*sits next to Emma* mmm, thanks for the wine luv :-) too bad I've got final exams tomorrow AND Friday morning so I shouldn't drink till Friday night:pinch:
Anyway Emma I hope your meeting goes well and you manage to focus for your exams this Friday *cuddles for courage*
Chloe I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad. I understand about just passing being good enough and how it sucks because you know you can do better, have higher standards. I'm in the same boat. But I think I just might make it... And you will too luv*snuggles*

Thanks Ally, I will be getting completely ****ing slaughtered on Friday night, like horrifically drunk lol because then my exams will be finished :D

Chloe, Ally sssshhh I am sure you will both do great :P xxx

*hugs Emma* Ah, a girl after my own heart lol. I can't get too drunk as I don't have any money but I've got a bit of alcohol that I'm definitely going to down Friday. I ****ing graduate:crying: now it's get a job. Get up, go to work, go home and go to bed. That's going to be my life. No one to come home to (well the cat... I didn't want a room mate but I'm almost 25 I kind of thought I'd have a man by now). Just me, the cat, a bunch of DVDs and no cable TV... And me working at some shop job with my BA in psychology... GO ME!!:ermm:

*retreats to her corner to do MORE studying, oh joy*

*snuggles everyone*

I can't sleep, and just read a long book. I'm abloutely bawling with tears from the book and about other things. Oh dear :(

*snuggles Helen* I'm sorry luv, it's pretty damn early there isn't it:pinch:.*hands you some tissues*

I just crashed... Not like, sleep wise, though I am exhausted, but mood wise. Worst part is I'm not done studying yet and tomorrows exam is for the class I'm really worried about:crying:
**** me

I freaked out again today at another mountain road, bad enough that I had to take my anti-psychotic. My husband has been driving this whole trip anyway. But as soon as I told him that I was going to take it and announced that I was no longer safe to drive he was fine with that.

Husband went to sleep 15 minutes ago and is snoring so loud that it is distracting me as I sit here and type, never mind when I try to sleep. No wonder I'm always so sleep deprived.

btw, when I get home, when my "I am currently" thingy says "dizzy" that means lightheaded with exhaustion.

Ally, been where you are with the job. With an MA I was the free samples girl in the Thanksgiving rush at Honeybaked Hams. Then I spent a year basically asking "would you like thread with that?" at a fabric store. For that I wrote a 60+ page research paper estimating with the development in two cities how much the runoff would increase? That is why I spent 2.5 years mapping and measuring the slope etc of those streams?

Time for me to roll my husband over then go to bed myself.

Sorry I'm talking so seldom and so long. Back to regular schedule on Monday.

*Jem agrees with emma* jess does care about u alexx!!


Good luck chloeeeeeee!!!! U'll do fine....u'll pass! if not apply for that special considerations for a exam resit or something long those lines.


Ally....good luck tomorrow! u should try and study as much as possible there ;) maybe sleep a bit and study tomorrow morning?

*cuddles everyone the psych ward one by one :-)*

can't resit these.
was trying to revise today but can't concentrate, and....yeah....see thread in support.
they would find out cos it says on results paper "under compassionate consideration" or something.
good luck ally, love u xx
hugs to everyone

*hugs everyone*

Yeah Ally it was pretty damm early. I didn't sleep til 5.30am and then I heard my mum wake up to take my sister & her boyfriend to the airport at 6am. Deary me.

Got some sleep though, feel really crappy with this cold and lack of sleep. Ugh I'm having my vaccinations for my holiday tomorrow :|

Go try get some more sleep helen :-)

It sounds like u need it..that's if u can

****, crap %^*( (*^£$%^&$^&*( For ****s sake! I forgot I had left my damn car in a car park at uni on TUESDAY and you aren't allowed to leave it there over night so I am now going to have a £50 fine. See....who in their right mind forgets that they have a car??? Seriously?

