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ljmeep 08-05-2012 12:15 AM

well turns out the ankle wasn't broken just really badly sprained... I'm back to light activity now, but I have to limit it because it's still swelling on me when I do too much.

I really hope everyone is doing ok. I never seem to have the time to read through all the posts like I would like... I can't wait to get all this money crap in order so that I can catch up on bills and get home internet service. I hate feeling so out of touch with the world.

YodaBearInterrupted 08-05-2012 04:55 AM

tinkles -- I admit the AP's help, i guess. I have been on Invega and Risperdal, but they make everything so slow. I had to take Risperdal at night cause it would knock me out -- literally -- as I would fall asleep within an hour of taking them pretty much. After a while of fighting the psych (figuratively lol) I got off Risperdal. Things seemed better... then they got worse and I got put on Invega. That made things even worse -- it took me a while to complete sentences, and i felt terrible when staff would ask me things at the school i work at and i would be very slow in responding and i felt a bit like a zombie just trying to get through the workday. I told the psych and he said we could try a new thing or alter the dosage (he started me on 3mg), but i refused and just stopped taking the meds. He didn't like that, be he basically sighed because i became quite adamant against taking another AP.

I nearly was inv hospitalized while a freshman in college, but skated by cause i didnt reach the "imminent threat" level, which was Virginia's law at the time. Now, its been changed to "substantial likelihood". When i was a senior in college (i am 25 now and have graduated), i was told i should do two weeks of day hospitalization because the psych team was worried with how i was doing. When my parents were informed, they threw up roadblocks and literally pummeled me about how it was terrible and how bad it was, how no one would see me and the such so I didn't go.

Now here we are again... sigh

Doikers 08-05-2012 09:33 AM

*Huggles Matt*

How are my wardies today?

Fire Fly 08-05-2012 01:34 PM

*hugs Matt*
Why is it that you dont want to try a different type of AP? You just need to find the right one. The ones that you have tried obviously weren't the right ones or your so doped up if you were feeling zombiedfied.

Could going to day hospital help? They will be able to monitor you and help find the right medication for you? You will still be able to go home in the evening so your not going to be alone! and if your only spending the day there then your most likly going to be occupied with group/individual theraphy and doing specific things so you might not have time for visitors there anyway...


Laura2.0 08-05-2012 05:37 PM

*hugs Matt*
*hugs tinkles*
*hugs Georgia*
*hugs LJ*
*hugs Mark*

how are you all?

I'm acutally kind of good today. I created a version of Tiramisu with Raspberries and Coconut, the whole family likes it!

Fire Fly 08-05-2012 06:25 PM

*hugs Laura* that's fantastic that you are feeling better today. That tiramasu sounds scrumptious.

I got a meeting with my care coordinator tomorrow as last week they said if my suicidal phase doesn't pass then they will want me to go inpatient or have the crisis team to come to my house everyday. So now I'm really nervous and I can't even fake that I'm alright as I have become weak and bleurgh.

Now my anxiety is sky rocket and I'm soooo scared :(. What do I do to get out of it. Do u think they will ask again?
*so scared*

Emo 08-05-2012 06:39 PM

* waves to everyone *
How is everyone doing ?
My husband just left half an hour a go to go to the airport to get a plane to London he will be gone for 3 days unsure what to really do with myself for 3 days without him

Laura2.0 08-05-2012 07:11 PM

*hugs tinkles* Try to be honest and to cooperate. If you don't want to go ip and you don't want the crisis team to look after you every day, maybe you can try to make a deal? Like... the crisis team can come every other day and call you the rest of the time or something else. I think that if you offer them a compromise you wont have to go ip. (Not sure though, cause I'm in a different country and dunno how things are handled over there)

*hugs Anamee* I would call some friends and go out to see a movie with them, but that's just me.

YodaBearInterrupted 08-05-2012 07:23 PM

*hugs Laura* -- thats great you are feeling better and that sounds really tasty and delicious!
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Anamee* -- I agree with what Laura said as well
*hugs tinkles*

Fire Fly 08-05-2012 07:40 PM

*hugs Laura* thanks for your reply- I'm just going to be honest I guess. I've come to realise I need help. I'm hoping they will sort my medication out :(. But imm so scared. I used to spend nearly 9 years in that hospital being with my mum before she died so I'm scared to return to the hospital although it's a different ward.

*hugs Yoda*
*hugs Anamee* - if you don't fancy going out can you call your friends to the house and snuggle up to a good movie. Or even call a friend or Skype them so it doesn't feel your alone.


Emo 08-05-2012 07:50 PM

I dont have any friends am pretty much alone ...
Am kinda scared at the moment ...wish someone was here with me :(

YodaBearInterrupted 08-05-2012 08:37 PM

*hugs Aamanee*

I had terrible nightmares about being on the ward... even though I have never been on one, it seemed so realistic and real :(

I am holding on, but barely. Trying to resist, but it usually costs me something.

Laura2.0 08-05-2012 08:39 PM

*hugs Matt* I used to get those before I went IP, but once I was there it all turned out a lot less scary than it was in my dreams.
*hugs tinkles* I understand you being scared of the hospital because of your past. If it is too difficult to talk for you, then maybe you could write down all the important things and hand it to your Care Coordinator in case you can't talk?
*hugs Anamee*

nomophobia 08-05-2012 09:44 PM

*comes and gets into a bed..and stays there for 2 days*

Fire Fly 09-05-2012 12:36 AM

*Hugs Laura* - I will try to write it down on a piece of paper and hopefully it will be okay. I jsut want it to be over now.

Whats up Matt? keep holding on, you have the strength to get through this.

*sits with Aamanee* How are you feeling now? How did the night go?

