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PoisonedApple 12-04-2011 06:58 PM

*hugs everyone*
It is reasonable to expect some privacy in your own home, Mark.
Oliver, I'm glad she's there for you and like wise that you can be there to understand and help her with her transition. *offers mint tea to help not feel so ill*
Congrats on passing inspection, Lindsay.
sorry everyone, that's all the individuals I can recall after catching up on all the pages...

Louise 12-04-2011 07:25 PM


Originally Posted by one_step_closer (Post 2766869)
Are you not sleeping well, Louise?

*hugs everyone*

I have not been sleeping still not, having nightmares.

YodaBearInterrupted 12-04-2011 07:28 PM

"I'm proud of you" WTH does that mean? I tried talking to one of my friends that knows and thats what i get? No wonder i shut up XD

PoisonedApple 12-04-2011 08:52 PM

Some days I love my job other days I hate working here. :(
I found out that everyone got a slip to fill out for staff appreciation day (on what they pick for food)... everyone but me. I picked up the one on the shelf by the mail drop and filled it in anyhow. I am part of the staff damn it! I refuse to be pushed out of participating. On the other hand I just want to sit and cry... I spent all of last week covering the front desk, on tuesday afternoon my office got thrashed and i'm still cleaning it all up, the head boss is the only one that seems to notice or care and everyone else i just get bitched at from. It makes me want to quit. And I probably would if it weren't for the fact I'm buying a house and I have kids that rely on me. FML.
On to a better topic to mayhaps make my mood better...
*~advanced warning for WoW-speak~*
I finally got a character to lvl 50!! It's not so much that it's hard as much as I usually get bored with them and start a new toon around lvl 20 or 30... and even when they don't get tiresome I sometimes just can't be bothered to even play... :)

And I got 3 new records to use in my phonograph thanks to T doing a spring cleaning :D

Billy! 12-04-2011 08:55 PM

*Curls up*

PoisonedApple 12-04-2011 09:00 PM

*hugs Charlie* What's up, hun?

frenchhorn 12-04-2011 09:02 PM

*hugs Crimson, Matt, Charlie and Louise*

Crimson I'm really sorry to hear about your work place. can you talk to the head boss about it as he seems to care.

i flipped earlier, went for a walk to try and calm down, but ended up nearly jumping off a bridge and having a breakdown in the woods, I just want to bloody die, this mental agony is too much

Billy! 12-04-2011 09:02 PM

*Hugs Crimson*
It's alright. You've got enough on your plate.

misskitty112 12-04-2011 09:05 PM

*sneaks in and leaves hugs and cake for everyone*
Yeah you heard me, cake. Cause I'm making a cake for tonight. :)

Epona 12-04-2011 09:23 PM

*Checks in, walks through the door & greets everyone. Sits in the common room snuggles under a duvet*

PoisonedApple 12-04-2011 09:24 PM

*hugs Oliver, Charlie and Felicia*
She does but she's not my boss, she's the lead attorney. I had a discussion with my boss a little before (like 2 business days) my office got thrashed so I think that (since my office's rumor mill is worse than grade school) word traveled to the offending parties of our discussion and my office was revenge. All my boss does is apologize and change nothing... *shrugs* even if I could and did quit it'd not change much... I've worked in 6 places and had issues with the people in all of them. (sexual harassment, passed over for a mgmt position -that i'd been training for, a person with no experience got it- because I wasn't cute enough, a boss that tried to take a portion of tips and didn't legally pay appropriately for overtime, a pissed off coworker -when her friend left the business i took the position and got paid higher than she did-, one coworker thought i'd report them to the cops because unlike them I don't smoke marijuana, etc, etc...) At least in this job I have an office away from everyone and can hide in it.

No worries Charlie. Might distract me :)

Felicia, No cal cake? What flavor?

PoisonedApple 12-04-2011 09:24 PM

*waves at Epona* I'm Crimson. *offers hugs*

Emo 12-04-2011 09:37 PM

*hugs everyone*

Was feeling ok earlier on and wanted to cut .. now feel like crap and i want to cut more ...not sure what has triggered me ..

