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The Queen of Peace 06-08-2014 10:30 PM

Can I join the fort please?

I wish I could be looked after tonight. I'm scared.

Synthetisk 12-08-2014 11:46 PM

*shuffles in under a blanket*

I feel a lot less intimidated by this psych ward than a real world one. Speaking of which, I ran into my nurse from the hospital and he said I seemed to be doing better. I am, but I'm still not doing great.

Kahlia1981 14-08-2014 12:18 PM

Not doing so well right at the moment.... So stressed, depressed and suicidal that I'm flipping between crying my eyes out and working out suicide plans. I did not need this last week or two - let alone the added problems of shoulder surgery and it being six months since my last ECT treatment. Hoping that I can make it through until I start ECT here next Wednesday, and also hoping that I can cope with the stress that causes before I reach breaking point and can no longer cope at all....

*hugs those in the ward who want to be hugged or need to know someone cares and disappears into a corner with my pillow and bear*

Synthetisk 14-08-2014 04:55 PM

Kahlia - *hugs* Is there any way you can get in touch with a crisis team?

m0nk 16-08-2014 06:01 AM

problem with doctors 101: if youre on drugs(meds) you are never fresh. and to be ascertained healthy/fresh you need to have specialist therapy sessions to see how well you can manage 24/7 of daily life full of people and bunnies and cars and more bunnies and busses. and less of feeling deprived which is what the meds are doing. if you can get over the pills or meds or tranqs youre on while talking to this specialist and he declares you finally wealthy/fresh, you can then ask him/her to give recommendation to your local doctor about clearing your repositories off the list. life is an everlasting struggle but for aslong as your not drooling into a wall you should be fine. :D im practically giving out sticks here. (psychiatrist joke)

dont obsess over the pills/meds, let them do what they do. and every day you should slowly see that the spiral thing you've been thinking about for the last 6 months are only a empty dream making your shoulders weigh lighter against the world making you better each day.

hope this helps somewhat.

YodaBearInterrupted 08-09-2014 09:54 AM

*hides in the corner*

Really frustrated and unhappy right now

Kathryn_Anna 09-09-2014 11:20 PM

Sorry you are frustrated and unhappy Matt! *offers a safe hug*

I feel like running away and never looking back. Taking the hubby and kids and dog with me to some remote place and just living. We aren't living right now. We're just repeating each day over, and aging in the process.

m0nk 18-09-2014 04:20 PM

so the psychiatrist went good, he said 1 of the meds make me sick and the other i needed to cut down on and the one thats making me sick im gonna quit after a month. first i had a chat with my doctor in a session long ago - he said your meds look fine (i felt like i was gonna puke on him and the floor) then i sat down with the psychiatrist on monday this week and talked a good hour about what i thought should be done since im feeling this and that. so after a while he looked in the book for 10 seconds and said "aha so thats the medicine youve been feeling sick by" and i was like yes, really? so he gave his opinion since he was the first one i talked to there when i got comitted and he was the only one that could reorganize my meds. it ended in reduction of 5 mg zyprexa and in a month i would quit the akineton. all in all i just said that i wanted my concentration back so i could study better for my drivers licence - currently at the theory with the MOT-. and i cant remember most of my days since its such a high dosage, on the peak i had 30mg without any visible or non visible side effects from beeing sick at all. hope the ward is doing best for all of you. *makes snow fort* *makes free snowballs* *makes snow castle* looking forward to winter again, the air is so fresh then :)

YodaBearInterrupted 24-09-2014 06:40 AM

Bad night :(

*puts some goodies on the table*

I am going to sit in the corner and try not to cry

Leilowe 27-09-2014 04:29 PM

Can I hide out here for a bit? Feeling very alone and unsafe at the minute.

Kathryn_Anna 28-09-2014 01:02 AM

*offers everyone an Olaf because he's safe and likes warm hugs*

I just want to hide and be by myself. I don't want to see friends or go out or have to walk my son to school.

*grabs her sweater, a blanket and curls up in the corner*

DyingToBeFree 14-10-2014 05:31 AM

Got room for 1 more?

