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misskitty112 11-12-2010 03:35 AM

*hugs ward*

risenfromperdition 11-12-2010 04:51 AM

Rawrrr <3

misskitty112 11-12-2010 05:04 AM

HEATHER! *hugs*

I almost wanna sleep, but not really.

risenfromperdition 11-12-2010 05:09 AM

Awh how come dont wanna? *sits with and keeps company*

FlyingNy 11-12-2010 10:22 AM

Like the sig Heather :)

Lore, couldn't you get a grant? I'm in the same(ish) boat as you, my mum can't help out much and I wouldn't really want her to anyway, but with loans and grants, you might be able to afford it. You probably qulaify for a grant down to income and maybe one for exam results as well. Then if you get that, along with a loan you won't have to start paying off said loan until you're earning 21,000 a year and if you've not paid it back by th age of 40, they cut it anyway. You could take out a gap year and take up little jobs, saving up as much as possible to help towards it as well.

*Hugs Felicia* How are you doing today?

Doikers 11-12-2010 10:22 AM


*Hugs Lore*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hus Ian*

*Hugs Julie*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Lia*

Ugh... Just managed to pull myself out of bed , I really didn't want to get up this morning , I could SO EASILY go back to bed , No energy , None , Self Injury thoughts are consumming me a bit :(

How are you all this morning?

MammaMia 11-12-2010 10:33 AM

*hugs everybody*

FlyingNy 11-12-2010 10:44 AM

*Hugs Helen* How are you today?

Why don't you go back to bed Mark? This is weird for me, if I'm not going out and don't have school up not usually up until about 12.00 and I got up at 9.30 this morning.

Doikers 11-12-2010 10:50 AM

Well Lia , this is slightley paranoid but on Monday I have a 10am appointment , Which means I'll have to be up waaaaay before 10am to get ready , not forget stuff , check in on here, check my e-mails, breakfast etc so I'll need to sleep well tonight so I sleep well Sunday night so I'm not too tired on Monday morning , It's the OCD part of me coming out , I can get quite obsessive :S erp.

PsychoKitty2010 11-12-2010 11:25 AM

-walks through the doors and checks herself in and finds the darkest corner and curls up in it-

can't sleep...want it all to end...want to be free...

MammaMia 11-12-2010 11:26 AM

*hugs Lia* I'm not doing too good. How are you?

Doikers 11-12-2010 12:06 PM

Hello PsychoKitty *Hugs if okay* Welcome to the ward , I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Helen*

PsychoKitty2010 11-12-2010 12:10 PM

thanks *hugs back* you can call me kitty (I hate my given name).

MammaMia 11-12-2010 12:12 PM

*hugs Kitty* Welcome to the ward :) I'm Helen :D

*hugs Mark back*

Am worried about Kahlia's silence. She hasn't posted for over 2 weeks. Have messaged her in more than one way, so hopefully she'll get in contact with me :S

Doikers 11-12-2010 12:31 PM

Hmmm yeah Kahlia has been scarce latley , I hope she is okay :S

MammaMia 11-12-2010 12:37 PM

Me too, she hasn't been on in over two weeks & wasn't doing too well when she last posted.

Doikers 11-12-2010 12:59 PM

I'm triggered , I've picked out the place on me where I would cut , I actually picked it out last night but tried to sleep it off , I have a while to go before I sleep . Maybe just lying down for a bit will help? .I'll try that .

MammaMia 11-12-2010 01:02 PM

Hope lying down helps Mark. You're doing SO SO SO well not cutting & resisting your urges. Even if you were to cut, it won't take all those days of freedom away.

*big squishy hug*

Doikers 11-12-2010 03:09 PM

I'm back up (Physically) Got half asleep for a couple of hours , but my mind never really wondered away from S.I. ..... My Mum called on my phone in my pocket after I'd been in bed an hour or so heh. Something stained my thumb bright yellow whilst I was in bed ! Erp.

Thankyou Helen for the Big Squishey Hug . *Huge Hugs you back*

Doikers 11-12-2010 03:47 PM

Christman lights on.
Inscence lit.
Stereo on. (Should I switch to the T.V.?)

Trying to relax and stop this tingly horrible feeling.

Doing My best , maybe I'll go out for a magazine or some peanut butter or something ......

Doikers 11-12-2010 04:43 PM

So I cut, not badly at all but I feel a little less tense but not completely less tense :S

I don't know what to have for dinner....

