

*hugs mark* thanks for reading it. I'm sorry that you can understand all too well what i was saying. Also, getting stuck with words happens to me a lot too even though i love to write. A lot of the time when i'm asked to write about myself things all go to hell. I'm kinda suprised i was able to write that at all. Feel kinda vulnerable with it up though, so i don't know if i'll leave it or not.

*hugs april* I'm sorry that you are feeling so badly hun. Hope that seeing your bestie helps some.

*hugs felicia* (if thats okay.. if you don't want to be hugged *waves*) Hi! I'm Laura. Sorry that you are having such a hard time at uni right now. Let us know if there is anything we can do to help.

*hugs jill*

PoisonedApple 13-07-2010 09:01 PM

Laura~ I read your r/v... Sorry I have no words right now but I wanted you to know that I did read it. *huggles*

MammaMia 13-07-2010 09:41 PM

*cuddles all*

*hugs felicia* (if thats okay.. if you don't want to be hugged *waves*) Hi sweetie. I'm Helen. Really sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now. Let us know if there is anything we can do to help?

Doikers 13-07-2010 09:52 PM

*Cuddles Helen* Are you feeling any better now? I hope so .

I'm just sat at my P.C. Staring at peoples animated Sigs / Staring into space . I cut , although not at all seriously , I'm not at all happy how it looks , I want it to be worse how crazy does that make me sound?! I'm Numb still . *Sigh* sorry I'm such a useless ward-mate latley.

EDIT:- Hey Heather I Spot you :) *Hug*

risenfromperdition 13-07-2010 10:24 PM

that doesnt make you sound crazy at all mark [unfortunately i know exactly how that feels ><]

im... i dunno. full and feel like every item of clothing i own looks horrid on me and wanna go for a walk but its still pouring and just UGH. is it winter so can hide in sweatshirts please? >.>

risenfromperdition 13-07-2010 10:25 PM

*snuggles laura*

Scarletdreamer 13-07-2010 10:29 PM

Welcome to the ward, Felicia. :) I'm April. *offers hugs* I'm sorry that you're struggling with SI/ED stuff... sounds a lot like me!! :-S

Laura, I'll try & read your r/v in a bit. *huggles*

Hels, how are you? *cuddles*

Crimson, how are you doing? *cuddles & offers some wild strawberry Crystal Light ;)*

Mark *curls up next to* I'm sorry that you cut... I wish there were something that I could do to help. :( I understand "just being" ... it sucks not really having any feelings (well, meaning that in the "are you feeling blah blah blah?" sense, not the feelings as in "have I hurt your feelings?"... if that makes any sense at all!!). Sorry, I'm just rambling now... :( *cuddles*

I spy Heather!! *huggles* How are you, sweetie?

*huggles/cuddles all that I missed*

I'm not feeling much better, although a bit, as it's settled now - once Jarrod ships out for basic training, I'll be moving back in with my parents. A little scary but I think it'll be healthier for me overall. I think. It will at least make sure that I eat/drink and don't just sit around "moping" (or "being a lump" as my dad said) all the time. I'm scared about that though... :-S Prayers/good thoughts would really be appreciated about that. About everything that's going on in my life lately, actually. :-/

The time with my bestie was "meh" at best... :-S I don't know... it was tough to talk because I was so anxious. It really sucked. *sigh* I felt really bad for effectively wasting her time. :(

I think I'll update my r/v sometime soonish... like tonight sometime... it's been a bit. :-X

*extra cuddles to those who need them*

Doikers 13-07-2010 10:33 PM

At least I know I'm not alone in it Heather although I'm sorry you know the feeling too:(
Time for bed, I'm not so tired but I just hope I'll get some sleep soon and wake up feeling less low and numb .

I spots me an April! EDIT:- You make sense ,yes :)

*Night-time Huggle to the whole ward*

risenfromperdition 13-07-2010 10:43 PM

night mark <3

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