PoisonedApple 12-04-2011 09:40 PM

*hugs Serenity*

misskitty112 12-04-2011 09:43 PM

Crimson, of course a no cal cake! And I'm making red velvet cake for tonight, but I do requests :)

*hugs everyone and disappears back in the kitchen*

Doikers 12-04-2011 09:48 PM

I *hug all my Wardies*
Hey Epona :)

PoisonedApple 12-04-2011 09:50 PM

Oooooooooooooooooo.. Cherry chunk? In a teddy bear shape?
*Hugs Felicia and Mark*

YodaBearInterrupted 12-04-2011 10:03 PM

*hugs everyone in here*

I feel worse than earlier *sighs*

Cake? did someone say cake?

Louise 12-04-2011 10:16 PM


Originally Posted by YodaBearInterrupted (Post 2768416)
I feel worse than earlier *sighs*

Do you know what has made you feel worse than earlier?

Me like cake :)

YodaBearInterrupted 12-04-2011 10:27 PM


Originally Posted by Louise (Post 2768423)
Do you know what has made you feel worse than earlier?

Me like cake :)

I like cake too :laugh:

My friends and family are making me feel worse... and its making me not care about whats going on with me very much

SoMuchMore 12-04-2011 11:04 PM

*hugs everyone* i'm not so sure i belong here anymore.. I hardly ever post and when i do its just throwing up some hugs for everyone. I feel bad. Sorry everyone for not being the best wardie...

Kahlia1981 12-04-2011 11:11 PM

*huggles all*

Hello once again. Sometimes the phrase FML is so true...

Laura: You are not a bad wardie. We all have times where we only post hugs occasionally. If you feel that you don't need to come in here we will miss you, (or at least I will) but we will understand. There are times when we need incredible amounts of support and other times we are ready and able to tackle life on our own. We'll always be here to support you if required though. :-)

Laura2.0 12-04-2011 11:22 PM

*hugs all*

Epona: love love love your name. Celtic horse goddess.
sorry... not in a mood to respond indiviually.

*curls up* I think I properly lost it

Cazki 13-04-2011 12:17 AM

*Hugs everyone*

Hows everyone doing?

Laura2.0 13-04-2011 01:02 AM

I think I'm losing it. I feel like I'm in a different world, as if I'm not part of this world. I'm going through day to day motions, wondering what I am doing. I look at my hands... they don't seem to belong to me. I look at my body, doesn't seem to be mine.

how are you atlantica??

PoisonedApple 13-04-2011 01:17 AM

*hugs Ian and Laura*
I know exactly what you mean Laura...

*night night hugs everyone* I'm off till tomorrow

Laura2.0 13-04-2011 01:25 AM

*hugs poison apple* at least I'm not the only one.

*hugs all good night*

misskitty112 13-04-2011 03:16 AM

I'm a bad wardie.
I'm a bad granddaughter.
I'm a bad daughter.
I'm a bad sister.
I'm a bad friend.
I'm a bad student.
I suck at life.

Mors Certa 13-04-2011 03:44 AM

I hope that you all don't mind me stepping in. Has been over a year since I posted anything on here. Getting to that feeling again, need to find someplace safe because I don't feel safe. I will quietly sit in the corner if that is alright.

ˈsäləˌterē 13-04-2011 03:49 AM

Of course we don't mind. You're welcome here any time. Sitting quietly in the corner is fine if that's what you need but feel free to talk if it would help.

Kahlia1981 13-04-2011 07:19 AM

*huggles all*

My university that has been causing me much grief due to failing me on a subject whilst I was in hospital for 6 weeks has offered me an alternative assessment and exam. They are also sending me all the materials covered in the subject to assist me with study preparations. The biggest factor I believe was my high marks throughout the study period. It's a major load off my mind.

Doikers 13-04-2011 11:00 AM

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs YodaBear*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Laura* So are a good wardie Hun , We all have had times when we pop by , it's okay , we understand the life can get in the way.

*Hugs Mute Scream Laura*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Felicia* You are none of those things! <3

*Hugs Mors Certa if okay?*

*Hugs Solo*

*Hugs Kahlia*

Billy! 13-04-2011 11:13 AM

*Hugs Mark* How are you this morning?

Doikers 13-04-2011 02:21 PM

I'm ........Flat Charlie , I've had enough of this Depression .

