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Jetforce 30-11-2007 01:43 PM

*gives Ileana a big hug followed by butterfly525*

Hang in there hon. Look after urself ppl...

Synthetisk 30-11-2007 03:41 PM

*cuddles Iileana*

*snuggles under planket with Roxas plushie*

Ileana 30-11-2007 08:46 PM

Thanx :) I need them cuddles...so now...fuzzy socks for everyone!

pixie*lyssie 30-11-2007 09:08 PM

*sits in corner of bedroom and rocks bac and frth sobbing*

I'm finding life so hard at the moment. I'm fighting purging! :'( feel so horrid and full and fat!

MammaMia 30-11-2007 10:32 PM

I'm feeling so rough :(

this too shall pass 30-11-2007 11:38 PM

had a couple of bad days

ive faced some very disturbed people from the wards and just need to be around "functioning" people at the mo

Ileana 01-12-2007 03:59 AM

Ugghhh I feel so ****ing sick right now.

silentgirl 02-12-2007 11:12 PM

"hides under blanket"

im at school. I want to cry or cut. I cant though, not until i get home. I feel so isolated atm. I cant think about anything else. no one understands me. Happy isnt me. Cold and depressed is. ****ing counsellors.

"hugs teddy"

l.e.g.o 03-12-2007 10:48 AM

*hugs everyone*
sorry not been able to give much support-hope you are ALL ok and remeber if you need me pm me

xyon 03-12-2007 11:18 AM

I'm going to have to check in. Too much going on and I can't cope. Don't want to write it all down again I have a thread on this forum with it all in.

*sits in an empty spot and smokes*

xyon 03-12-2007 11:19 AM

I can only check in Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays, btw. Just so nobody panics when I disappear for five days. Hugs to everyone here, looks like we've all got our crap to deal with huh?

zowie 03-12-2007 01:52 PM

I hate my body.
I'm too fat I'm too fat io'm too fat.
Everytime I feel my thighs touch each other I want to scream And I feel like crying when I think of my stomach. I spent an hour staring at myself last night in bed, why is my body so disgusting? Why am I so ****ing greedy?
I hate my scars I want to have red cuts not white scars.
I want to fix it I want to stop hating myself
I want to get rid of myself.I think I'm having a panic attaqck.

Ileana 03-12-2007 03:28 PM


MammaMia 03-12-2007 03:28 PM


I'm feeling poorly still and didn't go to college today :(

MammaMia 03-12-2007 09:01 PM

Ok...so their split is final and end of all.

20 years...all gone

*hides and cries*

xyon 04-12-2007 11:00 AM

*Hugs Dance!Dance!4eva* It'll be ok. Not exactly inspiring, I know, but it will be OK.

*hugs zowie* I wish I knew what to say.

Checking in for the day. I did it again this morning and really hate myself right now. Fighting off the urges but i'm in college so I should be safe, at least for now.

l.e.g.o 04-12-2007 11:40 AM

*hugs for all*
all i can offer at the moment sorry

zowie 04-12-2007 12:05 PM

hope your feeling better xyon x

Ileana 04-12-2007 05:49 PM

I want to starve myself to death. I want to get that high.

xyon 04-12-2007 06:31 PM

I wish I was, Zowie. Hope we all do soon.

I don't know if I can get through tonight without being here.... I can't be here, though. No internet at "home". Nothing, really, to distract me.

Please don't, Ileana. *hugs*

MammaMia 04-12-2007 09:15 PM

Reallllllllllllly **** day *sob*

talkin about threats, zara cried, people seeming to ignore me, not findoing summat to help with my work, people ignoring me, feelin all so alone, being told my tutor wanted a word, headache has returned, forced to apolgise...finding out people are talkin bout me behind my back other than the people who are allowed to do so (i.e. jane, jess & tina are allowed to talk about tme...cus I know they do).....gettin scared earlier over summat stuipd....slipped up....peorid pains...

silentgirl 05-12-2007 02:45 AM

"hugs everyone"

then runs to her bed and cries. ive slipped up and cant get it out of my mind!!!!!!!!!!!

:crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:

Jetforce 05-12-2007 07:20 AM

**hugs all**

hang in there all...try and focus on something u enjoy and hopefully that would let ur mind forget about stuff that happened the nite before or whenever

PM me if need me


lost and alone 05-12-2007 09:14 PM

god danmit i cant do this anymore just need to stay here for a while, im not safe by myself i will end up cutting myself, cant cope anymore and im heading straight for another melt down. *starts to cry while rocking back and forth.

shadow.princess 06-12-2007 01:22 AM

*hugs everyone* sorry for not being around for a while, I had to change my username for certain reasons

(pm if you want to know what it was, I dont want to be found....)