YodaBearInterrupted 14-10-2014 10:36 AM

Tonight is a bad night... really struggling right now...

*sits in the corner with a blanket*

Kahlia1981 14-10-2014 03:05 PM

Need a safe place to curl up with my bear and cry. Just going to disappear into my blanket fort until the world changes or stops.

thegirlwiththemask 18-10-2014 07:22 AM

This is where I need to be right now. Just going to find a nice corner to curl up in.

thegirlwiththemask 18-10-2014 06:59 PM

Even here I don't feel safe. Guess thats how it's always going to be.

just_different 19-10-2014 08:49 PM

need somewhere to feel safe... tried going on chat which seemed to make it worse! struggling lots at the moment and feeling very lost and alone, hope I am more welcome here? :(

Eir 22-10-2014 01:07 PM

I'll join the hiding people. Is chat really that bad? I'll give you a virtual hug if you want Just_different.
It's been so long since I've visited, but I'll try and make you feel welcome. I'm anna

YodaBearInterrupted 24-10-2014 09:46 AM

Very unsafe and suicidal right now... so I am going to hide in here till things get better.... hopefully that is very soon

*puts some snacks/goodies on the table*

caiden 24-10-2014 03:06 PM

Not doing so great rright now. Been about 3-4 yrs or so since I was last on here...really not feeling like I can do this anymore.

Kahlia1981 03-11-2014 01:06 PM

I need a safe place right now. So dangerous and can't talk to anyone IRL. Have to keep things from everyone so that the people trying to kill and control me don't find out. She says the meds are poisoned, that the people and government are using them to control me. Need safe place to hide so cannot be found

Kathryn_Anna 17-11-2014 11:38 PM

I want to crawl into a fort and just hide away. I'm far too overwhelmed to deal with the real world right now. I want hot cocoa with lots of marshmallows and my little stuffed doggie Stitcher and my favorite blanket. Being a parent is too tough right now.

YodaBearInterrupted 02-12-2014 03:22 AM

*hides in the corner of the room and stares at the wall*

RAWWR 02-12-2014 06:01 PM

*sneaks in and curls up in a corner* hey guys, for those of you that don't know me, I'm Charlie. I used to spend a lot of time in here a few years back but I can see most of my old wardies aren't around so much anymore...

Kathryn_Anna 04-12-2014 02:42 PM

Hey Charlie :)

*curls up on the floor and takes slow deep breaths trying to calm down*

YodaBearInterrupted 07-12-2014 10:58 PM

Hi Charlie *hugs if okay*

This afternon has just gone downhill very fast... and I am scared for tonight

RAWWR 08-12-2014 02:18 AM

Urmm..no hugs yet please :) *shakes hand* sorry you seem to be having a hard time. I hope things pick up for you both.
*curls up in a corner with teddies*

summer87 08-12-2014 10:08 AM

*peeks in, then cautiously tiptoes to a corner with a bean bag, duvet, and teddy*

I'm just going to hide away here and have a little cry if no one minds.....

Kathryn_Anna 10-12-2014 11:59 PM

I'm tired of being an adult! Can I just watch Disney movies or Christmas movies and color instead?

m0nk 11-12-2014 04:34 PM

medicine more medicine, angry home nursing care, ignorant people working around me misinterpret stuff that we never said. but christmas is good.

happy christmas everyone and i wish that angels will leave a snowflake on each of your pillows :)

Katie Smith 13-12-2014 12:20 AM

I am not really a veteran. Been on here a year. But I need somewhere safe. I can't be brave anymore. My parents make me feel trapped and hopeless. Need hugs.

Staticx_xSilence 13-12-2014 11:43 AM

*crawls in quietly and hides under blanket* I am just going to hide here until my depression magically disappears and I can be somewhat okay again. I highly doubt that will happen considering this time my depression has been getting quite bad and I am on my sixth month of misery. I am going crazy I mean my depression never goes away completely (and while hard I have managed to deal with it for the last 12 years) but this time it is at it's absolute worse and I am hopelessly stuck in it and there isn't any way out.