How're you Hun? *Hugs*

PoisonedApple 13-04-2011 05:40 PM

Felicia you are a good wardie, you just have a lot on your plate.*hugs* what happened to make you think all of those things.

Yay! Reminding them all the subtle way (filling in a spare lunch choice form for staff appreciation day) made them remember I exist! I got my official invitation this morning! It's Oscar party themed. "A black tie affair" Our invites are black and silver... I think since I am so not wearing a nice dress to work in, I'll go with the colors on the invites and wear my black and silver tie with slacks and a dress shirt. :)

Mors Certa 13-04-2011 06:35 PM

It is so difficult to find words, to put them together in an organized fashion, to get my thoughts away from the negative, have been reaching out to my doc trying to get help, my messages have gone unanswered. I don't know what to do, sinking deeper seems to be the only option, but it is not a pleasant one. Forgive the rambling, cannot seem to make much sense to myself, sure it doesn't make sense to anyone else.

Doikers 13-04-2011 07:03 PM

*Hugs Crimson* You sound like you will be smart :)

*Hugs Mors Certa* I'm struggling with depression too :(

FlyingNy 13-04-2011 07:55 PM

I didn't realise when I said I couldn't be here a few days ago that it really would be goodbye. I was in a weird mood, but I always thought I'd be back someday. Well now I am, but it's only to say goodbye. I can't stay here anymore, I've realised as much as I love you all, I am not getting enough out of being here to keep at it. I've always been independent and not relied on others and I'm afraid if I stay I will become that person who depends on others to get myself through what is bad. I am by no means recovered, but if I am ever to get there, I need to stand on my own two feet. I've been here many months now and have begun to open up and trust you guys, which is why I have to go. I am only safe if I am fighting for myself.

Oh life...I didn't know this was going to be hard. I didn't even know it was going to happen until this afternoon. I think I'm going to have to try and keep it short but that's going to be a fail because it's me and I ramble.

*Hugs Mors Certa* I know how it feels to reach out and be ignored. It's like no one cares, like you could just end it all and not a single person would even blink. But they would. I've been thinking about it, and there are people I never even talk to, say a girl from my drama class, but if she were to kill herself, I would always wonder why. If there were anything I could have done, if there were anything we all could have done. People will wonder and people will care.

*Hugs Mark* The same goes for you Mark, people would miss you and there is always something to cling on to. No matter how small. And one day you will fight through this. You'll have that family you have always wanted and you will kick the self harm. I believe in you.

*Hugs Crimson* I hope you have a good time, the party sounds awesome. And enjoy anything else that may come your way in the future, fight through what isn't so fun.

*Hugs Charlie* Well there's no need for goodbye is there? We speak every day. But I will miss talking to you here.

*Hugs Felicia* You are not a bad wardie and you need to stop saying that about yourself. We all love you and just because you can't always support everyone else, that does not make you a bad person. You are just struggling and I know better than most how badly it can hurt to put on a brave face and guide others through their struggles when you are breaking apart yourself. Don't ever put yourself down.

*Hugs Oliver* I know you're finding things hard right now, but remember those times when you were happy. Remeber that feeling, hold on to it and don't ever let anyone beat you down for being who you are. You're an amazing person and a great support, even when you are hurting so badly yourself.

*Hugs Lindsey* I know you are also struggling. You're living for your brother and there will be a time when there is so much more than that to live for. Just hang on, and keep on searching.

*Hugs Kahlia* I wish you a happy wedding and a very happy future with your partner. I'm glad the time in the hospital did you good and I hope all those FMLs look up in the near future. Have a wonderful life.

*Hugs Solo* In the short time you've been here, I've come to see you as a very kind and supportive person who deserves so much better than that man you are married to. You deserve someone who will truly care about you and love you no matter what. I hope you find that person some day because you deserve it.

*Hugs Jill* You've really made me feel loved in the time I've known you. Your surprise PMs when I am at my worst made me feel like someone cares and for that reason I should hold on, if only not to hurt the people I love. I love and care about you, hold on Jill, don't let the demons win. I remember the song I left here for you, that day months ago. (8) Nothing's going to harm you, not while I'm around....(8) and I still will be around, just PM away.

