I'm back :(

Not dead ffs.

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Im glad youre not dead *hugs*

I Am Glad You Aren't Dead *hugs*

*hugs Helen out of pure relief and love*
Oh sweetie, so glad you're not dead...

Take care please hun...

And now...

I'm off to get stitched :pinch:

Thanks guys.
Just want it even more.
Good luck with the sitches forever.
I'm soooo cold (it rained BADLY for a few mins)

*holds Helen close*

*is held*

Good luck Ally hun with your stitches, let us know how it goes *hugs* and well done for having the courage to get it sorted!

*bounces over to Helen* I'll tell you again, in case you didn't get the gist before lol- I am sooooo glad you are safe at home :)

*peeks out from blanket in Denial Tent again to offer safe hugs to all*

*hugs Helen again because she is just so damn happy she's back safe with us*

Thanks all. Stitches went alright. Only took three people this time instead of the 7 or 8 that were involved last time. And two of the three were very nice women. The other one was the guy who stitched me up last time... and I don't think he said one word to me. Oh well, he mostly just watched the other gal stitch me up. I think she's some sort of an intern so I got to be a lesson it giving stitches! Yay me, lol.
It's such a useful talent, disociation... not always welcome but in cases like this it's so nice to detach and become my 'fake' self.

And my extra counseling session went well I think. Of course it let him into what's going on in my head which I don't really enjoy all that much... but I know it's necessary. And we talked over last Fridays session and the following emails that night. *phew*

Now if only I had gotten some sleep last night... and was feeling more of... well anything, motivation, anything... Ah well, final term exams this week (I've only got one) and then home for a week :pinch:...

*hugs Helen again and offers a warm blanket and a tray of coffee, tea, cocoa and biscutes, then passes the tray around*

*looks at tray*
*shakes head*
*hides and cries*

is very glad Helen and Alyssa are both okay
*lifts up corner of blanket in Denial Tent for Alexx to come hide under*

*thinks idly that when she is up to it she will venture out into the camp and poke the fire again with a stick or something, maybe roast another chestnut*

Thanks guys.

I'm sorry =[

God I don't want it to increase *sob*

*hides under blanket*

*has had some time to think about things and feels less terrified, so peeks out from blanket to check for scaries, then remembers that the magical mosquito netting around the Denial Tent protects from them, and scurries out*
*brings back smores and popcorn and hot chocolate from the campfire and offers them to all*
*squishes Helen and goes back to hiding under blanket*

*Has a breakdown*
*curls up in the corner and disappears*

I'm so scared.
Seriously.

*hugs Helen and Alexx* It will be ok, eventually :)

Ally- I am really proud of you for going to get the stitches hun and so pleased it went well with your counselor. Make sure you get some sleep tonight :)

Callie....smores are my new favourite thing! Hope you are doing alright *hugs*

What a **** up I am.

College tomorrow, rather not go personlly, but sod it, I'm gonna have to return sometime x

I love talking to Em on the phone, hope tomorrrow goes alright hun.
*snuggles down for sleep and tries to cry without waking anyone up*

just so you all know, the Denial Tent is surrounded by magical mosquito netting that in addition to creating a mystical barrier that blocks out triggeryiness and bad thingys, also is a sound barrier so that you can cry and scream and do whatever noisy things you need to and not wake up sleepy people or disturb people

*snuggles into blanket for night and tucks in Helen and Alexx and Emma and whoever else is in here right now*

and ummm ermmm i'm not quite sure how this happened but i have an appt Thursday at 2pm my time to meet a DBT person for an initial assessment or something
gah
can't talk anymore too scared and surprised
*is nauseous*