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risenfromperdition 11-06-2010 01:55 AM


Originally Posted by taz35 (Post 2344762)
*hugs Heather* In regards to the BMI thing, try not to worry about it hun. Easier said than done, I know... but numbers don't reflect your true beauty, and you are GORGEOUS. Don't let anything or anyone tell you otherwise :)

heh wish could believe that =[
but thankies

risenfromperdition 11-06-2010 01:57 AM

grrargh. i fell asleep at 3pm, got waked up by dad at 6:30 telling me to make stupid sample boards... why couldnt he just lemme sleeeeeeep for once *whine* lol
im lonely =\

buuuuut maybe going to pride in ny end of month =D hopefully without my idiot father lol

taz35 11-06-2010 03:58 AM

*gives Mark chamomile tea and super soft pillows* I hope you get some decent sleep, if not a full night. I'm off to read your r/v after this, so you can expect a PM in the morning from me :) And maybe your SW wants you to call him to discuss the SI in relation to the med student? I could be way off, but just a thought.

*hugs Hels* Enjoy your concert!!! I think I missed it - did you post pictures somewhere from the BEP one? =/

*hugs Jill* I hope you get some sleep <33 And hopefully the pain goes down at least a tad!

*hugs Laura & Louise* How are you both doing?

*hugs April and wanders off to read her r/v*

*hugs Becca* How's your day been?

*hugs Heather* You're quite welcome. Hard to believe when it's just words over the internet :( But hang strong <3 Sucks that your dad woke you up...

*wanders off to a desk in the corner to study chemistry* Midterm exam in 21 hours! Eeek. Probably won't be on until after 10 tomorrow night, so everyone take care!!

anarchistl0ve 11-06-2010 05:00 AM

Day was good till hubby asked outta cuiosity how much i weigh cause my medical issues. I am a fat cow :(

SoMuchMore 11-06-2010 08:03 AM

*hugs taz* good luck on your exam!

*hugs becca* you are not a fat cow. Don't let that get you down at all. Try to focus on the good that happened today.

*hugs mark* sorry that you are having sleeping problems. good luck with that call tomorrow. Hope that everything is alright.

*cuddles april* Keep trying to hang in there. I know its hard and easier said than done, but please try.

*hugs helen* How was the concert?

*hugs heather* Taz couldn't have said it any better hun. Sorry that you dad woke you up and hope that you get some sleep tonight.

*hugs oliver, jill, jess, and julie* Hope you are all safe.

Feeling destructive. It's almost 2am here. I wonder where the night will go. My days are starting to blur together. I don't feel like there is any separation between them (that isn't good wording.. i dont know how to explain how it feels). I keep telling myself to go to sleep so that i can get into a better sleeping pattern... but its been weeks since i've fallen asleep before 3am. Not that it matters, its not like i have anything to get up for since i work at night. I'm on a serious ramble now, so before i keep going: *checks out of ward for a few hours* Need do go do somethings... i'll probaby be back later, hopefully feeling less strange.

Doikers 11-06-2010 11:12 AM

*Super Hugs* April I read your R/V thread ,Thinking of you :)

Doikers 11-06-2010 11:31 AM

*Hugs Taz , Kahlia , Kathryn, Lia , MID, April,Laura , Helen, Hayley,Oliver,anarchistl0ve,Heather,Shadowedsoul , Nicole , Louise,
and those I've missed , sorry!:S*

Scarletdreamer 11-06-2010 12:24 PM

*cuddles Mark* How are you doing today?? any better than yesterday?

*spies Kahlia and cuddles* :) How are you?

*cuddles everyone else who wants them* Sorry, no epicness of a lot of individual responses right now... am feeling kind of low. :(

I have to help out at a senior (55+ years old, not high school seniors, lol) expo today for work... I have to be there at 9am which is only a few hours away and I have absolutely no idea what I am doing there. I was told that I will be "floating," lol, but I don't know what that means. :-S It's from 10am-2pm and I... oh, I don't even know!!!! I just really do NOT want to go. :'(

WoW-speak time... my night elf hunter on Grizzly Hills just dinged 31... I'm so happy, haha, because she was stuck at level 28 for the longest time!! heh. Level 30 made me happy, but now I want to get her to level 40 so she can 1) get an epic ground mount (100% faster than running on foot, instead of the 60% that the first mount gives), and 2) so she can wear mail instead of leather. More armor the better!!! :) heh.

I'm really tired... *sigh* Oh well... :-/

*hides in the warren somewhere dark, deep, and lonely* :(

Doikers 11-06-2010 12:51 PM

*Hugs Apiril* I'm a little better than yesterday , just a little though, I'm numb today, want to cut , but yesterdays Bl*d a bit too much . I could be more graphic but I don't want to trigger anyone.

WoW wise I haven't played since the 6th ,, been too low , I am very closed to level 18 but finding westfall tough.

wolfos3d 11-06-2010 01:54 PM

I haven't played WoW in ages. My game card ran out. *dies from withdrawls* I have an 80 Undead Warlock and my other most notable toon is a 37 Night Elf Hunter. I'm hoping to get back on in a couple of months. It's one of the only things that could actually keep me distracted for long periods of time.

