Not a clue when it is Charlie hun , You could do okay with £25 but I bought my mum wine , I guess you can in a copuple of years........?

*Night Time Hugs all my wardies*

Love Y'all. :)

*hugs Mark* night

*hugs Lia* happy birthday and congrats on your drama grade :) I also feel like that so very often in the morning, infact I feel emptiness a hell of a lot it sucks :(

*hugs Solo, Louise, Charlie, Crimson, Lindsey and eeryone in the ward*

*Hugs Mark goodnight.* Sweet dreams.

*Hugs Oliver* You alright? It's a horrible feeling :/ and thanks :)

I dislike fathers' day.

*hugs Lia* I dislike fathers day too.

I'm okish, really want to harm that it hurts trying not to.

*Hugs Oliver* Do your best to stay distracted, but having said that I'd rather you harmed than OD'ed.

I'm looking for tickets to Glee Live, but the only doable dates are dead expensive. I've just had my birthday (well, am having it) so I can afford it, but it's finding someone to come with me who can also afford it that's causing issues.

Oh, and fathers' day is the 19th of June this year (I think). But don't quote me on that.

*Hugs Lia and Oliver*
*Night time Hugs Mark*
I also dislike fathers day. Oliver-please try to stay safe, but like Lia said, If you feel like you may do something more harmful then I'd rather you cut safely.
I think I need another cup of tea :)

*Hugz all*

I'LL COME!.... oh wait..... we are in different countries... dang it :(

*hugs Lia, Charlie and Megz*

*hugs ward*
I'm heading to bed. night <3

*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Lia*
*Hugs Charlie*
*Hugs Megz*
*Hugs Felicia*

hugs everyone, how are we all

*Hugs Louise* Feeling a little more okay today , not perfect and It was SO to get out of bed but a step in the right direction I think :) How are you?

*hugs mark* I am glad that you are feeling a bit better today.

I am bit better still low but not as low as I have been.

*Hugs Louise* I'm glad you feel a little better too :)

Hi .. feeling a little off today ..... wanting drink at the moment but i have no money to get any at the moment

*hugs everyone*

I wish I didn't have to be alive any more. Life is too much for me.

*Hugs Ella* I know the Feeling....:S

*Hugs Lindsay* Hold on hun .

I've just found out that my appeal has been disallowed so i'll have to start looking for work :/

:( I'm really sorry Lindsay hun *Squishes Ya Loads* Could you appeal the decision?

*Cuddles everyone*

*Hugs Charlie*

I could but I don't think i'll get anywhere. I'll just have to hope that if I get a job it doesn't make me crack up like my last job did.

What's everyone been up to today? I might be moving house soon so i've been trying to clear out some of my Dad's stuff and the things I have chucked in a cupboard.

I've Not Accomplished a Lot Lindsay , You are moving ? Are you excited? *Hugs*

Yes, I am excited. I would be moving to a better area and it would mean that my brother would be more comfortable coming home because he doesn't get on with our current neighbours and hates where we live. I've just been offered the place, I hope I get it. I need to pass an inspection thing where they make sure i'm not a slob or something. My cats have ripped some of the wallpaper so I hope that doesn't go against me.

I'm sure a little ripped wallpaper won't matter , Just declutter (If you have clutter) and make sure your current place is clean :) Sorry if that sounded patronising Lindsay , Not meant to be

It didn't sound patronising at all.

How is everyone this evening or whatever time it may be where you are?

RAWWR :)

*Hugs Charlie*

*Hugs Mark* How are you?

Better than yesterday Charlie , Hopefully not as good as tomorrow , How are you? *Hugs*

Well i'm glad you're better than yesterday :)
I'm good thanks. Got my mums presents :) *Hugs*
Need another cup of tea but can't be botherd to go make one XD

*Sends motivation to make tea to Charlie*

Lol, Thanks. I will make myself go soon :)

I just made myself some tea :)

*Hugs everyone* Thanks for the birthday wishes :) I had a really awesome day, despite the exam. I have the best drama class in the world <3

Send me some over? I still haven't made any XD

~Hugs all you beautiful people!~

*Hugs Solo* How you doing?

Thanks Lia my dear! I'm hangin honey, just don't let go a me, k?

I'm here Solo. Is there anything you want to talk about?

I dunno Lia. I've pretty much decided not to do that any more.

Take my word for it, that's not fun. It just...makes stuff worse. And you get into the habit. Just...don't go there.

That's how I've lived my whole life until all this SI and ED stuff kicked up. All talking about it seems to accomplish is hurting people I care about n messing up friendships.

I know. Those I trust enough to talk about things with I love too much to hurt. And I'm always afraid they will leave me, even if they don't mean to because there are some things no one can predict and even if people do promise to always be there, they don't know how frustrating it it going to be, they can't promise that. But here on the ward and RYL in general, we all support each other. It's what we're here for. And although I'm not always entirely honest with you guys, it all goes in my R/V. No one here's going to judge or abandon you.

Exactly! I knew you would understand Lia! At first I had decided to only wear the mask, if ya know what I mean, with everyone irl. Then I kept saying the wrong thing here n either triggering someone or making things worse for people I was trying to help. Now I feel like I should just keep to myself like I had always done before, to protect others.

*hugs all*

I have to be up stupidly early tomorrow to get a bus to manchester and then a tram back to bury, which is only a bus ride from where i am, but the buses dont run until 10 and my course starts at 9.30, bloody public transport, I'll still probably be late

I don't recall you ever doing that here. You're a really nice person and only ever try and help people. If you think something you say is going to be triggering, you can put it in a hide box, or if your computer is playing up like mine does sometimes, just put a little warning before your main part. You shouldn't have to keep everything inside you even on here. Or have an R/V, as far as I am aware, there are no rules about what you can and can't write there because it's your space. You don't have to worry about triggering others because hardly anyone else will read it and if they do they should know full well what sort of things may be in there.

Talking to people just plain scares me now.

*Hugs Oliver* That sucks, I have to get up early also for church and I haven't slept in for weeks :( Still, it's my choice to go so y'know.

F**king bol***ing wa***rs. I completely forgot to start my script now I have to write 9 pages tomorrow.

*hugs Lia and Solo*

Heya :)

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Solo*

*Hugs Oliver*