*Hugs Kelly, Laura, Laura, Julie, Matt, Ian and anyone else who may wonder into our midsts, or who may have slipped my mind*

There's a chance I may be back, if I fall down such a slippery slope I see now way out. I believe I've really made a dramatic thing out of this goodbye but I'm just like that. I hate goodbyes and tend to hinder them. Oh, and can people please remember the page number this is on and tell anyone who's not here at the moment that I said goodbye, and I want them to read thier part.

To all of you, I am just a PM away if ever I am needed. I love you guys and I know I belong here. But for now, I have to leave.

Doikers 13-04-2011 08:11 PM

*HUGE Hugs Lia* I will miss you so but try and keep up on FB maybe? You are awesome and you can do this! You really can beat it.

misskitty112 13-04-2011 08:19 PM

*Hugs Lia* I'm going to miss you like whoa. But keep in touch with me on Facebook? I agree with Mark, you can beat this <3

Billy! 13-04-2011 09:31 PM

Lia-that made me cry, and I know we still speak every day but I will miss speaking to you on here too.
*Hugs everyone*

FlyingNy 13-04-2011 09:40 PM

You guys are making me get emotional now. I'll miss you all and of course I will keep in touch <3

Billy! 13-04-2011 09:43 PM

<3 Love you Liaa :P
Might aswell do this all in one go instead of dragging it out, i'm going too. But I will write a long goodbye when my grandad goes to bed, cause I don't want him to see me cry.

Louise 13-04-2011 10:28 PM

hugs everyone

Laura2.0 13-04-2011 10:41 PM

*hugs Lia*
I don't know you, but I hope you can get better all on your own. You sound like someone who is strong enough.

Billy! 14-04-2011 12:51 AM

Okay. I think it's about time I said my goodbyes. I really don't wanna do this :(
When I 'checked in' to the ward, I was Nicole. I was scared. I was a mess, and I didn't trust anyone. I've been here over a year, and have made some absolutley amazing friends, and gotten so much support from you guys. But lately i've found that i'm finding being here hard, and I think it's doing more harm than good. That's why i'm leaving. You guys have been amazing, and have gotten me through so much, you've Sat with me when i'm upset, you've hugged me, and you've reached me in my darkest moments. I will never ever forget my time in the ward, or the people who have helped me in my time here. But I do have to leave.

I really don't have the energy to do individuals, But I want to say an extra special thankyou to Mark and Oliver.
Mark-you're amazing, you helped me so much after I lost Hayley, you've always been there to give me support and I can never thank you enough.
Oliver-Thankyou for being there when I was having issues, and helping me figure out who I really am.
Also I just want to thank Lia, although she posted her goodbyes earlier, for being completley mental. :P
Thankyou to everyone else who has been here throughout my time here,
Around a year ago, a girl called Nicole joined the ward. Tonight, a woman called Charlie is leaving. I will still be around on RYL. And I'm only a PM away if you ever need me. I love you all. <3

Mors Certa 14-04-2011 02:27 AM

One of the hard things of being in the ward is watching people leave, I have just come back and don't even know anyone here anymore. Thankfully, I will be able to sit in the corner and quietly watch for a while. Thank you for letting me be here, I definitely need someplace safe.

SoMuchMore 14-04-2011 04:38 AM

*hugs lia and charlie tight* Take care the both of you.

*hugs mark and kahlia* thanks you two. I'm not leaving, I just feel out of place and bad about not offering much support. I'm just so busy with the end of uni, work, getting ready for graduate school, etc... I don't know, i'll stop whining heh.

*waves to mors certa* hi, im laura! If you read my post above, I am sometimes not a huge poster, but I do try to at least show my face (er well.. show my keyboard maybe lol) every few days. Hope you are feeling comfortable in the ward. You can definitely stay here as long as you'd like.

*hugs the other laura (i'm laura btw :-) ), louise, crimson, solo, and everyone else*

ˈsäləˌterē 14-04-2011 04:54 AM

Thank you Laura! I really appreciate the hug! ~Hugs ya back~

Emo 14-04-2011 05:00 AM

Not in control ...the voices are ...scared what they might do

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