*hugs everyone*

Alexx, you are not pathetic and you most certainly are not the cause to people in your life being unhappy. Please be mindful of how much you drink tonight.

Ally, I wish I could say something to make it better for you. Please stay strong. You can do this.

Emma, how are you feeling today hun?

Alexx i think you should, in a huge climactic therapeutic moment, dump the vodka down the drain and dance around with your red balloon

Kit i am sorry about the movie. really intense movies can do that to me, too, like make me depressed for a couple days it's awful. (NEVER watch Black Hawk Down or Life is Beautiful, seriously just don't) *hugs you* why don't you watch something really funny like a comedy or something to distract you?

Chloe i bet your pictures are lovely! maybe you can go for another walk today or edit the pics or something fun like that?

Jeremy good luck at uni and i hope you are feeling better hun i really do *squishes you*

Emma i hope you are having a better time now let us know how you get on

Carole how are YOU doing honey? i know yesterday was rough *hugs you*

i am completely dreading work next week, i think i am stuck in this pointless cycle and i dread therapy that i have on thursday i just dont see any point anymore and i have like as a defense mechanism or something developed a huge repulsion of him and i dont want to go i really dont think it will do any good because i dont see the point and anyway with working my therapy appts are during the workday so how would i go anyway? *decides to hide from it all in the Denial Tent and pretend it isnt happening*

Alyssa your appt tomorrow will be hard and not fun maybe but it will be good for you and after you go you will feel so much better
and you need to go and tell him
and just remember you arent alone we are all with you and you can take some of our courage
please honey you know you need it and it wont be as bad as you think
for some reason things usually arent
look how the kitty crisis turned out?
*huggles*

Ohhh red balloon :P
*dances*
*falls over*
Ow :/
I have wine :D
I was gonna pour the vodka away...then I realised I've formed a strong attachment to it...thats why its been under my bed for so long...
because its what was left over from the last time I spent the night out with him and it was really great and I felt so happy :(
I'll probably keep the empty bottle...how stupid...
Only children form attachments to inanimate objects :-(

Callie I'm sorry you're not looking forward to work or therapy. I know it can be rough when you are starting out. I hope you manage to work things out though because it's helpful, it really is. It just isn't always easy.

Carol, how goes it hun?

Alexx you are SO not pathetic *snuggles* I wish I had more for you hun.

Kit, sorry you didn't sleep well *hugs*

*retreats to her corner and cries*
I'm tired, I want to cry but I can't, I feel just awful... And I've got two exams tomorrow one of which I am nowhere near ready for:crying:

I am so sorry everyone is having such a bad time:sad: sending you all loads of hugsxxx
I have been drinking tonight, said I woudlnt but here I am! so weak!

*hides in her usual corner* i'm a horrible freakin person and an even worse mother.

*hands out lollipops*

Alexx I hope you're ok and don't srink too much, it won't be worth it in the morning.

Kit I hope you sleep better tonight and feel better in the morning.

Emma I hoe you're feeling better and I hope your Grandad gets well soon.

Alyssa I hope all goes weel for you tomorrow at your appointment.

*hugs to all*

I'm gonna wrap up on a blanket and curl up in the denial tent. I'm not much help to anyone right now but I care about you all and hope you're all keeping safe.

Liz

*hugs everyone*

Sorry I haven't been around for a few days. It's been busy.

I just want everything to stop. Or pause. Just...need time to work out what I'm going to do.

*curls up and cries*

*hugs Alexx, Ally, Callie, hiceskater, crystalheart, hunni and squiggles (sorry I don't know all your names!)*

I'm ok now I am alone with my cider :)

I hope you are ok and all keeping safe x

God, he is lying through his front two teeth. There is no way he would be on here for a little over an hour and not have read my posts! Grrr, I feel soo angry with him right now. I'm actually shaking with overwhelming emotions (not just related to this).
He says it was to judge whether I had blocked him on msn. I don't believe it. You do not spend nearly an hour on one website to establish whether someone's blocked you or not?!

OMG! This is pushing me over the edge. If I collapse and give in whose fault will it be? Mine. I shouldn't be so godamn weak.

*hugs carole*
Sorry I have no words right now, I'm pretty useless like that.
Sorry...

*curls up*

*hugs hiceskater*
It's ok, you don't have to apologise so much. The hugs are much appreciated :)
*offers you a blanket*
How are you doing?

Ohhhh I don't think I can hold on anymore....
:crying:
What can I do now? Nothing will be an alternative this time...

Sorry for taking up so much space, I'm not sure I'm even worth it.

hey carole. don't be sorry. what will be an alternative to what? please be safe

Nothing will be an alternative to harming.
I can't do it anymore.

How are you doing Chloe?

*hugs Carole and Cloe*

Carole you're not taking up too much space and of course you're worth it *snuggles*

Hey Cloe, how goes it? *huge hugs*