*hugs*
wat's on ur mind chloe?

*hugs Chloe and Emm and Jeremy, goes and sits in corner of Denial Tent*
i so refuse to leave this camp
i swear the only thing keeping me sane is pretending that i am actually in this tent and not really in the real world

ooh i want popcorn

SmallBlackFlower, ohhhh yummy popcorn!

I feel like poo today, anyone got any painkillers for my headache?

*hides*

It's okay baby girl :hehe: You're not silly tho!

*hugs you tight*

I think we should too,thanks for the cookies ^_^

I've been so bloody triggered today, and I don't want to give in, and stuff....new start...and yet I feel so pooey (for several reasons) *cries* :-(

*hugs everyone that needs them and waves hello to Chloe*

Squishes over to allow Helen room on beanbag. My PM box is open if you want to chat about things hun x

I feel slightly stupid for getting so stoned. It was horrible! But thanks for the words of support everyone and the tea Callie :)

hello all
hope you are feeling better now Emma (don't feel stupid - you aren't alone and it sounds like you learned something at least!) and Helen!
i have decided to imbue the Denial Tent with umm magical energies that shut out all triggering thoughts!
*starts walking around the camp waving a stick, i mean magic wand, in the air*

honestly, is there some sort of curse from fate going around that is ruining people's lives? i swear it's going around - everybody seems to be having bad luck and bad times :(
not fair i want it to stop

ROWIE
*hugs Rowie and passes her tea and biscuits*
welcome to our camp! we have a lovely tent, called the Denial Tent, where we are all hiding from our problems and the world in general. stay as long as you like dearest. i for one absolutely refuse to leave.

Hello all *waves*
*hugs for everyone feeling rubbish, and just general hugs*
hows it going in the tent today, I'm coming back to hide out after college, I left early couldnt really handle it, someone said about me self harming and i nearly died, I dont know how they knew
*passes round wine gums*

Oo and hi Chloe, nice to meet you
xx

Thanks guys

*huggles Emma lots*

*hugs Chloe and Helen and Rowie, and passes round more tea mostly because have nothing better to do*
ooh maybe i can start a campfire and make smores!!!
i love the Denial Tent
plan on living here from now on
i made a scary phone call and think i will need to hide out here in case that they ring me back - talking is scary :(

aww Chloe that sucks majorly *hugs you*
isn't it weird how people just know somehow, no matter how much you cover it up and don't talk about it? that happened to me too and to this day i don't know how they figured it out *feels confused*

aww Rowie have a nice nap in the Denial Tent and i bet you will feel a bit better
if not you can live in the camp with me for a bit :)

I have pm'd you Helen *hugs*

*tiptoes over to Rowie to see if she is asleep and pull blanket over her* Stay strong hun, you are such a wonderful asset to RYL.

Callie...have I ever told you you rock?? If not- you rock! But what is a smore?? xx

I got a phone call today from the Caludon center which is my nearest psych center offering me an appointment for this Wednesday afternoon. I got told two weeks ago that there was an 11 week wait but that my mental health co-ordinator was going to try and get me moved up the list which I guess she has and that's good. But I feel quite scared and unprepared. I haven't had a proper psych assessment thing for about 4 years!

*hugs everyone in need, and anyone else that just feels like a hug*
Good camp this...
I found out I've got a late fee for last months rent... but I wasn't late!!! And (being the irresponsible idiot that I am) because I don't have the reciept threres nothing I can do about it!
AND I called and made another counseling appointment for this week (I'm not really schedualed till Friday), tomorrow at 10... and I'm regreting it. I wanted to know what happened last Friday when he basically freaked out about my last two ODs... because he was fine during the session and then later in the afternoon I got those 'I think it'd be a good idea for you to throw out the Tylenol' and stuff... And it just made me feel like a freak or something... And I didn't figure I could wait till thise Friday... And since he reminded me a few times during last weeks session and then again in his last email Friday evening that I could come in for an 'extra appointment during the week' I figured what the hell... and now I don't want to go... I don't want to talk about really... well, kind of, and the whole 'extra appointment during the week' makes me feel like such a freak...
Sorry, ranting
Callie, what call did you make? *hugs you and tries to help you be brave*
Emma, sweetie, no worries... I know it's sooner than you thought but maybe that's a good thing. You've got a bit of time to prepare yourself *hugs and snuggles*
Rowie love, I'm sorry you're feeling lousy :( Take care sweetie
*snuggles back up in her tent corner with her blanket and stuffed lamb*
...man, I suck...

*waves hello to Emma and Helen*
aww thanks for that Emma! :)
you're sweet
a smore is one of the best parts of camping! (apart from the hiding-from-the-world bit of course)
first you make a campfire, and then you stick a marshmallow on a stick and toast it, and then you stick it in between two pieces of graham cracker with a slice of chocolate in between and the toasty marshmallow melts the chocolate and it is very yummy and then you eat it :) and that is a smore!
do you call them something else in the UK, or are you all horribly deprived of smores?

*makes a bunch of smores, and passes them round, and saves one for Rowie for later*

You aren't a freak Ally and you certainly don't suck. You are amazing! I am so proud of you for calling to make another appointment especially with your reservations about it. You should be proud of yourself. I think despite you not agreeing with what your counsellor says he (she?) is just trying to help in the way they think is best. But if you are not comfortable with what they suggest then tell them- you are supposed to work together after all (sorry- just realised that sounds quite patronising...it isn't meant to :P) Hope you are ok x

mmmm that sounds good but unfortunately I think we may be horribly deprived of them in the UK...or maybe I just haven't heard of them cos not been camping :)

Have the scary phone people rung you back yet hun? x

gah why do i keep missing people's posts?

*hugs Emma*
that is so great honey! it is scary but i swear i am finding out that the scary things are the things that are the best for us and that we need to do the most. snatch that appt honey! it will be good for you, and honestly assessments proly havent changed that much in 4 years! just lots of endless and annoying questions. you can do it, and then you can come on here and tell us about it and come back and hide in the Denial Tent (goodness knows i will still be there)

*passes Alyssa a smore and sits next to her*
okay miss RYL twin: good for you for making that appt!!! you will go and talk and it will be good. talking is always good, and obviouly the two of you have something to talk about if after your last appt and emails you seemed to be on two completely different pages. an extra appt does not make you a freak! it is a good sign, because it means that your therapy is actually getting somewhere and you have something to talk about! it will be good :) take advantage of it!! (i am still waiting :( nasty therapy people not calling me back, the bastards!)

oh that's too bad Emma!
you should totally make lots of smores and give them to everybody you know! they are fabulous!!
*gives Emma tons of smores*
sniff no the scary therapy people arent calling me
and i left very nice messages and tried to not sound scared at all!
the problem is i have crappy insurance and nobody accepts it
*cries and wishes she still had nice insurance and hadn't quit her old job (that was a such dumb move in retrospect)*

*cries*
I cant do this
I'm really feeling down
I cant self harm till after my gig , I promised so many people
I feel I need to though
*cries more and hides further in denial tent*

sorry for that ...*big big hugs to everyone who needs them*
xx

*holds small black flower (I think you may be another Emma but not sure...sorry!) whilst you cry* Don't give up sweetie. I believe in you and the people you promised obviously do and care about you a great deal too. Don't apologise for being upset *more hugs*

What gig are you going to? x