I dreamt I cut last night O_o. Quite deeply too. I just had to check my arm to see if it was real or not

My little sister wont stop shouting and being childish, and my dad's not doing a very good job at controlling her.

*hides in the corner*

my leg is kinda damaged, it happened yesterday afternoon, i was in delay for about a month, and yesterday when i was on my own, i tuned out, and now its a mess, i havnt seen the damage because i covered it and left, i took, my nephue to the beach and carried on with my day as if nothing happened, i am afraid to look at it, in case i feel like there should be more, all i know is its a mess, the nurse called into say that i wont get an appointment until around two weeks, i didnt tell her about yesterday, as i am finding it hard to take it in myself, now to day, i look at yesterday, with disbelife, and im not feeling ashamed, cus no one knows, iam not sorry, because now i wont be waking up in the morning, feeling like i have been for the month that has past. i dont feel glad about it either, i dont know what i really feel, all i do know is, that i never thought i would be feeling like i had to do this, because last time, it turned to a stress and i was glad, cus i belived i was ok, more like cured or something.. but no .. im back to square one feeling my aim now is to prevent it from yet again, happening.. my day was normal, i was able to carry out all that was expected of me in this day.

*curls up in a ball*

I feel so low. I really do. Have my mental health assessment tomorrow, am dreading it to be quite honest.

gud luk or 2moz mammia mia. it will be ok hugs

lucy may hugs ur not back to sqaure one. its just a lil slip up but u can keep going well done for gtoing the month.
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its a matter of time. its when not if. ts 2 hard to keep fighting im desperate. wish someone cud take it all away

Thank you :(

The random hallucinations are back. I havent had them in so long, I thought it was over- why can't it be over? I was out and about the other day and saw some stuff. It wasent there- I knew that but it freaked me out anyway. AND I couldent say anything 'cause if I did they will try to send me to the psych again-and I wont go I tell you-I wont! I'm just scared again...I hate it.

*hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs*

still triggered, still a waste of space

*hugs wildlyinsane gently.* you are deffently not a waste of space, you have help me and whole load of other. you are a really kind and careing person, there is no way in hell your a waste of space. big bear hugs.x

Hannah, you are NOT a waste of space!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRGH mental health assessment in 14 minutes :'(

*hugs all*
Hannah, as Helen and shadowed soul said, you are definitely not a waste of space. *hugs you*

Good luck with your mental health assessment Helen.

*leaves lots of hugs*

is Puppy Sinclair still around?

Yay we have results at last, only took me two ****ing years nearly to get it but hey ho *rolls eyes* Being referred to CBT :)

Ravyn, I want to pet puppy sinclaire too :)

I'm glad you're getting CBT Helen, did they give you a diagnosis?

I'm hungover and pretty sure I'm still drunk.

Did they ****? Just was blabbering on how I don't have mental illness (since when did I say to them I had???) but had elements of depression and how I need to unlearn my behaviours (self harming/overdosing) and stuff.

Hi everyone.. just a quick note.. am having my last day at uni tomorrow then I'm free (almost). Should pop in more after tomorrow =] Haven't felt the best lately though so sorry for neglecting you =[ *huggles all*

so my exams are over i have finished the first year at uni so y arent i feeling better

Aw well done on finishing your first year.. don't worry... I kinda feel the same.. I actually feel like dropping out.. hmm. *hugs*

@__@ Feeling triggered and spacey. Want to give in to both

same meeting with my cpn and my OT 2morrow to sort out a plan to get me sorted hopefully find more bout the dbt assessment when it is etc. i feel like they r wasting there time.