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Acrasia 23-05-2009 10:59 PM

Thanks for the hugs Zowie - means alot. Take care of yourself also. Hugs x

Damnation. 23-05-2009 11:00 PM

*Hugs Arwen back*

*Gives hugs to everyone else in the ward*

MammaMia 23-05-2009 11:18 PM

*hugs Arwen and then hugs Dayna*

Arwen, might have an early night, after the day I've had :/ and week..

shadowedseraph 23-05-2009 11:29 PM

Its so hard. I've been recovering for eight months now and i want to spoil it all with a great big cutting binge. *cries* help

rockaroni 23-05-2009 11:47 PM

Hi all, hope you're all hanging in there.

I always get to a certain point and just want to ruin everything. It's at that point for me, I never seem to get past 3 months or so. This time I haven't been counting, but I know it was late February. And while I've been quite hyper, I'm also starting to get really depressed. My mood swings are worse than normal. The hyperness/happiness is awesome, I LOVE it when I'm like that, although it's impossible to get any work done.

But whenever I'm alone I feel completely pointless, worthless, huge, ugly and a massive waste of space. I went to the pub with my friends last night and got completely ignored by almost everyone. Left after one drink and sat in the park crying in the dark for an hour. I just couldn't face going back to mine, because I knew I'd cut or something.

Shadowed, I kind of know what you're going through. While I have no real advice, I have empathy. Sorry to be completely useless... what's brought all this on, what's happened recently to make you feel like this?

Arwen, I completely get where you're coming from. Although with me, I haven't spoken to someone face to face at all to day. It feels like a complete waste of a day to have not seen anyone and been sat at this ****ing computer doing **** all. But I get to see you all tomorrow :)

*sends hugs to everyone*

shadowedseraph 23-05-2009 11:57 PM

*hugs rockaroni* I dont know whats brought it on really im just on a downhill slope *sighs* sounds like your not having the best of times either *offers hot chocolate*

Eclectica 24-05-2009 01:01 AM



MammaMia 24-05-2009 01:19 AM

I feel sick.

Kahlia1981 24-05-2009 01:32 AM

*offers hugs to all*

Damnation. 24-05-2009 01:58 AM

*Big cuddles to all*

Biba 24-05-2009 03:00 AM

i had good intensions of going to bed.. at set time.. il try again tommorrow.. i didnt get, car, lawn,shed tidy'd.. i got other stuff done that i did not think id get done, didnt make dinner, i never do anymore, what is the point, i hate eating alone, my mum's appitie is so poor, it's baby portions in a bowl, she's ill two years, i take care of her 24 hr care.. i told her id take her to the algave when she is stronger... she liked that idea.. and i hope we do.

Kahlia1981 24-05-2009 04:20 AM

*big hugs and cuddles to all*

Sorry it's not more but my hand is hurting and the cast is starting to dig in as the swelling goes away. I keep feeling like I'm going to break the cast when I move my hand.

finding.my.wings 24-05-2009 04:36 AM

hello.... anyone there?
im checking myself in- don't feel safe- my heads all messy, and i need to shower but showering is a bad choice- i mean i wanna be clean- but i cant go in the bathroom cos i know if i do ill do something in there.
i made a tea in the kitchen and gonna snuggle in the corner with my relaxing tea and my teddy.
im scared, and i feel sick. :crying:

actually no- ill lock self in room and hide the key, just so i cant get out- then ill b safe. (will i really- i have my own head to contend with?)
instead gives key to friend to come check on me later.
thanks friend.

Long*Past 24-05-2009 06:08 AM

*takes key*

Hope you're start feeling better soon.

*offers box of chocolates and a blanky*

Want to talk about what's going on?

As for my check up today (since I haven't in forever...)
My cuts are starting to fade away, sorta, which is good.
I went swimming with a friend and was able to cover most of them today, and it got me thinking about my new BF, Mikey, and how I'd like to do some swimming and nature things with him, so I have quite a lot of incentive to refrain, and I'm doing really well. It's been nearly two weeks since I last did, and I'm proud of that.
I'm leaving for Prince Rupert at six in the morning tomorrow and I'm really nervous about provincials. I know that I know my songs and choreography, I'm just scared that I won't be as good as everyone else there. Mikey, Mom, Riley, Brittany, and Courteny are all confident in me though, so I figure I've at least got a shot. Besides, sometimes nerves make you perform better. I am going to miss the sun for the next 5-7 days though...

finding.my.wings 24-05-2009 06:27 AM

thank you.
my heads all messy cos im just struggling with stuff form my past, and its a lot for me. im very tired and struggling with work.
ill stay in my room a little while longer but you can keep the key- ill come out later and hopefully be okay. i just need to be safe.

Kahlia1981 24-05-2009 11:02 AM

*offers safe hugs to all*

MammaMia 24-05-2009 11:23 AM

*offers hugs for all*

Kahlia, that sounds, welll painful :(

OMG I'm up at 10am again on a weekend, this is so not me, it's actually freaking me out for some reason. Am on edge anyway. Got to go out later, dreading it slightly incase everyone's like oh cheer up, well I just can't anymore, I've tried. Maybe we play the fake emotions game again, always seems to work on them......

zowie 24-05-2009 11:38 AM

Brighton meet today :D x

realflifefaerie 24-05-2009 11:39 AM

Morning everyone (or afternoon or evening depending on where you are).
Secrets woke up feeling really lonely and just arghy today. I have so much to do but my brain won't work, I know it's my fault it won't work but I can't help it. It's all too hard.

*leaves hugs for everyone else* sorry i cant support right now

alliwant 24-05-2009 11:50 AM

hi im new to this thread. any chance i can book myself in xx

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