Trying to avoid myself.
How're you tonight?

Meep. Dont know. dont care. *shrugs*

hmmm... dunno if thats better or worse than how i'm doing... *scratches head* though it isn't actively bad so i suppose that's a good part... *huggles*

*sigh* well its5am... i guess i'llgo lay down and try to sleep the urges and thoughts off...
*hugs everyone*

*huggles back* *sniffles*

Is anybody around? I need somebody to understand.

i'm here, can i help?

I'vehad a letter from my neurologist this morning. He wants me to have a blood test before my scan. I have a severe phobia of needles. I'm having a panic attack just thinking about it, and nobody understands. They're telling me to 'just do it' but I can't. And i don't know what to do.

telling you to 'just do it' isn't very good advice or support, and I am sorry that is the response you are getting. Try not to think on it for the moment if you can, and try to calm down, a panic attack is the last thing you want right now. *cuddles if you can accept them*

Hmm think world war 3 about to kick off today lol. It's so funny and for once I havnt started it. =)

what makes you say that? (name reminder please, and yes I do this everytime!)

Hmm names Jill. Sorry i didnt explain that very well.Everybody seams to be picking a fight with this one member of staff today. So I'm sort of staying out of the way as it looks like it's going to kick off. Would feel sorry for her if she wasn't such a bit*h.

I can't do this any more. I hope the three men succeed in killing me.

One step closer are you okay Hun? Big bear hugs if it's okay.

*Hugs Lindsay* Oh , Don't say that Lindsay, Just hang on it will get better , it will.

*hugs everyone*
this is so confusing :(

*Hugs Nicole* Whats confusing Nicole?

BPD i know what it is now and stuff, but i still dont fully understand, and my head is just rejecting it! im sat here reading up on it, all the symptoms and stuff, and one part of mes going 'omg, thats so like me, thank god im not just a freak' then another, stronger part is going 'thats not you at all, tell them to shut up, you should go self harm, thatll show them!' and im so confused! im not sure im strong enough to fight the second part. :(

Please try not to S.I. Nicole , no wonder you're confused it's enough to trigger anyone *Hugs*

*hugs mark* im trying, i just hate myself so much right now. im scared to go back in the borderline personality disorder thread because they shouted at me :( i just dont know what to do. i knew i wouldnt be able to handle 2 weeks without group, roll on wednesday :(