I'm feeling pretty crummy right now. I'll be curled up in a ball if anyone needs me. *huggles to peoples*

Doikers 11-06-2010 02:04 PM

*Huggles Wolfos* ,*Sits by Jessica curled up in a ball to keep company*

wolfos3d 11-06-2010 03:46 PM

Thanks Mark. *hugs*

pieces_of_me 11-06-2010 03:56 PM

*hugs everyone*

Doikers 11-06-2010 06:11 PM

*Hugs Taylor*

Doikers 11-06-2010 06:18 PM

*Spots Helen and Kat and Hugs*

shadowedsoul 11-06-2010 06:38 PM

Argh my shoulder still hurts which sucks was hoping
it would be okay. Going to be a buzy day, as it the day
of rockness, a rock concert by lochness, locks like it's
a wet one again. A wee bit pissed I couldn't go, but they
wernt letting people off for it, then they give them the days
off. So a bit pissed a well

katnovia 11-06-2010 06:38 PM

*hugs mark*

xxjuliexx 11-06-2010 07:03 PM

morning all

Doikers 11-06-2010 07:12 PM

Morning Julie :-) How are you?

SoMuchMore 11-06-2010 08:21 PM

*hugs everyone*

Bad bad night.. Wont mention anything in here b/c i dont want to trigger anyone. I'll prolly update my r/v thread about it in a bit if anyone wants to read.. Its okay if not. I know a lot of you are struggling so no worries.


Doikers 11-06-2010 09:12 PM

*Hugs Laura* I read your R/V thread , sorry it's only hugs . I know the feeling of it all running together and wanting to do it over and over *Hugs*

SoMuchMore 11-06-2010 10:05 PM

Thanks for reading it Mark. *hugs back* how r u doing today?

Kitkat :) 11-06-2010 10:31 PM

Sorry I didn't reply for ages.

I'm just... Knackered. In every way.

*continues laying on floor*

Scarletdreamer 11-06-2010 10:57 PM

laura, love, i read your r/v. i'm sorry that you felt that way but i understand how you feel (well, as best as i can, anyway, since i'm not you and in your head!!) with the days running together etc. i'm sorry that you had such a bad night. :( *holds you gently*

mark, how are you, sweet? *cuddles*

kathryn, knackered means tired doesn't it? sorry, am not up on slang like that, heh. :-S i hope you're doing okay... *huggles*

*hugs kat, julie, jill, hels, oliver, kahlia, taz, nicole, and everyone else i've forgotten, sorry!!*

i'm exhausted. it's been such a busy day and now all i want to do is either sleep or cut. or both. i went to bed last night at 8:30pm and got up a little before six this morning... slept well but am still zonked. :( the senior expo went well, i helped at the door prize table and made some new friends. :) it was nice... free lunch and all but now i feel guilty for eating sooo much today & yesterday. :'(

i got a new bow for my cello!! but it's not ready to be used yet, have to put a ton more rosin on it so it catches hold of the strings as i bow instead of slipping over them. it's glorious though... i heard a little bit of the sound it makes and it's so nice. so much better than my old bow (which i'm not going to get rid of yet, of course), it's not even funny, heh.

*hides in the warren* :'(

Kitkat :) 11-06-2010 11:01 PM

Hee hee yeah it does April :)

I'm just exhausted really, just emotionally mentally and physically drained...

SoMuchMore 11-06-2010 11:07 PM

*hugs kathryn* sorry that you are so tired.

*hugs april* glad that the expo went well and that you got a new bow for the cello! My cousin plays the cello, i've played with hers a few times but i only know the piano and a little guitar so it was not pretty haha.
Thanks for reading my r/v thread. Im glad that people can kinda understand how i feel about the days running together thing (well i'm not glad that you know what that feels like but.. you know what i mean.)

*hides alone in the corner*

Kahlia1981 11-06-2010 11:10 PM

*huggles/waves at all*

Sorry for being so absent. Just really cold and really tired and not able to concentrate. I have been reading though. Also sorry for the lack of individual replies.

Had a couple of nasty experiences yesterday and am just feeling exhausted, drained and really down. So over life. *sigh*

Sorry, will stop being a gloomy, miserable person now . . .

*wanders off to play with Puppy SinClair in the garden*

Kitkat :) 11-06-2010 11:12 PM

*mimics the movements of making a snow angel*


Sorry I feel so strange

risenfromperdition 12-06-2010 12:59 AM

*sits next to laura and yawns*

i annoyed that i so easily culda not had dinner but ended up having freaking eggplant parm... fatpiggy=[ plus ended up going to cvs... aftertakingmoneyfromaunt
i fail at life.

and now i gotta make MORE bloody sample boards- fml.

taz35 12-06-2010 03:35 AM

*hugs everyone tightly* Will do individual replies tomorrow. I read everyone's r/vs. Stay safe <3

jonikd 12-06-2010 03:55 AM

*hugs everyone*

Laura, honey, please stay safe and keep talking, both to us and your support people IRL, they do care babe, you know they do, just like we do. *hugs tight*

April, sounds like there are some nice things happening around you, try and focus on those sweet, I know how hard things are for you now so just try try and try again to keep yourself safe and be gentle with yourself 'K? *cuddles*

Mark, Helen, Kahlia you guys have all been up and down too, so my thoughts are with you.

