*hugs emma*
*returns hugs with Ally*
This solar powered sunflower went to bed around midnight. And got up at the usual 6am. If I can stay awake, I'll make up the sailboat stuff I cut out last night, then work on my sun shirt. I'm using ome of my customer's patterns. I've made so many shirts for him that I can do this one in my sleep. I may end up doing that.
I think that first though I'll go curl up next to hubby for a bit. If I sleep until the little game "generation gap" comes on the radio that will be another half hour. I am so addicted to diet pepsi. The brand is not an endorsement, just a preference. I'll drink diet coke if that's what is available.

*quietly walks towards the couch and snuggles up there by myself*

*sits with Jeremy on the psych ward couch till he falls asleep*

RYL-mom Susan, I am glad you were able to get some sleep. I hope you manage to catch a bit more.

Klavier, I'm sorry you're having such a time of it. *hugs* hope things get better soon hun, that your friend will have more patience.
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F**k me:crying:

*hugs everyone*

*sits alone in corner and rocks*
I HATE MY LIFE... I HATE MY LIFE... I HATE IT!!!!

*squishes everybody*
i love you all so much and i am sorry i have been lurking and not talking much
even if i'm not talking i am a permanent fixture in this Denial Tent here lol
ty Jeremy love and Chloe and Alexx and Emma and Helen and everybody i <3 you
i think my head is exploding. 6 weeks till i go to therapy again and i see now what he meant by "we won't make progress if you go a month between appointments, callie." huh fancy that the doctor knew what he was talking about oops. <laughs> teehee i have an ulcerated mouth sore, and some tooth enamel erosion that i had to have covered in bond and sealances yesterday that wasn't fun though. lovely physical effects of the eating disorder i (don't) have. i am also wondering if i should tell my therapist that i ummm apparently may have hallucinated a giant monster surrounded by flames when i was actually looking at a small terrier, yes the dog. that hasn't happened since so maybe it is an awkward isolated incident?
(i want to do something very naughty but so far i have been good)
Ally get used to being stuck alive, you are stuck here with me and not allowed to leave. fact of.... life.
Susan i hope you are okay dear. Katch i want your sloth it reminds me of Star Wars ewoks.
*waves to Klavier and BoundByThoughts*

Chloe, is your name spelled Chloe or Cloe?
/randomness

lalala back to work

Hey Amanda - Mama wants to know whats wrong - and is there anything I can do to help - always happy to listen.

Sorry but the Sloth stays with me - they were so cuddly and they just cling on to you - so cute - I need it's hugs at the moment.

Huggles and squishes to everyone.

*hugs everyone*

I'm back. I thought I was going to either cry or faint at college. :| Two people asked me if I was okay (I wonder if they saw blood on my teeth oops) and I could barely answer. My teacher gave me the two usual forms to fill in which I did, then I handed him my unfinished folder. He started to look through it so I legged it out before he could comment. >_< Then I dozily went to a room I often sit in to do work and for no reason and five minutes later walked off to go home. Then I bumped into a mate and told her what was up ansd had goood chat about what was bugging me (well only mentioned the work really and how I should stop taking on other people's problems aswell as my own and how I should look aftrer myself) Oh dear!!! Then got on a bus eventually, bit of a stressful journey home but the last bit was good. Was talking to someone me & my mum as they live on our street too =D

So glad it's handed in.....for now =\ But I need to get this anger out and not take it out on myself.

*hugs everyone else lots and lots.* Sorry I'm being so bitchy atm. Ally, you know Callie is talking sense!!!

(((hugs))) Helen... you are not being bitchy... you are just expressing emotion.

I am being being bitchy by saying people don't care etc....

*hugs hugs back*

I.need.to.get.this.anger.out.

I don't really know what's wrong to be honest... I just feel very very numb and dissociated at the moment... :-(
but at the same time I feel like I wanna cry and/or scream. :-(
I just hate feeling this way and not knowing why :-(

Sorry about that - had to run off as my mum came home and she wouldn't have been impressed to see my on laptop all afternoon - now I've jus pretended to turn it on for first time today...
Also I had to sort my face out as I got a bit upset when I wrote my last post in my thread.... mmm red eyes - nice..

Handing Hells a huge pillow for her to thump, stamp on and throw accross the room as hard as she likes. Anger is beter out than it. By the way you are not being bitchy - you were just saying how you felt and we just wanted to tell you how we felt - more hugs xxx

It's so much easier when you know whats upsetting you - sorry you don't scream away in here - or you could ask to share the pillow that I just gave to hells. Wish I could help you hun xxx

You help more than you know... just by caring about me.
*gets all sentimental* Love ya Ma!!! (((hugs)))
Thanks for being my ma and caring about me when I don't care about myself.

That's what RYL mums are for - but I cared about you before I became your mum anyway - so it looks like your stuck with me caring. I have to go again in a minute but I will be back on tonight as soon as my mum falls asleep on the sofa - snore-snore...

Thanks Katch :-D Anger is deffo better out then in.

OK, not fair telling me I'm stuck... especially when that's part of what's distressing about this whole 'done' thing. Not that I'm 'done', I'm fine with that, but that I am 'done' and STUCK :crying:

F**k it all :crying:

Sorry, this is me, negative and useless

*retreats to her corner and hides under her blanket*

*snuggles Ally lots*