I collected up a hat thats been in the snow under my living room window for like ,a week and have shoved it into my washing machine , No one else seemed to want it all this time. *Is a collecter of things*

FlyingNy 11-12-2010 04:49 PM

*Hugs Mark* I'm sorry you cut, but I am glad it wasn't too bad.

*Hugs Kitty* Hey :) I'm Lia.

*Hugs Helen*

My mum has put Christmas music on and we have spent the day wrapping presents and getting the decorations down from the loft. I am also wearing a santa hat, but I still can't believe there are just two weeks to go. It doesn't seem possible. I wish time would slow down.

Doikers 11-12-2010 04:54 PM

Thank Lia :)

2 weeks !! I know , it's scary isn't it :s?

*Hugs* How are you Lia?

FlyingNy 11-12-2010 05:01 PM

I'm alright, kinda excited about Christmas and will be visiting family tonight which I usually hate, but somehow, as soon as December hits, I don't mind. I hope it will help me get into the Christmas spirit a little.

I wish people would just leave. If they're gonna go, they should just go rather than hang around for weeks, knowing they aren't going to be there much longer. It just makes everything so much harder. But I guess that's cos I am one of those people that just likes to bury my head in the sand and pretend like everything's fine, which I can't do with said person still hanging around, reminding me every five seconds.

Still, it'll soon be Christmas :)

Doikers 11-12-2010 05:13 PM

Awh *Hugs Lia Tons* I could use some Christmas spirit if you find any spare :P I've been presant buying since like September and it all seems so anti-climatic , Still 14 Days to get in the spirit eh .

Cazki 11-12-2010 05:17 PM

Hey everyone. I hope next year is better than this year i really do. This year has been quite crap to be honest.

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Lia*

Doikers 11-12-2010 05:22 PM

*Hugs Ian* If I make it to the end of Febuary I'll have been out of Pysch Hospital for a whole year . I ran into the weekly town Hospital outing and recognised Hilary , a patient I knew . It's sad that she's back in there .:(

FlyingNy 11-12-2010 05:25 PM

*Hugs Ian*

Yeah, one of my new year's resolutions is going to be to get over all this. Which reminds me, I have something to tell you all that I can't go to anyone else about. The other day, I was with my friends at lunch time and one of them mentioned teen depression. I got bored that same lunch time and googled it on my phone. Looking at the symptoms, I realised I have every single one, and another thing it said was that with teen depression, they are not necessarily sad and upset all the time, but more irritable and grumpy and that was one of the main reasons I ruled out depression in the first place, because I am not always low. IDK...I just have no one else to go to about this.

one_step_closer 11-12-2010 05:26 PM

*hugs everyone*

It was a year in November since I was last in hospital, well as a psychiatric inpatient anyway. I found it quite upsetting to be honest because I want to go back there and be looked after.

I'm feeling very low and suicidal today and people keep telling me to stop focusing on suicide but it's not that easy. I managed to go and do some food shopping without making a detour to the train station so that's good.

Cazki 11-12-2010 05:32 PM

*Hugs Mark Lia and Lindsay* I seriously dont know how i managed. Still there we go, thats life for you. I'v had other things iv struggled with to which i havent spoke about on here. I find it difficult. It was difficult when i realised, it was even more difficult when i realised il always be a loner :( probably makes no sense sorry.

Doikers 11-12-2010 05:37 PM

Lindsay Said

I found it quite upsetting to be honest because I want to go back there and be looked after.

Makes perfect sense Lindsay *Hugs* I want the safe feeling it gave me :S

Ian Said

it was even more difficult when i realised il always be a loner :( probably makes no sense sorry.
That makes sense to me too , I find it very hard to connect with people , I really cherish My Best friend , For years and years I had no friends , I actually met my Best Friend in Hospital last summer :)

Cazki 11-12-2010 05:43 PM

Thanks Mark :)

I realised something quite a while back and its been hard. But then i kept questioning it because i guess i didnt like the truth, but oh i dont know

Doikers 11-12-2010 05:46 PM

What did you realise Ian? Sorry it's okay if you don't want to say.

FlyingNy 11-12-2010 05:57 PM

I guess I can't come here either. Never mind. I'll talk to...well there's not actually an end to that sentence.