*nurses Georgia* Are you okay? x

Emo 09-05-2012 09:52 AM

i didnt get any sleep at all av been awake for 24 hours once its 10 am
i miss my husband

Doikers 09-05-2012 10:41 AM

*Huggles You all* sorry I don't have words atm.

Fire Fly 09-05-2012 11:39 AM

Aamanee - do you have any sleeping pills that you could take and get a bit of shut eye? Your going to get all panicky and agitated if you dont sleep even a little bit as your body is going to go into overdrive. Glad your husband got there safely.

*hugs and sits next to mark* Mark - I know your going through a hard time but they have caught it early which is a good sign they should be able to treat it. keep strong x

Emo 09-05-2012 12:45 PM

No i dont have any sleeping pills tried to sleep again just layed there
only thing i do have is Valium but that dont help me sleep

nomophobia 09-05-2012 02:02 PM

No not really

*hugs all*

YodaBearInterrupted 09-05-2012 04:55 PM

*hugs Georgia*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Aamanee*
*hugs tinkles*
*hugs Laura*

Had another nightmare, I hate being able to rmember by dreams or nightmares. Its quite painful sometimes. I gave in a lil last night, I'm sorry. It was just too much. But only a lil break to stem the tide of how bad it was getting. I, um, did call my old psych and he said he would try to see me today or tomorrow cause he has an open time period in the afternoon and he told me it was good I was reaching out... and after I got off the phone I immediately felt worse than before :(

Louise 09-05-2012 04:59 PM

hugs everyone

Laura2.0 09-05-2012 08:02 PM

*hugs all*

sorry, too tired to read through all posts right now.

Doikers 10-05-2012 11:23 AM

*Huggles Matt*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs all my wardies*

Sorry I don't have more than hugs to offer atm.

YodaBearInterrupted 10-05-2012 04:09 PM

*hugs Mark* hope all is okay

one_step_closer 10-05-2012 04:21 PM

Hey everyone, *hugs*

Laura2.0 10-05-2012 09:42 PM

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Matt*
*hugs Louise*

I'm really tired right now, so off to get some sleep.

one_step_closer 10-05-2012 10:25 PM

Hope you sleep well, Laura.

Doikers 11-05-2012 11:20 AM

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

one_step_closer 11-05-2012 01:54 PM

How are you today, Mark?

happiness...its all a lie 11-05-2012 04:31 PM

*plonks down on floor*

one_step_closer 11-05-2012 05:05 PM

How are you?

happiness...its all a lie 11-05-2012 05:10 PM

im a bit annoyed at myself cause i said i'd do something but i didnt so grr but generally a lot calmer

How are you?

one_step_closer 11-05-2012 05:51 PM

I can understand what you mean about being annoyed with yourself for not doing something, I also feel a bit like that right now. I'm here if you want to talk about it or anything else.

happiness...its all a lie 11-05-2012 06:43 PM

Thanks its just i was meant to go to the doctors with my bf and get my medication upped but it didnt happen and im scared to go on my own :/. Im here if you want to talk?

one_step_closer 11-05-2012 08:45 PM

Are you able to go another day or have a telephone consultation with your doctor instead?

happiness...its all a lie 11-05-2012 08:47 PM

Im going to try and ring on monday as they are shut over the weekend but ill see how i feel then

How are you?

one_step_closer 11-05-2012 08:58 PM

I hope you feel better soon.

I feel kind of low. I don't know how to make things better for myself and I hate being trapped in this 'life.'

YodaBearInterrupted 12-05-2012 07:07 AM

*hugs all*

I feel... annoyed? I met briefly with my old psych who was all like "I'm glad you called" and "It must have been really hard for you" -- as if i needed to be coddled and congratulated for doing something i didn't want to do really. Anyway, i told him what had been going on, minus a few things i should have said but didn't cause i was too scared to. He just looked at me and told me I needed to go back on AP meds cause i was losing myself again. He's right... but I hate that he is... if that makes any sense?

happiness...its all a lie 12-05-2012 09:07 AM

the feeling of being trapped is horrible, maybe write out things you would like to do or like to achieve and research ways of doing it? Hope your feeling better today.

Do you hate the fact hes right or the fact you feel you need to go back on APs? It is annoying i was so down about going back on anti depressants but now im on them and feel more normal again its better because i know in the long run it makes things better. Im sorry he was patronizing towards you for calling etc i suppose its his way of being encouraging/supportive. Do you want to talk about what you didnt tell him in here?

Doikers 12-05-2012 12:17 PM

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Happiness*

I Feel Flat , sorry for lack of individuals.

happiness...its all a lie 12-05-2012 01:16 PM



whats making you feel flat?

one_step_closer 12-05-2012 08:00 PM

Hey everyone *leaves positive vibes for all*

happiness...its all a lie 12-05-2012 09:20 PM

hello people

*leaves hugs*

stupid feeling ill grr

one_step_closer 12-05-2012 11:21 PM

*sends a wellness cloud to happiness*

happiness...its all a lie 13-05-2012 08:44 AM

thanks, feel better after a good shower and sleep.

Doikers 13-05-2012 12:15 PM

I Don't know why I'm feeling Flat , Daunted by the thought of getting out of bed even... :/

*Hugs Happiness*

*Hugs Lindsay*

one_step_closer 13-05-2012 03:22 PM

I know how that feels, Mark. Are you feeling any better today?

Doikers 13-05-2012 06:26 PM

Not sure Lindsay . If that even makes sense? *Hugs*

happiness...its all a lie 13-05-2012 06:37 PM


sorry you guys arent feeling so good *hugs*

im really triggered so gonna hide in here for a while

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