-hugs oliver back- I don't have any friends. There is a crisis line but if I call it and tell them I am suicidal they will have me sent to the hospital and I can't afford that. I don't have the money or any health care..

Kitty honey, there are so many things running through my head that I wanna say to you that I can't even pick one. Just please stay safe! Please!

even in an emergency you still have to pay for hospital treatment.
I'm sorry that sucks. Keeps talking to us, is there some sort of national helpline which is more anonymous, so you wouldnt put you in hospital.

*hugs Kutty and Solo*

What do you want to say to me, Solo?

-hugs oliver back- I don't know. Maybe. I've never called the national hotline before I'm not sure if they track your call if you say you are suicidal and send an ambulance or anything...

And yes, to answer your question. It's against the law for them to refuse treatment if you are unable to pay, but you still get a huge bill. Like I went to the ER in november to see if I needed stitches I was only there for like 15 minutes with the doctor and they charged me $625. That bill is on its way to collections, which means it's going to ruin my credit. And that was only for 15 minutes!

oh my god, hearing that makes me glad for the NHS.
well going on the national helplines in england, they dont track your calls, i have called them after taking an overdose and they offered to call an ambulance for me, but i refused so they couldn't do anything.
I dont know what it is like where you live.
*hugs*

-hugs oliver back- I don't know, either. I have heard they do put you on hold, though.. =/

*hugs Kitty* its worth a try at least. please stay safe. are you on yor own at the moment?

Yes, on my own.. sorry guys..

-rocks back and forth-

*hugs* is there someone you can visit, or be with? just so your not alone

I'm havin computer troubles again. I'm also gettin drifty. I want to say lots of things about how special you are n how many people care about you n other things you won't listen to.

I'm sorry kitty! I read that back n it sounded harsh. I didn't mean for it to. I kept driftin while I was tryin to type it on my iPod. I can barely see. I just really care about you n I want you to stay safe. I want so badly to help but I don't know how.

-hugs oliver- No. I have no friends, and I don't know anyone in the area..

You ok solo?..

I dunno. I can't think. I don't feel well.

Did you take anything? Do anything?..

I've been doin some things to lose weight. My heart's doin gymnastics.

Solo... what have you done??? Do you need medical attention?!

I think I better lay down. You gonna be ok? Will I talk to you tomorrow?

I don't know. Can't promise anything at this point. Go lay down and take care of yourself. If it gets worse, you should go to the hospital..