Really must dash, I'm being yelled at to hurry up, visiting family. Bye for now.

Doikers 11-12-2010 06:01 PM

*Hugs Lia*Sorry I didn't mean to ignore you , I thought that you were addressing only Ian , Whats your resalution? To get over Teen Depression? I wish you the best of luck , I have Chronic Depression myself so know how hard that can be , Should you perhaps go and get an official Diagnoses ? A Dr may well be able to offer you help with getting over this . Sorry if you felt ignored :(

misskitty112 11-12-2010 06:28 PM

Hey everyone,
*hugs* My mind can't process words right now apparently. I read the whole page and can't remember anything. Sorry.

*sits in the corner until she becomes useful*

Doikers 11-12-2010 06:29 PM

*Spots and squishes Felicia* How are you today?
Edit:-^^^Oh oops Typing at the same time^^^

misskitty112 11-12-2010 06:33 PM

I'm pretty blah today. Nothing's sticking in my mind (yeah, try studying for finals like this... it's a mess)
I really want to cut today, too. Music's on, trying to distract me.

FlyingNy 11-12-2010 06:39 PM

*hugs Felicia*

It's fine Mark :) I should be being sociable right now but internet phones distract me.

Doikers 11-12-2010 06:39 PM

Music Is the singular best thing to distract me :)
I'm sorry you're Blah :( *Hugs*

I just want to sleep, Up at 10 am , bed from1pm -3pm , it's now 6.37pm and I just am struggling to know how to cope . I Hate having Depression :S What's the point of going to bed only to feel crap tomorrow *sigh* sorry to be so negative today ....well most days recently.

misskitty112 11-12-2010 06:50 PM

*Hugs Lia* I should be somewhat sociable too. But... I have the internet, so not now. lol
*hugs Mark* I'm sorry you're struggling. I don't have words, but I sincerely hope it gets better.

Doikers 11-12-2010 06:54 PM

*Hugs Felicia* I hope it gets better too , for both of us , for all of us .

misskitty112 11-12-2010 07:10 PM

Me too.
I really need motivation to get out of bed, and get ready for the Secret Sister dinner with my sorority tonight. *sigh*

one_step_closer 11-12-2010 07:10 PM


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2604811)
I just want to sleep, Up at 10 am , bed from1pm -3pm , it's now 6.37pm and I just am struggling to know how to cope . I Hate having Depression :S What's the point of going to bed only to feel crap tomorrow

I could have said that myself. I really hate depression. I got up at 1 today in the hope that it would make the pain last for a shorter period of time but it just seems more intense. I can't wait to be sleeping again.

Doikers 11-12-2010 08:03 PM

*Spots PsychoKitty and Hugs if okay?* How are you tonight?

misskitty112 11-12-2010 08:10 PM

*Hugs Lindsay*
*Spots Kitty* Hi, I'm Felicia. How are you?
*Hugs Mark*

Doikers 11-12-2010 08:15 PM

*Hugs Felicia* How's the Uni work coming? Have you managed to get any focus ?

frenchhorn 11-12-2010 08:45 PM

*hugs all* hi kitty I'm Oliver.

I lack all motivation to move, but said i would go to the gym tonight and i'm in uni so got to go at some point

PsychoKitty2010 11-12-2010 08:54 PM

*goes down the line hugging everyone back*

Thanks everyone. I'm not doing so good today. I passed out sometime after 5 am and didn't get much sleep...I feel more like a zombie today than I did yesterday. Gawd, I hate insomnia. I want to cut, but...I'm kinda afraid that if I do I will go deep...

Doikers 11-12-2010 08:54 PM

Right I've HAD ENOUGH!! Why do I HAVE to feel so Low , Isn't My Lithium supposed to control that? , My Lithium can't wear off , It simply can't , I NEED it it's making me Numb and low at the same time , Do I really need a 3rd increase in doseage?! I was on 800mg then it stopped working , so 1000mg and it stopped working not 1200mg and it feels like Its stopping working what not , PLEASE PLEASE be a short term blip . Lithium , My Psych Dr told me would make me numb but would get rid of the Low depression.
Positive thoughts and thoughts and prayers whatever your spiritual path would be very much appreciated .*Thanks*

*Night Time Hugs my Wardies* I love you guys.

To Bed now , I took 20mg Diazepam , Please sleep Pleeeease.

"Asleep is the safest place you can be"

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