*hugs all of you in here*

I understand that alyssa.star. I have had nightmares of that happening to me as well. *HUGS*

*hugs all*

Hope u guys r keeping well there xxx

*curls into a ball on couch*

*checks in again* nightmares...can't do nightmares anymore...don't want to sleep.

*hugs black feather*

Maybe watch a dvd to keep busy until u fall asleep?

*walks in sobbing*

Must.run.now.

*continues to rock on the couch*

*whispers* They are after me I swear

*waltzes in, jumps around, clutches head, runs into the wall by accident, talks a lot, hopes to receive a muzzle for mouth and brain*

Hi!!!!

Arrrrrrrrrrggggggh.

Just hate it.

*finally falls into heap on floor*
Wow that was fun. Too bad it gets me in trouble.
Oh, Miss Dance, I hope you feel better soon.
*rubs head*
*finds two fluffy blankets and gives one to Dance*
Good night.

Thanks Monarkh

I'll join you when the party is over haha!

****ing glad 2008 is almost here =P

i wanted to read all the posts, but i couldn't make it....*signs myself in* boy do i need this place

Checking in again, it's been a while cuz my internet access is ****ed. I need this place too. Hope you're ok dance.

I'm like...suicidal right now. Funny.
I'm not doing anything, just that eternal rest is calling me to her arms again. Nothing to worry about.

I'm sorry. I'm scared again. So so so scared.

Hide under the blanket!
*brings flashlight*
I wish I could make you feel better. It should be a happy new year.

*hids with you*

I was doing okay.
Then I started feeling crap.
Then I started getting scared.
Now I'm bawling my eyes out over a 12 year old.
She's not worth it and I'm better than her.
God.
I knew her for what 5 months?
I did nothing but comfort her.
She helped me too.
Then, she turns around and tells me she's not gonna be online.
So I emailed her one night when I was missing her and she replied.
Then I forgot because of Christmas & New Year.
So i emailed her today.
And she doesn't want to be friends anymore.
She "wants to be with her friends of her own age, this is the year I want to get better and I can't solve your problems."
I NEVER ASKED HER TO SOLVE MY PROBLEMS.
Her 12year old friends won't understand.
I didn't understand self harm, overdoses, suidices etc at that age.
****ing hell, I help her and this is how she repays me?
I am sick of people walking out on me and making me say goodbye.
It's hard enough trying to get over my parents split, even though I still see my dad regularly.
This really hurts.
Everythig hurts me.
I want to cut the hell out of me today.
I can't.
I have a party in 4 days.
I'm scared about that too.
:(

*stops rocking* I need a book... *grabs a book from the book case then returns to the couch and starts reading it*

*Grabs another book and pounds the heck out of the bad vibes*
Oh, my girls. I'm sorry you're sad.
Come here *hugs*.

I'm checking out. Sure it won't be long till I'm back.

Aw we will miss you till you get back... *walks to her room and sits in the dark with her big fat book*