cant cope with this anymore i really cant. Im sorry im sorry im sorry.

Hi everyone, sorry for lack of individuals. Just letting you know I got out of hospital yesterday. Trying to settle in at home.

hey hun

hope your doing ok. *hugs*

*hugs all*

Lidsay: I hope you are settling in well.

*Hugs Lindsay* Welcome Home Hun.

*hugs Mark* how are you today?

Hi everyone, hope it's okay I'm here. I'm having difficulty telling the difference between my friends and people who will hurt me, everyone scares me, and I have to see someone I don't want to later. I'm so nervous, and I can't dissociate in case I hurt myself and people see. Sorry, I'm one big ball of anxiety atm.
Hope everyone's okay.

Katie x

*hugs Katie* hi there. Not being allowed to dissociate always means a lot of pressure... for me anyway. It's the same for me. I'm not allowing myself to dissociate because of the self harm. Is there a safe place where you could dissociate but not be able to hurt yourself?

Welcome Home one-step, hope everyone else is ok (((hugs and snuggles)))

I don't know, because I don't know why I hurt myself while out of it sometimes and not others. But the people I'll be with don't know anything and I can't tell them. Thing is, when I'm not dissociating I don't want to hurt myself, it only happens when I'm somehow not in control of myself :( I wish I didn't have to go.
How are you doing Laura? Did you hear back from the special unit yet? *hugs*

Welcome Katie *Hugs if okay?* I'm Mark :)

Good luck *Laura Hugs*

*Glomps Dylan* How are you?

I'm sick

I won't see the counsellor for 3 weeks because he's away

What if I can't cope???

*hugs Dylan*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Katie* I called the insurance and the hospital to ask them how far things were and at first they all didn't know anything. Then I got angry and was probably not really friendly anymore and they told me things. I think I have to wait 3 or 4 more weeks until I can go there. Which is super bad, because college starts on september 3rd.
I know what you mean when you say that you don't want to harm when you are not dissociated. I don't want to harm, but when I'm having one of the attack thingies it has happened that I cut and didn't remember doing it.

*sits rocking and shaking in the corner* make it stop. I cant cope anymore.

*Hugs Faye* I'm from Wilshire too!

*hugs* are you? where abouts?Im in salisbury area how did doctors go today? thanks for the hugs

I now live in Wales but I'm from Wroughton

ah cool, i grew up in kingston upon thames but moved here when i turned 18. Do you prefer wales?

I do ,I've become a bumpkin :P

lol cool. My body is tired but im not sleepy :/