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Detour. Derail 04-04-2008 10:00 PM

I tried that last time...I was sat in A&E for about 5 hours before anyone came to see me...
I mean..how ridiculous!!
I went in and told them I was SUICIDAL and they left me on my own for 5 hours!!

To be honest?...I might go back to bed...
I've had about 4 hours sleep in the past 6 days :(

~*forever_broken*~ 04-04-2008 10:01 PM

*grabs blankets, pillows, stuffed animals and the like and sets up camp for us nut cases*

I'm sorry all, I wish I had some advice or something but I'm pretty crap atm. I'm sick, I'm tired, I feel awful... I'd sure like to harm, do something, I don't know... Silly, got a call from the uni counseling center this morning... Evidently they scheduled me for a time that my therapist actually had crisis duty (so if someone walks into the center in dire straights he's the guy they'd see) so they had to change my session day and time. No big deal, right? Not my fault that's for sure, and they didn't make it sound like it was... Still it made me feel awful and crap :crying: why am I so stupid?! Intellectually I know it's no big deal, not my fault, all that jazz... But I feel so crap and it didn't help :crying: *sigh* I am so stupid...

Please take care all, luv y'all SO much...
*begs some alcohol off Emma*

Pomegranate 04-04-2008 10:09 PM

Not stupid Ally, just struggling. It ISN'T your fault, just to reiterate. Not sure we are allowed to share alcohol as pro recovery but hey ho n/m. *moves over to make space for Ally*

Sleep sounds like a great idea Alexx *hugs*

Detour. Derail 04-04-2008 10:12 PM

Ally you're not stupid!!
You're just struggling...but that's ok...
we'll help you through it ok?:]
Take care sweety...
Love you lots.

I'm...just gonna..curl up and sleep inthat corner *points*
poke me if you need me...

~*forever_broken*~ 04-04-2008 10:27 PM

Sleep... Good idea... Think I'll join y'all...

Thanks gals, luv y'all

*curls up in her corner and tries not to cry*

Katey-lou 04-04-2008 10:43 PM

hey sorry i went really quickly last night, i had to get out the house. didnt have a good night at all. thankyou for the replies though. *hugs everyone*

chocostashchick 04-04-2008 10:48 PM

·crawls into corner to bury self·
i want to come home
i am trapped in spain forever and ever
2 days left
i hate my life
and we ran out of wine
fate hates me

hugs to alyssa and alexx and emma and katey
be safe
thinking of you all

~*forever_broken*~ 04-04-2008 10:55 PM

*tackles her RYL twin in a bear hug*
Callie I miss you SO much!! I'm sorry you're stuck in Spain, sounds like you'd rather not be there...
We all miss you...

Take care sweetie

*retreats to her corner to sleep*

Snorkmaiden 04-04-2008 11:34 PM

*shuffles in*
*hugs everyone who wants a hug*
I just watched a TV movie set in a mental hospital. Thought it would be interesting, and it was for the first half, then the ending triggered me like f**k.
You guys are so lucky to be so close and always have each other to turn to. Hang in there everyone xx

Pomegranate 04-04-2008 11:46 PM

Ok seriously....can we set up a euthanasia corner or something cos I just don't know what to do. I am quiote drunk and yet I still don't have the courage to carry through my plan. Maybe I don't want to die...all I know is I damn sure don't want to live my life anymore. I just can't. :(

~*forever_broken*~ 04-04-2008 11:49 PM

*hugs Pam*
Hang in there hun. I'm sorry, I've got nothing for you atm...
*hugs again*
Take care chica

~*forever_broken*~ 04-04-2008 11:57 PM

Emma, whatever you've got planned, please don't. Go to bed sweetie, sober up, please..? I can't lose you or see you seriously hurt sweetie. Please take care.
*snuggles you*

Pomegranate 05-04-2008 12:04 AM

It wasn't a suicide threat hun, my plan is physically impossible tonight because it involves a location I am too drunk to drive too... how pathetic. I don't even want to die I just don't want to live like this and can't see anyway out. *cries* I guess i am just being self pitying, hope you are alright *hugs back* thanks hun, you have nko idea how much i could do with real life hugs x

Snorkmaiden 05-04-2008 12:15 AM

*hugs Ally*
Thanks for answering, I feel so invisible right now.
*hugs Emma*
*Clinks glasses*
I'm equally lovin and hating the effects of alcohol. Take all the time in the world to cry. You will come out the other side feeling stronger.
If theres anything I can do for anyone.....
*shares belated easter egg I'm currently scoffing*

effervescence 05-04-2008 01:01 AM

caliiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLOOOOO!!!!!! We miss you!!!!! sounds like ur not loving spain too much but maybe just chill ot for your last couple of days? rehearse all your stories youre going to tell us when you get home?

ally im sorry bout your appointment thingy, wat a pain in the arse. its not your fault hun, youre just finding life difficult, and i dont blame you!!

alexx it sounds like the hospital is useless (as usual) maybe go into a n e and start shouting at them till they take you seriously?? that is if you dont mind making a bit of a scene....

emma and katey, hope you guys are ok.

hugs for everyone.

i only got up at 12 so am feeling a bit better having slept for like 12 hrs, but i prob wont sleep tonight. im also going to make myself go for lunch, even tho im not hungry, cs i know wat it wld do to my friend if i didt eat. but still, i dont want to....i dont really deserve to.

im wearing short sleeves today. ive decided i dont care.

the counselloer has apparently had loads of old patients ring up for appointments, so she's full up, she only works tues/weds/thurs.

~*forever_broken*~ 05-04-2008 02:11 AM

Argh! I'm going nuts! Wait a minute, I already am nuts :pinch: *sigh* that revelation doesn't help much :crying:
:crying: I want to harm, a lot, deeply... fatally :crying:
I suck :crying: and suddenly I'm not sure if my next session is Monday or Tuesday... I wrote it down but now I'm worried I wrote down the wrong day :crying: how stupid is that?
Puh-the-tic *rolls eyes at self*

effervescence 05-04-2008 02:32 AM

its not stupid, i do it all the time, worrying that i wrote things down wrong, worrying i didnt lock my door, etc. ring them up and check?

~*forever_broken*~ 05-04-2008 06:54 AM

Yes, giving them a ring would be the thing to do... But I can't do that till Monday... And I feel so stupid that I can't remember.

Ugh, I am such a twit, I know what my problem is... Last Saturday I thought I'd experiment with not taking my meds for a week... A few days into it I realized that wasn't such as good idea... But I kept forgetting to take them... So here I am, a week without my meds and a complete wreak :pinch: Rather depressing to find that I can't do without them though :crying:
Damned idiot, that's what I am... I know better...

...And I can't fall asleep :pinch:... Probably my fault again...

effervescence 05-04-2008 09:05 AM

thats ok, it can wait till monday.
a week without meds and you're still here! and still talking to us. i would call that doing pretty well without them hun *hugs*

effervescence 05-04-2008 09:05 AM

alexx, how are you? you seem quiet....

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