Julie, you been a bit quiet, what's up hun.

*waves to Taz,Jill,Oliver,Nicole,Kat,Jessica,Heather and all the others who've popped in since I was last here* Sending love and care to you all.

I'm OK, in at work on Saturday to keep myself occupied as feeling a little lost, which normally leads to bad stuff, but hopefully today it won't!

See you all soon.

risenfromperdition 12-06-2010 04:55 AM

*sits in corner and cuddles with teddy*
shower time... woo =\

SoMuchMore 12-06-2010 05:03 AM

Taz- I like your sig :-) Hope you are okay.

*hugs kahlia* I'm sorry that you've been having a rough few days. Dont worry about the lack of individual replies, we understand.

*hugs heather* you are not a fail at life. I promise hun.

*hugs kathryn* sorry that you are feeling weird.. u okay?

*hugs JK* Glad to hear that you are okay. I hope that your work thing does not lead to anything bad.

And I know that some of you guys care... i'm not so sure that people in my "real life" do so much tho. I keep thinking that maybe it'll be easier to... well to word it in a nice and safe way, create a comfortable distance. Then they won't have to see and I won't have to get hurt again. Its not like i have much of a support system anyway.. very few people know anything important about me. *sigh* i'm just tired of trying to turn my life around. Its starting to feel like enough is enough.

wolfos3d 12-06-2010 05:51 AM

I cut and I almost gave up completely. I don't know what to do with myself anymore.

risenfromperdition 12-06-2010 05:55 AM

i care laura <3 hmm... i dunno what to suggest unfortuantely but am here if you want

heh... the irony- the only black shirt i own that isnt in wash? my twloha one... *snorts* go me. >.>

risenfromperdition 12-06-2010 05:56 AM

*offers hug to wolf [sorry dunno name ><]*

sorry am useless atm.

anarchistl0ve 12-06-2010 06:20 AM

*cuddles and goodie bags full of stickers and plastic rings and neckalces*

I Hate, hate, hate when I let food consume me.. well more like I consume it... no wonder I am such a fat gross pig... btw anyone else a binge eater or am I once again alone.

risenfromperdition 12-06-2010 06:25 AM

*snuggles if you want* bet you're not a fat gross pig [wow im one to talk lols]

*curls up and sleeps*

anarchistl0ve 12-06-2010 06:34 AM

*snuggles with* but i am a fat pig :(. i used to be so pretty then i let food in.

risenfromperdition 12-06-2010 06:50 AM

*cuddles more* food is silly *nod*

risenfromperdition 12-06-2010 06:52 AM

me getta photograph butterflys being released in morning ^.^ lol.

anarchistl0ve 12-06-2010 06:54 AM

Food is evil. I looves me some butterflies

taz35 12-06-2010 08:51 AM

*hugs Jess* I'm glad you didn't give up completely <3

*hugs Heather* I love my TWLOHA shirt :D But I feel like a huge hypocrite whenever I wear it... ><

*hugs Becca* you're not a fat pig at all. You're beautiful <3

This is ridiculous. It's 4 am and I can't sleep. I've been awake since 10 am yesterday morning... how many hours is that? I can't even wrap my brain around simple math right now. And I have to work in 8 hours. *curls up in a ball and tries to fall asleep* This is not going to end well....

wolfos3d 12-06-2010 09:41 AM

Me too Taz. *hugs* I ended up having a suprise visit from a friend this afternoon and that made me feel a bit better.

one_step_closer 12-06-2010 10:13 AM

*hugs everyone*

I'll be away most of next week on a course with the Prince's Trust. I'm really looking foward to getting away from home. I hate it here.

Doikers 12-06-2010 11:11 AM

*Taz Hugs * I hope you are sleeping.

* Hugs Wolf0s* No , Don't give up completely ( Hypocrite I know )

*Hugs Heather and Becca * I'm sure you're not fat either of you , I'm having issues with food I know how tough it can be :(

*Hugs Lindsay* Enjoy your princes trust week :)

one_step_closer 12-06-2010 11:15 AM

How are you Mark?

Doikers 12-06-2010 11:27 AM

I'm Achey ,I ache that is , I don't know what to do today , one part of me says cut (First thing I got up) one says nope don't . I Struggled to get out of bed again , I' just tired I guess, I am struggling to sleep latley and even when I do sleep it takes me hours to wake up :( sorry.

xxjuliexx 12-06-2010 11:36 AM

*sits rubbing eyes* so tired
i'm baby sitting and all i wanna do is sleep

Doikers 12-06-2010 11:41 AM

*Hugs Julie*
Im about to go for a walk to get some energy drinks , I don't want to go out but I'll not sleep tonight with no exercise , I'll go via the canal , it's nice there and ends up right on Aldis heh.

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