*Hugs Felicia* I'm glad you had such a great time last night :) and at least you have your uni work out , Thats a start, you seem a very good student and I'm sure you'll get your work done :) (Thats meant to sound encourageing)

*Hugs Lindsay* You could say "hey okay , whens convinient for you for a cuppa?" and arrange an informal sort of chat with her , she sounds very nice :)

For those who have Twitter, I just started an almost anon. account so people can keep up with how I feel but not know its me, if you get what I mean

http://twitter.com/#!/ButterflyWhim

I've never ever been on twitter Sarah, Is it good?

Why Sorry Owen? are you okay?

oh that happens to me too sometimes , what did you say?

Mark, thanks. It was encouraging. I made it through half a chapter in Marketing before my brain got boggled with "global marketing strategies," "adapted global marketing," "too much Americanization in marketing," etc etc. Break time, for sure.

Owen, it's okay. What's wrong, dear?

Twitter is handy for posting without being traced. I've set mine up to use as a journal, just updates about my moods so I can track them

I keep seeing Rebecca in my dreams, and sometimes I hear her voice when I'm awake. Not sure whats going on but I'll admit I don't dislike it. I've started posting under her name when I don't want to be identified. *shrugs*

*Hugs Sarah* I might look into Twitter , Are you aware of her voice as inside your head or outside your head , sorry I'm no Dr , just trying to understand.

*Hugs My Wardmates goodnight*

Busy day tomorrow , appointments at 10am,11am and 12 pm, But I like all the people :)

Its inside, but sometimes I say her words out loud without noticing. *shrugs*

I'll speak to my doctor about it at some point

Nighty night Mark

*hugs Lia back* I don't know what to do, either. I am not making up the fact that I have no friends here - why would I lie about such a thing? Heh. I thought I had a few, but one turned out to be a psycho bitch, and threatened to show up at my doorstep with a sword. The other 2 turned out to be nothin but users - you know, the kind that use you in whatever way they can think of but you never hear from them unless they need something, and I'm not talking just about support - they tried usin me for everything...rides to places, money, etc. I got tired of it so I cut it off with them. I haven't made any other friends in the area other than that. And as far as school goes, I am a long way from being done. I still have another 4-5 years, possibly longer because I don't know what I am wanting to major in - I'm undecided. So yeah...I'm stuck.

*hugs everyone who wants one* how is everybody?

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Owen*

*Hugs Kitty*

I suffer with deppression to, iv had it for quite some time now, sometimes its really bad. Felt down last night, but im better now.

*cuddles all who want* Is it strange I spend all my time craving seeing/hearing Rebecca? I don't know whats going on, she's not real but I miss her

geez laura, it was like 45 here o.O
no trading :P

felicia, hope you getted your stuff done :)
that said... im off for the night,
bye bye loves :)

might be back on periodically buuut

hun u probably dont know owen that well yet but please dont hug him unless he asks or hugs u first ok

and i feel real stupid in asking this but whos Rebecca?

hey julie, how you doin :)

*hugs heather* hi hunny

-hugs her knees ever so tightly and curls up into the tightest ball she can-

Why does life have to be so shitty? Why does PTSD have to exist? Havin a horrible panic attack my heart is pounding but I can hardly breathe. I dont know what to do I want to cut so bad!

=[ sorry feel horrid

ugh this stupid paper should write itself. fml

whats the paper on, heather?

*offers hugs to kitty*

thanks julie *hugs back* how are you doing?

a law in congress about more funding for ed treatment when peopel arent 'really ill' ... and by that i mean the insurance company's idea of not really ill, any struggling with ed's is ill enough [says me.. hypocriteeee]

*hugs Julie* Rebecca is the girl I keep seeing in my dreams and hearing her voice when I'm doing things, inside my head, but I really miss her when I don't hear her or see her.

Awe heather I'm sorry, that has to be difficult to write. EDs are a real issue...I know cuz I have dealt with one on and off since I was a kid, too. -hugs, if ok-

*hugs ward*

It's been a busy busy busy weekend for me :)

Heya Helen :) how are you?

Ward keeps being busy on and off. Heh. Google is throwing up nothing concerning about my Rebecca. Only thing I don't like is how she goes on about makeup being "whore paint"... I'm rambling

-hugs people who came in if ok-

how are you guys?

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Julie*

*hugs mark back* how are you, mark?

I'm tired , Got up , did what I needed to do then laid down for an hour , Now I have to go out in 21 minutes for my meetings , Time for one more coffee .How are you Kitty ?

Tired, can't sleep - again. And, it's my fault...somehow. My eyes hurt so bad from lack of sleep they are causing a huge headache and my eyes are twitching on occasion. I want to cut really bad. I would call my gma but it's 1:12 in the morning - I'm sure she wouldn't appreciate that. So...ya. I'm just buying time before I go to bed - I don't know if I'll make it to bed though, and if I do, I don't know if I will be able to resist the urges...

Welp I think I'm gunna try to go get some sleep...have a good night/day everyone *hugs to all who would like one*

*Hugs Kitty* Please try not to cut , Have you tried warm milk or porrige? porrige makes me sleep , Try to get some sleep hun . Where are you where it's so early ? I'm in the UK. *Squishes Again* I have to go now , to meetings . Take care.

Well I'm back from my 3 meetings today.
Sharron my nurse told me that our next meeting would be our last before she go's on Maternity leave and That makes me sad , I really Like and TRUST Sharron and It's taken a long time to build up that kind of relationship with her , I mean it's taken years , Kat is going to be my Keyworker while Sharron is away , Kat has done Accupuncture for maybe a year and has been my group one on one worker for 2 and a half months and I like her ,but I still think it might be difficult in the beginning , There's nothing I can do about it , I just have to roll with the punches <Who sang that song , country song? So Thats me so far today , I ran into Dad in town , he is coming up later, .

How is everyone today?

*hugs everybody*

Mark, I understand that feeling but know that with time you will hopefully feel closer to Kat.

Helen, how are you?

*Squishes Helen* How are you?

*Huggles Lindsay* Thanks , I know , It's just like Sharron is like my older sensible sister I never had (I'm the eldest out of my sister and I)

I'm sure you'll miss her then. Do you know roughly when she'll be back?

A year Lindsay, Thats how long :S But I am happy for her and her family , My sister went back after a few months but she needed to work so I figured that was how long Maternity leave was but for Sharron it's a year .

You could stay in touch with her while she's on maternity leave Mark. I know how you feel, my teacher, the only person I could trust moved to Doreset at the end of last year (last school year) she's been gone a few months now and I still miss her. *Hugs*

How are you Lindsey? *Squishses*

*Hugs Helen* Und du?

Hey Lia :) How are you ?

Evening all. Had a good day then a crappy day. Ehh. Arguments suck ass. *cuddles*

*hugs ward*
Anyone wanna make a study guide about John Donne's poetry for me? =)

*Hugs Sarah* Arguments indeed suck :( was it a bad one? How are you otherwise?

*Hugs Felicia*I'm sorry hun , I've not heard of him :S How are you ?

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry about the argument. They do suck. =(

Mark, I'm alright. My Marketing final got rescheduled cause of snow, so now ALL of my finals are on Friday (with the exception of Creative Writing), so I'm trying to get my professor to take pity on me, and let me take it Wednesday or Thursday.
And these Brit Lit study guides, I have seven pages already... on Chaucer, Twelfth Night, The Duchess of Malfi, etc... I'm so tired of looking at literature, and writing about literature, and analyzing literature.
I cannot wait until this week is over and I can enjoy books again.

And sorry... that was a mini rant.