*hugs*
I hope it all works out for you. <3

Thanks -hugs- me too.

*huggles all*

I got the results of my CT scan today .... I have some protruding and bulging discs in my lower back and some early signs of serious problems. My brother summed it up as "it sucks to be you". It's likely going to require surgery down the track which will need to be done by a neurosurgeon because my spinal canal is narrowing and my spinal cord is getting "squeezed" by both the cord and the degredation of my spine. Yay.

On one hand at least there is a reason for my pain. On the other hand it's only going to get worse and there isn't much they can do. The best thing my brother could say (he's an ICU nurse who ended up having to explain it to me in terms I could really understand) is that at the level the degradation and protrusions have/are occurring I most likely will still be able to walk.

Now I feel *so* much better ....

so overwhelmed right now ............

*Hugs Crimson*
*Hugs Helen*
*hugs Shannon*
*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Kahlia*Oh I'm sorry to here your news hun, I hope it gets sorted out for you /
*Hugs Kitty* Good Luck with your pregnancy test hun .
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Felicia*
*Waves to Disturbia* Hi I'm Mark :)

*hugs everyone*

Had a really **** night's sleep. Slept 3am-6.55am :(

Plus feeling sick started again badly last night and hasn't gone away :/ Mehhh!

Awh Helen *Hugs* I'm sorry you had a bad night and are feeling unwell :(

*hugs everyone*

*hugs Mark* Meh :( Feeling better at the moment.
*hugs Lindsay* How you doing?

My best friend finally opened her Christmas presents from me today xD She loved them yay ^_^ Really glad she liked my home-made one, took a lot of hard wor and stuff to do it lol.

Helen, i'm glad you're feeling better.

I'm not too bad, just waiting for the darkness to bring misery and loneliness as it always does.

*Hugs Lindsay* *Lights a fire to keep the dark away for you*

Thank you, Mark. :)

I'm just so scared that another day is always around the corner and that maybe i'm ok-ish now but it definitely won't last. I'm sick of fighting to stay alive when it's the last thing that I want to do.

*Give Lindey a magic light up wand* it's voice activated. Just say 'lumos' and it will light up :)

*Hugs Mark* How are you this evening/afternoon.

*Hugs Kahlia* I'm sorry about your back :( I hope it can be fixed, and you can get something to control the pain.

*Hugs Kitty and Felicia* I don't think either of you are lost causes. And good luck with the pregnancy test and session.

*Hugs Disturbia* Hey, I'm Lia :)

*Hugs Helen* It sucks to be ill :( I have a cold, it's not too bad but I have an AS exam tomorrow, so sucks slightly. Oh well, never mind. I hope you can sleep better tonight :)

*Hugs anyone else lurking*

*Hugs Lia*I'm conflicted , torn , My mind is playing mean games with me :S

*Hugs Lindsay* I know the feeling of "I feel okay today but might feel crap tomorrow"

*Hugs Mark* I know the feeling. My mind does that. It tells me things about myself, things I know but don't want to hear. It makes me think of bad stuff, and what might happen, what might have already happened. I wish it'd just pipe down sometimes.

*Hugs Lindsey* There's always something to hang on for.

*hides & cries eyes iuy*

*hugs ward*

Lalalala... counseling today. Birthday tomorrow. :/

*hiuys Felicia*

*Hugs Helen* Whats up hun?