*hugs Mark, Laura, Charlie*

*Cuddles Oliver*

*Hugs Charlie*

*Hugs Oliver* How are you ?

i'm mixed, had a mostly waste of a day, cos the thing i went to was crap, but got to see two of my best friends, brought an ipod off one of them, so thats cool and we were talking about flats and they both want to move out and my tennancy ends in july so we talked about getting a 2 bedroom flat together (they are a couple) so thats good, but just feel really depressed, also anger is bubbling away inside of me and i feel like i'm going to explode any minute, or i need to cut. plus my mum is ringing me later to chat, and i'm not doing my quintet anymore, so need to tell her that.

sorry didnt mean to write so much

How are you?

It's cool that you got to see your Friends Oliver :) Though I'm sorry you had a wasted day otherwise .
I'm weary and flat but still here , still here.

candle i saw ^.^

Ace Heather !!! How are you?

I'm at my grandads so I can't harm myself tonight.
Thats something at least.

Thats good Charlie :)

Yeah..maybe :(

I woulden't be happy if I coulden't injure. Not that I'm happy when I can but I like the option especially when I feel crap so I know the feeling Charlie :S

Yeah, But It's better like this. At least i'm safe, even if I don't want to be...

Yep Charlie hun I Agree *Hugs*

*Night time hugs my Wardies*

*Night time hugs Mark*

*hugs charlie <3*

*Hugs Charlie Heather, Oliver and Mark*

You need to get yourself some credit Charlie :)

*hugs lia back*

Hey Heather. How are you? Sorry if you've said, I haven't caught up.

nah.
im...ok.
bit eh but whatever. will be fine.
how bouts you

*Hugs Heather* Do you want to talk about it?

I'm alright.

grrrr, i am fed up off people on fb thinking its funny to put homophobic and immature status's, these are university students who are friends with me and other LGBT people and yet they are still publically homophobic and they all think its funny, they just don't realise it hurts.

*slinks into ward and hides in a dark corner where she can't piss anyone else off*

*hugs Kelly* Whats up?

Stupid super bowl and hubby drinking. We've been fighting all night. My fault I guess I kinda woke up from my nap pissy. I just Hate when he drinks :'(

*hugs back*

*hugs Kelly* I'm sorry that your husband is drinking and you have argued. Can you go someone else to get away from it.

unfortunately not. and even if i could i wouldn't leave the kids here w/him. plus they have school tomorrow.

he's disappeared to the neighbors and now I'm stuck here getting the kids ready for bed by myself which pisses me off even more.

i hate this!

*hugs* sorry i don't have many words.

it's ok... i don't know that there are any words that would help me right now. I'm just having a low day...

it helps that u listened though :)

*hugs*

I finished my homework right at midnight. That takes skill.

anyway, I'm sorry I keep disappearing, I'll try to come back for good soon.

*hugs ward*

*snuggles close to* glad you finished :)

*Cuddles everyone*

Is anyone around?

*Hugs Charlie*
*Hugs Heather*
*Hugs Lia*
*Hugs Oliver* That sucks Oliver :(
*Hugs Kelly*
*Hugs Felicia*


How is everyone? , It took me a huge effort to get out of bed before 11am :S sorry

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Mark and Lindsay*
I was supposed to be at college 5 mins ago. I'm still at home :(
Anxietys really bad today but hopefully I can get there for 2.45 cause otherwise I won't go at all.

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you hun ?

*Hugs Charlie* I'm sorry you're anxious hun.

I'm not really sure how I am. I'm seeing someone from the crisis team at 2.30 today but I can't be bothered going.

*Hugs Mark*
It's alright. Hopefully it will get a bit better soon. I really need to start going to college -.-
*Cuddles Lindsay*

Well, i'm not going to college today. I got halfway down the road and completley freaked with all the cars going past, dived into the nearest shop, and the guy asked for my number again -.- calmed down a little bit, enough to leg it home and then got home and sat by the front door crying :(

*Hugs Charlie* I'm sorry you got so paniced :(, I'm about hun :)

*Hugs Mark* My mums home. Being all stressy cause I didn't go to college -.- surely i'm old enough to make that decision?

cuddles mark, and charlie how are you both?

*Hugs Jill* Depressed , not 100% but more than I like
Hows you hun?

*Cuddles Jill* erm. Well, i'm getting there. How are you?
*Cuddles Mark*

sorry your feeling low mark, that sucks. hugs
iam glad your feeling a bit better charlie hugs. hmm feeling very low again. want out badly.

I took a Diaz earlier and one at 3.30pm Do you guys think it's safe to drink? I feel so flat it would help , for tonight at least....:(

Oh My Days , I'm never going to beat either cutting or Alcohol , and I can't afford to drink, I may have gone overdrawn tonight because I didn't want to cut but it'll only last for tonight , But the S.I. scars............make me feel awful , and can I stop ? **** no . I'm stuck with it for good:S

hugs mark. stay safe hun.

Just trying to get numb Jill , Watching "Aliens" ( Epic Film) and drinking what I have , not a little but not a lot