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risenfromperdition 21-06-2012 10:01 PM

*sits in corner*

midnightphoenix 21-06-2012 10:02 PM

*hugs everyone*

YodaBearInterrupted 21-06-2012 11:20 PM

*hugs all*

*leaves some brownies and cookies on the table*

Today has just went south quickly. I wrote in my journal to see if it would help - its become a 8 page fight over who should control my mind, me or the Voices/Dark Lord. Dunno who is really winning the fight right now... but the urge to SH is becoming stronger as I write. It seems like the writing for my mind will continue till something winds

Doikers 22-06-2012 11:44 AM

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Gemma*

*Hugs Dylan*

How are all my wardies today?

midnightphoenix 22-06-2012 11:51 AM

I'm wanting to escape from myself atm, feel like packing a bag and running off .............. I emailed samaritans yesterday but they haven't responded ............... have hardly eaten anything today and it's lunchtime .............

Gem-Louise 22-06-2012 12:11 PM

seriously thinking about really huritng myself i cant take it anymore im just fed up of evrything

Doikers 22-06-2012 12:31 PM

Dylan , Perhaps you should wait for the Sams to reply? It can take a while but they get back to you *Hugs*

*Hugs Gemma* I know that feeling :( Is that you in your avatar pic or Amy Macdonald?

midnightphoenix 22-06-2012 01:08 PM


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 3269585)
Dylan , Perhaps you should wait for the Sams to reply? It can take a while but they get back to you *Hugs*

*Hugs Gemma* I know that feeling :( Is that you in your avatar pic or Amy Macdonald?

They have and they want to know my name .........

Laura2.0 22-06-2012 01:49 PM

*hugs all* not much to say right now.

Louise 22-06-2012 02:18 PM

hugs everyone

Doikers 22-06-2012 02:22 PM

*Hugs Dylan* You are under no obligation to tell them your name , they use Jo, you can use whatever you want too , Max , Kim , Sanday are all names that man/woman.

*Hugs Louise* How are you?

*Hugs Laura* How you?

Laura2.0 22-06-2012 02:29 PM

better than yesterday. how are you?

Gem-Louise 22-06-2012 03:18 PM

Doikers its me in the avatar

Doikers 22-06-2012 04:13 PM

I'm pretty flat Laura , It's good you are feeling better hun *Hugs*

*Hugs Gemma* Well you bear a strikeing resemmbelence to Amy Macdonald . Pretty :)

Louise 22-06-2012 04:25 PM

I could be better - trying to keep distracted.

Laura2.0 22-06-2012 04:37 PM

*hugs Gemma*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Louise*

ljmeep 22-06-2012 09:57 PM

*hugs all*

I know it's been a long time... things are crazy! My soon to be x-husband is in the process of moving out. In the course of the past month I have had to close out the checking account, change over all my assistance so that he's not on it, and look at moving into a smaller place (still looking). I've had to deal with his new girl friend coming before the kids and me and his drama with the DWI he got when he totaled the van. I'm exhausted! I can't sleep, food has lost all appeal and I feel like I'm barely holding it together at all. I haven't cut since all this happened and I'm honestly not sure how I've avoided it... my heart aches so bad.

Laura2.0 22-06-2012 09:59 PM

*hugs lj* sorry I forgot your real name.

I'm off to bed now. Good night all.

ljmeep 22-06-2012 10:03 PM

it's kelly.. and thanks... good night :)

ljmeep 22-06-2012 10:04 PM

it's kelly... and thanks... good night :)

nomophobia 22-06-2012 10:45 PM

*gives everyone extra long goodbye hugs*
I'm moving out tomorrow so won't have internet for a while which sucks. Just hoping I cope when I'm totally alone :s It sure will be a test! Take care guys :)

Huayruro 22-06-2012 11:07 PM

Trying to find the right words to write a letter to my dad about what's been going on. We'll see where it brings me, but I'm doing pretty well overall

Doikers 23-06-2012 01:22 PM

*Glomps Kelly Hard*I'm sorry things are so tough for you , you've done really well avoiding S.I.

*Hugs Georgia* Good Luck

Hi Huayruro *waves* I'm Mark :)

Gem-Louise 23-06-2012 05:38 PM

urgh i hate not feeling safe around myself or others

risenfromperdition 23-06-2012 05:42 PM

^sucks hmm?