Oh yeah and the cut I went to A&E for earlier this week, that they wouldn't stitch but steri stripped and was still gaping a bit....well guess what? It's infected, as predicted steri strips have not held so now I have the gaping hole basically on the inside of my wrist (yes I showed it to the nurses when I went this morning and got anti-biotics).

I mean COME on though. Sorry. I'm just tired and upset and stressed out and just generally a pain to be around today :crying::crying::crying:

can you put in a complaint about the people that wouldn't stitch it? Sorry you're stressed today, anything you want to talk about? Take care of yourself and your wrist *hugs*

To be honest they were fairly nice and polite about not stitching this time, said it was hospital policy not to stitch self harmers because a lot of us just unpick them (I don't but hey) so they tried to steri strip but it wouldn't close properly and they still wouldn't stitch. I don't want to complain because realistically I will have to go back there and also it wasn't the nurses who patched it ups fault. I wish I had complained about the doctor at the other A&E whose reason for not stitching was because it was self harm and she wasn't going to 'waste her time' on it but hey that was over a week ago now so n/m.

Nothing really I can say, I think exams and family stresses are exacerbating how I'm feeling. I'm just in one of those 'had enough' moods. It's just it's lasted more than a few days now. Thanks for the reply though x

*Hugs Pomegranate* Sorry hun, I don't know your name?

Called A&E last night. They weren't much help. Took my meds, went to sleep on the sofa. Woke up, had a panic attack. Slept. Called EIP today, she's seeing me at 3.30.

Feeling terrible but going for lunch with dad.

Emma - fair enough. At least they were nice about it I guess. I've found that the nurses in A&E tend to be nicer and better at coping with it than the doctors. Your exams will be over soon, maybe that will ease the stress a bit? x

Zowie - Sorry things are so hard for you right now. What did A&E say to you? Have a nice lunch with your dad :)

Thanks Zowie *hugs back* it's Emma x

Sorry A&E were so useless but well done for calling them anyway :) Hope the EIP lady helps today and have a nice lunch xxx

My 17 year old friend is in hospital again. I'm worried about her but helpless to know what to do.

I'm back to being exhausted. This is the final days of my holiday!

Good morning all

*snuggles Chloe*
I'm going to read your thread after this mornings exam luv. I wish I could do it before but I've got LOADS of studying to do and not enough time to do it in. I hope you're doing better.

Zowie, good luck with... Who is it? EI? Sorry, American, I get confused easily. I hope lunch with your dad was good.

*cuddles her 'across the pond drinking buddy'*
Oh Emma, that all sounds like a load of bull. For heaven sake, especially the one a week or so ago! Good lord, I'd have given her an ear full and then some. And not stitching because 'they' usually just pick them out? *humph* first off, it's not PC to be identifying folks by their disorder (like depressive or schizophrenic) and while SH isn't it's own disorder in the DSM (though I think it at least deserves a nod) it's still the same thing. Self harmers, self injurers, cutters... My theory there is, it's ok if I call myself a cutter, that's one thing, and I understand all that that covers and that it is not the whole of who I am... But others sure better not because that does not define me.
*steps off her soap box*
Oops, sorry:pinch: didn't mean to preach. It's early and I've not slept well for two weeks... Makes me a bit... Well, yeah.
ANY way... I hope your mood improves dear heart*snuggles*

*throws a pillow at Jeremy* HA! I win :-p

Ugh, too much studying, then I've got to go to talk to someone at the apartment I'm trying to get into, then check up on those job possibilities and then go to work... And all I really want to do is stay in bed all day:pinch: Damn

*hugs Ally* You will be great hun. Good luck with the exam and besides just think...in 28hours or so we can both get trashed :)

I think not sleeping may be making me ill. I keep throwing up and can't focus my eyes. May go back to bed for an hour or so.

*hugs everyone*

*hugs Emma*
Aww, sweetie
*hands you a blanket, a pillow, and a bucket*
Go to bed hun, I hope you feel better.