Ileana 06-12-2007 01:32 AM

*Hugs* Xyon, you ok?

Ileana 06-12-2007 01:37 AM

I really don't know what's wrong now...I just feel so sad...alone and unloved. Things are not the way they were. I don't want to be me anymore.

Pomegranate 06-12-2007 01:41 AM

*hugs everyone*

*sigh* I need to check myself in...I just want to disappear, I want to scream at my friends and make them feel this, just for a week and then see if they tell me they don't like the fact I've 'changed'. I really want to hurt myself really badly but I can't. I hate responsibility.

Ileana 06-12-2007 06:33 PM

I wish someone would like...murder me. I wish this city was more dangerous...

Jetforce 06-12-2007 06:41 PM

We'll miss u Ileana if u were gone!!!

invisiblegirl 07-12-2007 12:27 AM

*walks in and camps in the corner with a pillow*
here for the long haul i think

shadow.princess 07-12-2007 05:48 AM


its raining here, the storm is lovely its making me feel so much better, alots cleansing....

Im starting to feel really pathetic, Im having boyfriend issues and they are all being created by me, *feels stupid* that and people keep mentioning carols in the domain, which I want to go to but dont at the same time because of what happened last year.......*shuts up*

zowie 07-12-2007 01:09 PM

*screams* help

Ileana 08-12-2007 01:12 AM

My confidence kinda came back around today. I felt good about myself again...after a long while. I cleaned my room (which was super dirty) I washed my clothes and then my normal self started to come out. I shaved, showered and even plucked my eye brows after weeks of not doing so. They were getting bushy. I danced in my room while getting dressed. At last I didn't feel ugly and disgusting...then he arrives and I try to be a little seductive, you know, having had my confidence back I was being my lovely self. He plays with the cat and pushes me around in an annoying way. He's tired. We grab bite to eat and then back here, alone. So what's the ****ing point in getting my confidence back and shaving and all that **** we do to look better? I'm still here.

...and I bet he didn't even notice that last week I wore the same clothes for three days straight (I did shower though). I felt good today but it didn't bring me anything.
It doesn't matter if I wear a g-string or grandma panties. If I'm shaven or fuzzy. If my hair is dirty or clean. He won't notice.

...so I'm cheking in again and this time I want to be locked in a poorly illuminated room alone.

MammaMia 09-12-2007 12:08 AM

Make me believe everything is going to be ok?
Take me out of college for rest of this term, pleaseeeeee?

ferretmonster 09-12-2007 12:24 AM

*wonders if newbies are allowed to snuggle in*

*finds the fluffy slippers*

sopranonut 09-12-2007 01:53 AM

I can't sleep, too many thoughts and don't feel safe.
Can i rest here for a while?

Ileana 09-12-2007 02:05 AM

I scare myself sometimes.

Ileana 09-12-2007 02:06 AM

I need love. How sad and pathetic.

MammaMia 09-12-2007 02:27 AM

Not sad or pathetic.

Urgh, just shoot me or something?

Jetforce 09-12-2007 10:27 AM


someone kill me plz!

Summerr 09-12-2007 11:17 AM

* signs into psych ward*
Can I cuddle up with youuu?
me's a noob :) loving this ryl thingie

MammaMia 09-12-2007 11:40 AM

*cuddles up with Summer*

Feeling like I've made progress this morning :)

ferretmonster 09-12-2007 06:33 PM

*is feeling mucho better today so offers around duvets and hot choc to those still in need*

eeyore86 09-12-2007 06:38 PM

*checks in*
Feeling very triggered and generally miserable, keep getting told to pull myself together but just wanna scream at everyone who says that!!

Feeling crap but still available for support if anyone wants to chat


sopranonut 09-12-2007 07:39 PM

Hugs mwa. i hate it when people tell me to pull myself together, completely unhelpful. I hope you can feel a little better soon.

silentgirl 10-12-2007 05:22 AM

"runs in crying and dives under a blankie" its happening but it cant be. it just ****in cant be! :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: screw my life ****en screw it!!!!!!!!!!!

black feather 10-12-2007 09:05 AM

there still space for someone new? Need sleep and lots of hugs...*carries duvet and lots of pillows*

xyon 10-12-2007 02:51 PM

I'm... alive. Mostly.

Summerr 10-12-2007 04:35 PM

I'm alive and wishing I wasn't
I'm so scared...
ugh I dont even know what of, just feeling like I need to run somewhere , far far away. :(

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