Doikers 23-06-2012 05:58 PM

*Hugs Gemma*

*Hugs Heather*

Huayruro 23-06-2012 06:12 PM


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 3270533)
Hi Huayruro *waves* I'm Mark :)

Hello! Nice to meet you :>

So, I passed my license test today and I got a 780 on my chem SAT II exam. So, outwardly things are pretty good. It's not like I'm all cracked up on the inside or anything, but it just makes things a little tricky to tell people about. It is nice to be able to just talk on the site, though. I appreciate everyone here greatly :>

I'll likely (hopefully) be able to piece things together soon. We'll see how it goes, eh?

midnightphoenix 23-06-2012 06:54 PM

(((hugs everyone)))

Doikers 23-06-2012 07:08 PM

*Hugs Dylan*

ljmeep 23-06-2012 09:27 PM

Thanks, Mark. Today's been really hard compared to most because I started packing up all of his stuff and some of mine in preparation to move. I didn't expect to feel as sad as I did... I guess I've been holding on to the anger so much over the past few weeks I haven't really let myself feel the hurt in all this.

I hope everyone is doing well today... *hugs*

Gem-Louise 23-06-2012 10:40 PM

slipped up :( selfharmed cant even go a day without doing it grrrr im so mad at myself right now

ljmeep 24-06-2012 01:47 AM

don't be too hard on yourself... we all slip up at some point or another and I know from experience how hard it can be to go even a day without SI when your really in a bad place...

Doikers 24-06-2012 11:28 AM

*Hugs Gemma* I'm sorry you injured but keep fighting , you can get though this.

*Hugs Kelly*

Laura2.0 24-06-2012 06:34 PM

*Hugs Kelly* sorry I forgot your name... I've never been good at remembering names. To be honest... I always look at Marks posts so I get the names right. lol

*Hugs Georgia*

*Hugs Huayruro* I'm Laura

*Hugs Gemma*
*Hugs Heather*
*Hugs Mark*

Doikers 24-06-2012 08:36 PM

*Provides Names for Laura*

Laura2.0 24-06-2012 10:43 PM

*glomps mark* thanks

I'm off to bed now. Good night.

m0nk 26-06-2012 12:36 AM

i can't even listen to music withouth seeing things. stuff from outside this world. and the visions just keep coming. strangest hings. and the feelings in the visions tell me that there are good things out there. but that just makes me want to go more. like i need to restrain myself. but i cant cause then they'l see me. idk who cause i dont know theyre names. i just see them as arch saints. like air to us is like space to them. just a step away.if the moonwalker ppl ppls' took off their helmets or suits and survived we would be a 3rd generation civilisation. but they didnt. so we're stuck in dreams. forever and ever and ever and ever til someone makes a silent suggestion to you about whether or not you should do what it says. strangest thing. but you think it's yourself - what is the mirror for. break it + count the pieces = math = done.

YodaBearInterrupted 26-06-2012 04:31 AM

Under so much emotional duress and distress right now and people keep adding to it... I can't do anything about it to stop it from increasing... I can't hold on much longer without doing something to mke it all go away... make it go away somewhere... make it all go away...

Doikers 26-06-2012 10:49 AM

*Hugs Monk* Are you okay?

*Hugs Matt* I'm sorry you're under do much pain mate , things will get better , they have too , for us all.

ljmeep 26-06-2012 01:22 PM

hey all... just checking in again.

Had a really rough night, but thankfully my sis-in-law had me and the kids stay with her so I wasn't alone. My soon to be x-husband came by yesterday to pick up some of his stuff and his bad attitude really got to me. What's worse was dealing with how crushed the kids were after he left. My 2 year old daughter cried for 20 minutes! Didn't help that at the time I felt like bursting into tears myself.

Anyway... Hope everyone is doing well ... I'll try to check in again soon.

happiness...its all a lie 26-06-2012 02:49 PM

can i come hide in here please?

Doikers 26-06-2012 03:08 PM

*Huggles Kelly* I am sorry you are such a horrid time hun.

*Pats Cushion* Here Faye , sit by me :)

happiness...its all a lie 26-06-2012 03:09 PM

thank you *sits down* im a bit shakey today. How are you?

Doikers 26-06-2012 04:26 PM

Not great tbh but willing to listen :)

happiness...its all a lie 26-06-2012 04:42 PM

Whats up? im just having an off day but im sure it will pass and tomorrow is a new day afterall.

Doikers 26-06-2012 05:20 PM

Been getting progressivly lower for about 4 weeks moodwise :/

YodaBearInterrupted 26-06-2012 05:23 PM

*hugs everyone and puts some goodies on the table*

Make it stop... make it stop and go away *rocks in the corner*

happiness...its all a lie 26-06-2012 05:48 PM

Oh no *hugs* whats happened to make your mood worse? could you speak to your dr?

yodabear- hope your ok hun x

YodaBearInterrupted 26-06-2012 05:53 PM

*hugs Happiness*

Not really... under a lot of emotional and mental duress, and people keep dding more to it and it won't stop. The Voices are gtting a hold of it and its getting worse. Writing isn't helping as much as I thought it would so I am out of tha option

Doikers 26-06-2012 06:19 PM

Matt can you put loud music on your stereo or headphones? *HUGE Hugs*

Faye , my Dr is on Leave........

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