I have been in hospital twice before because I was suicidal, it kept me safe and lessened the thoughts but my pychiatrist didn't see it that way. My new psychiatrist is going by what my old one said. She never used to listen to me or take my opinion into account. I feel unheard and unsafe.

*hugs all*
*special hugs for Linsday*

*hugs Lindsay lots* please try to stay safe, I would miss you terribly if anything happened to you.

*hugs everyone else*

sorry I'm not upto many indiviuals, had a tough counselling session where I had to talk about my suicide plan a lot and got to go out in a minute.

I don't suppose you can get a new one that does listen and who will look at things freshly rather than going by what the other says...? Even if it were true then doesn't necessarily make it true now, people and circumstances change over time... Going off of old information and not actually listening and helping you is well.... unhelpful. The way I see it there is no reason that even with professional help you should still feel unheard and unsafe.
*cuddles*

*cuddles Oliver*
*hugs Laura*

*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Felicia * <3

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Lindsay* Could you possibly get a 2nd or 3rd opinion?

Thank you all for your support. I don't think there is any way that my psychiatrist will change his mind and I wouldn't know how to go about getting another opinion. It's ok though. Death is what I want.

*hugs everyone*

Lindsay hun Please PM me or anyone you trust, Please . *Huge squishes*

Lindsay, I second what Mark said, please PM someone you trust (my PM box is always open). I would miss you terribly if something were to happen to you. *huge hugs*

Lindsay *hugs* please talk to someone, a helpline, or go to your local A and E, please reach out, we all care about you here.

I missed my psych appt today cos I completely freaked out and had a panic attack so got to ring the office tomorrow to get another one.

Do you know why you had a panic attack, Oliver?

If I were to go to A&E they would just send me home. There is no point in reaching out to anyone.

there is a point in reaching out Lindsay *huge hugs*

I think I had a panic attack cos I got really paranoid that if I went outside the bad people would follow me so I got really scared and panicky

Lindsay, there is a point in reaching out. *hugs*

I'm sorry you had a panic attack, Oliver. Those suck. I get them semi-frequently. *hugs*

*leaves hugs*
*sits invisibly in corner*

*sees Laura and sits with, if okay*
What's going on, dear?

*hugs Felicia and Laura* how are you both?

I'm okay, just nervous and a bit down.

*hugs Felicia* any reason why your feeling nervous and down?

*hugs felicia* sorry you are feeling down. what is making you nervous?

*hugs oliver* sorry about the panic attacks. they are awful.

I feel so useless. I'm not doing anything right now and it feels horrible. I miss uni and work a lot right now. I go from being a full time student who also works 35 hours a week to nothing... nothing until September anyway... *sigh* I know i'm being really whiny. I just hate this. I'm so useless that I'm not even posting on here anymore... I just lurk and think about if I should post or not. Sorry i'm being a bad wardie.