What up Louise? you okay?

not really

Whats happened Louise hun?

it is my birthday tomorrow and not looking forward to it.

Oh , Happy Birthday ! Just so you don't feel alone I hated my birthday last November , What age are you turning? Iwas so unhappy so understand.

thank you, it is what my mum has done :(
I will be 25 years old

Whats your Mum done? Louise

she has arranged a party with all her friends saying it is for me even though i hardly know her drunk friends grrrr i hate her for doing this.

*Hugs my wardies goodnight*

night mark, thanks again

hi i'm around. please try not to cut, can you do something to distract yourself

very low, suicidal, just want to die, crying, so many emotions going on. and friends and dr's keep telling me the people aren't real, but i know they are, no one ever believes me they just think i'm stupid

we havent been in here for a while. but feel as if we belong in here again.. not really that we had quit feeling that way ..it just had lessened some.

we discovered a new one today. we have had ideas that one like that existed within with us for quite a while now but its different knowing he is really there.
it scares me and for some reason i feel quite ashamed over it.. i wasnt planning to tell my husband about the other one but i try not to keep any secrets from him. he hasnt mentioned it yet..as we had left the notebook the other one wrote in todayout for him to read.. we took our nightly meds earlier along with 2 xanax (2 mgs total) so we are still quite sleepy.
just.. idk.. surrounded with friends online and few offline and family but still feel totally alienated, alone and misunderstood and lost.

i am sorry for complaining.
Hiding

*Hugs Louise*
*Hugs Disturbia*
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Hiding*

I'm up . My Dad left his phone here yesterday so is coming by in a bit to pick it up , I don't know how I feel yet today :S

hugs everybody, curls up

*Hugs Jill* You okay hun?