Hi everyone- hugs everyone

then sits in the corner.

hey louise you ok?

feeling a bit low today.

Hi Louise *offers cuddles* how are you?

Faye, you've had a lot of difficult things to deal with, things that aren't your fault. That doesn't mean you've failed anyone. If anything, the fact that you're still here shows how strong you truly are.

I'm just sick of this. The flashbacks, the dissociation, the accidental cutting... I just want it to stop.

I'm sorry to hear that Louise. Is there any particular reason, or just generally low? Is there anything I can do to help? xx

whats up hun?

they are my fault-i left my job i was too weak, my bf dumped me because he couldnt handle my depression and i slipped in the mud and broke my leg im a total screw up i wish they could put me down.

I knwo hun but thats why you need to ask for help, there will be someone able to help you. xx

You are NOT a total screw up. Being bullied at work wasn't your fault, neither is your depression (bf sounds like a dick for leaving, sorry) and I am personally so accident-prone I injure myself or others on nearly a daily basis through breaking stuff/falling over/falling up or down stairs. This doesn't make you a screw up sweetheart, it makes you human, someone who's had a very difficult time *hugs*

thanks just wish i was stronger but im not. yeah he is but i still have feelings for him :( wish i didnt. Im just clumsy i dont mean to injure myself like that i hate not being able to do things it drives me mad. Im so frustrated and lost right now i dont know what to do.

Do you feel able to ask for help for the other stuff not just the ed? x

I tried talking to my GP about it when I went to get a refill of my ADs, but she didn't really want to listen. I also can't talk about the thing that triggered all this. I don't think I explained it very well. I feel like a freak.

*offers massive cuddles* I know how you feel sweetheart, but this won't last forever. I know you probably don't feel like it, but you will get through this, and you will feel better. xx

No its fine and your not a freak at all *hugs* what about contacting mind or rethink which are mental health charities who may know where to get help and i understand with drs mine was useless last time so i wont see her again. They dont know how to deal with mh at all.

Thank you i hope so i have lots of support but i dont feel very strong. I feel like this is just going to snow me under until im gone.

It won't snow you under honey. Whether you feel strong or not, you are strong - every single person on this site is strong simply for still being here when there are so many painful things to deal with. *hugs*

Thanks, I'll look up the charities, see if they can help. I used to go to a non-NHS SH organisation, but I stopped last year.

Thank you. I may be strong but i dont know if i have the strength to come back from this, i really dont.

They are both mh but there are plenty of places and people around to help you and you deserve it.

*Hugs Katie* Hi I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Faye*

*Hugs Louise* Do you know why hun

I just feel a lot of things triggering me today I was watching the news and even that triggered me which is stupid.

*curls up in thread* anyone mind if I hide here? I don't feel safe

*Hugs Dylan*

love you guys <3.

*hugs for everyone*

*sits crying in corner* i really cant do this anymore i cant cope.

*Hugs Faye*

Love ya too Heather *Hugs*

(Not as a happy or sad thing, just as a fact)

I burned the letter.