I'm feeling really bad right now. My youngest niece had her third birthday yesterday and her party was today. My parental units don't quite get the concept that I don't cope well with social situations. Too many people scare me and I shut down. I took my RYL sister along with me, but she has similar issues in that department. We only lasted about 10 minutes before bailing. It makes me feel like crap. Especially since .... no never mind. It doesn't matter anyway.

I hope you all are doing okay.

*leaves cuddles for everyone*

Thanks Amanda *hugs back*. x

Sorry haven't been around much over the past few days guys. I'll be around more soon enough, I hope.
*leaves hugs for everyone*

Kahlia its ok parents are hard to deal with I have that issue as you know. Being in contact with my dads family is scary for me am afriad they will leave me if they find out what goes on in my head, even though I love them so much.

"leaves hugs and a warm and cool drinks for everyone"

i am sorry you are feeling bad, i am not very good in amoungst a lot of people eaither i take a lot of panic attacks. you say especially since what...it does matter if there is something bother you, you might feel better once it is out. i am sorry your parents don't get the concept of you not like being in social situations, my mum just laughs at me and tells me to get on with it.

leaves hugs for everyone.

just checking in

*hugs and blankets for all* (it is well below freezing here)

x

it's cold here as well, i might just takes the blanket thanks

how is everyone?

Kahlia. I was on Aripiprazole which did nothing for me, Olanzapine PRN which made me gain loads of weight and am now on Risperidone (was on 6mg and am now on 3).
It would be so much better if it is true that they use PDs as a catch all. I am just so worried that they think I'm lying, and that really upsets me.



I'm feeling really ****. Am about to make a post about it if anyone cares xxxx

Hmmmm ariprprazole did nothing for me either and I most definitely cannot take risperidone. I'm quite lucky in the sense that I'm still losing weight even though I'm on olanzapine. My biggest concern with it is that it will give me tardive dyskenisea (excuse the bad spelling). I put on a lot of weight due to the risperidone and several other AP medications so I know where you are coming from. It's kind of hard for me to deal with it because I was underweight when I started certain medications and went from a size 8 to a size 18 pretty much overnight.
*hugs zowie* The hospital here was trying to label me BPD which is their catch all but 3 separate private psychiatrists categorised me as schizoaffective bipolar type. I hope that they don't think you are lying. I don't think you are lying .... if that helps in any way. Sometimes Doctors get way too much of a God complex and start trying to tell you what you think and feel.

*hugs everyone and leaves blankets for those in cold place, and fans for those in the warm places (like here in the wonderful (cough, cough) tropics)*

Hey.
Pomegranit thanks for the hug but please not anothing one.
How are you doing helen?

Yesterday was a long waste of time...although i did realise how useless i am.

You are NOT useless Marc!!!!

I'm not doing too great, but trying to be ok. x

*cuddles Helen*

I'm here and I'm alive. What more does anyone want? Oh, I'm also sweltering my way through a warm day. Last night I actually had my first sleep since moving in here and awoke with a pain in my spine. This is quite normal for me when I'm sleeping on a bed that I'm not used to. However, I got some pretty strong pain killers and took one. They've knocked the pain for six which is quite pleasant.

I also had some trouble with auditory hallucinations earlier and have taken my last PRN tablet. I'm going to ask my pdoc for a script with no repeats and an allowance of up to two a day. Hopefully he says it's okay.

*wakes around the room giving hugs to those who want and/or need them, then steals away into a corner with her textbook*

*Cuddles everyone*

I wish I could just stop eating for once.

*cuddles zowie* : I know what you mean. I'm having that kind of issue as well, and so is my RYL sister. I hope you manage to get through it.

Hope everyone is doing okay ... at least managing to get by.

*hugs everyone who wants/needs/can accept hugs*

*cuddles everyone*

Having another bad day. Been having panic attacks ever since before I went to bed at like 4.30am and since I've woken up. As a result I've got a bad headache & my chest is hurting and my breathing keeps ****ing up. Am trying to get through a minute/5 minutes at a time today. Because I just need to TRY to cope.

Have decided on a few things that I'm going to do todayl, some of it relating to uni.

Helen : Whoa I hate panic attacks, especially when they just seem to never stop. I hope that you are recovering from them okay. I am glad that you have managed to decide on a bit of a plan for the day. *big hugs*

*big hugs*

I hate them. Haven't had them for a while and then I had one crop up the other week. But seriously, this is bad =\

At home again today, feeling low, car has broken down so I can't even go for a drive to a pretty place.

Nervous about going to work tomorrow - have to have a 'back to work' meeting - I hate them, everyone pretends they want to help but you are at work - you are there to work - not to be looked after :(

Helen : I hope they start to improve. *holds you tight*

Mary Anne : Both mouse in darkness and myself understand where you are coming from. "Return to work" meetings can be painful. We hope that things go well for you though.