Kahlia1981 16-12-2014 12:04 PM

I'm back again after yet another hospital trip and all I want to do is curl up in a corner and cry. After an event in hospital I've started having flashbacks from before my first ever ECT sessions. Losing those memories is part of the reason I'm still alive. Right now I don't know if I can cope with this or even if this is just the world telling me my time has come. It's getting harder each day to get through and I'm not sure whether it's worth fighting or even possible. For now I'm just going to hide in a corner with my pillow, blankets and bears....

Sisu 17-12-2014 10:43 PM

*curls up in corner with some books and a warm blanket*
Life is bad sometimes, I just wanna get away for a little.

Kahlia1981 19-12-2014 10:46 AM

*curls up in a corner crying and cuddling my bear*

My GP accidentally triggerred me into a severely suicidal situation where I've been planning out my next suicide attempt and ensuring that my husband will not be the person to find me, that noone will find me until it's way to late for me to be recovered and that the plan will work perfectly. Am I doing the wrong thing? Does it even matter? What am I supposed to do to stop the flashbacks, the overwhelming depression and the almost constant and frequent triggering..... Especially when I'm not able to take medications to help me cope... Maybe I just need to accept that my time is coming and I need to b e prepared for it when it does. Or I can just keep hiding in a pillow fort for the remainder of my life....


Kathryn_Anna 21-12-2014 05:33 PM

I'm so over having kids right now. I can't handle all the meltdowns. I just want to craw into my son's fort and never come out. Just let me curl up with a blanket and pillow and I'll be alright. Maybe.

Kahlia1981 23-12-2014 01:54 PM

*disappears iinto a corner to cry*

It's time to listen to the song lyrics and just "let it go".....

YodaBearInterrupted 27-12-2014 08:47 AM

I guess I will stay here for a lil while... very suicidal and trying to stay safe but its mot working very well :(

anarchistl0ve 30-12-2014 09:49 AM

-Finds her little curling up space and her teddybear- don't wanna....

Kathryn_Anna 02-01-2015 06:05 PM

How are you doing today Matt?

Kahlia1981 13-01-2015 01:10 PM

Can I disappear from this world for a while? I can't handle daily life and right at the moment I can barely manage to stay alive for a day. My brain, the flashbacks and the hallucinations are encouraging me to just give up and give in but I don't want to hurt those that I love.

So torn right now so I'm going to hide away from the world in a pillow fort with my teddy bear.....

anarchistl0ve 14-01-2015 01:37 AM

Im in rough bout gang, I feel worthless, not important unloved, i been trying to draw but yeah

Shattered_N_Scared 14-01-2015 04:55 PM

*quietly creeps back into her corner*

Its been a while ward, but life has just beaten me down and now I feel like I need to be back here.

KneeSocks 14-01-2015 06:15 PM

*gives Shattered N Scared a blanket and some hot tea*

Shattered_N_Scared 14-01-2015 09:10 PM

Thanks KneeSocks, I needed that =)

I have some chips to share.

KneeSocks 15-01-2015 07:44 PM

Anytime! Ohhh yay chips *takes one* thank you!

loew89 16-01-2015 05:53 AM

never been in this ward hope its different than my last
*sits in the corner alone*

caiden 18-01-2015 06:26 PM

checking in for an extended stay once again

*curls up in the corner with a pillow, blankie, and teddy bear*

hugs are always needed and very welcomed...pm me if anyone needs any in return...im a great hugger in return as well! *hugs to all who need them*

Shattered_N_Scared 19-01-2015 05:11 PM

*hugs caiden* Welcome back, did you find a warm corner?

Eir 21-01-2015 12:45 PM

*hugs for everyone, especially caiden *
Feeling on the verge. Not quite bad enough yet.
Keep wondering why I come back... It's not like I know anyone.
I've missed ryl. And everything.
It's all a bit stirred up. I'm triggered, I wanna but I can't.
I think all my protective factors have turned into triggers.
Eh... Ain't good. But never mind.

If this was a real ward I'd be trying to hide or trying to look after someone.

*looks hopefully for a volunteer*

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