*Hugs Laura* It is a big deal hun , I hope the summer passes fast for you :)

*hugs all*

sorry I'm not doing individuals today, but I'm really struggling today.
I keep having worst days of my life. Fvck life

*hugs everyone*
Mark, KitchenPC is a website like what you described earlier. :)

The weekend kinda blew chunks but I got my animals moved to the house... It meant I got to bed late and only got 5.5 hrs sleep but I missed my fur babies :D
Today we're meant to have a barbeque at the house... C's Idea. On the one hand that means I don't have to cook but on the other I just don't feel like dealing with people and having the BBQ means no moving will be done tomorrow either unless it is late at night again... FML

Edit~ Also this morning is a typical Monday already but I had the unique displeasure this morning of our bus being stopped for speeding and having to wait for the officer to give the driver a ticket... this was made more awkward by recognizing the officer from work... :S

So how is everyone else?

*hugs Crimson*

My T told me today that she wants me to go inpatient.

*Hugs Laura* I'm sorry hun , how do you feel?

*Hugs Crimson* Please PM me the website , I'm scattered and won't remember your post, sorry.

*hugs mark*
I'm not going inpatient. I told her that and she printed out a referral anyway. Not sure what I'm thinking about that.
Sat in the park for 2 hours. Called a friend and told her while I was crying. Then I wrote a list of reasons why I didn't take the pills and gave that to the receptionist of the T.
I came to the conclusion that I'm going to ask for another appointment after the T is returned from vacation and work on some of the answers she wants from me.

Laura, If she is still persistent on inpatient are you willing to take the meds to keep from being inpatient? If so, maybe telling her that will be a good compromise for both you and your T...?

Mark, sure thing! I'll do that now. :)

That sounds like a good idea.
I'm not refusing the meds, I just feel like I'm not ready for meds.
I couldn't even imagine to ask for an appointment 6 weeks ago. Now she wants me to take meds and go inpatient. It's just all too fast.
How are you?

EDIT: what if she notices that I'd do anything to stay out of hospital? She could manipulate me with it.

I could seriously cry right now! I've been fighting with the anchorage office off and on for YEARS! They denied my hearing loss, denied my knees, denied my mental health, refused to give my daughter her apportionment that they've been giving to her father who hasn't been raising her or even paying child support... And now that comes out...

Have you explained that you feel rushed?

*hugs Crimson*

no.
I wrote that on the list.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson* Thanks!

*hugs mark* how are you?

Hi everyone, how are we all? *hugs everyone*

I don't know what to say to you all today. I want to impart some great wisdom or other that makes everyone feel amazing, but I can't. :-(

The only tip I do have is to use this website called Moodscape. If anyone would like me to buddy them on there, please PM me for my email so I can buddy you. (It's NOT the email I have listed as my MSN).

Moodscape MJ?

www.moodscope.com

Sorry, it's scope lol. I'm thick :-( You track your mood every day and after a few days it's supposed to tell you some stuffs. I don't know to be honest, but it looks good, and I'm on Day 2.

*hugs MJ* sounds interesting.
*hugs Crimson*

Hey guys, how you doing?

my psychologist said about moodscope, is it worth using?

*hugs my loves*