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risenfromperdition 19-05-2010 07:13 PM

*waves to everyone*

taz35 19-05-2010 07:23 PM

*hugs Kat* hope you didn't spend too much :)
*hugs Mark* I can see how the bills would be stressing you out a lot :( Here's hoping it works itself out soon for you!
*hugs April & Crimson & Heather*
*hugs Hels* Ick, blisters suck big time =/
*waves to Heather* How're you doing?

risenfromperdition 19-05-2010 07:36 PM

sleepy and lonely and fat and dont want lunch *sulks*

MammaMia 19-05-2010 07:46 PM

*waves to Heather & Taz* How you both doing there?

Doikers 19-05-2010 08:20 PM

*Hugs Taz and HorseridinBbe07*

Grr I HATE pulling off plasters too , maybee this is advice but I find Boots own brand plasters are a lot less sticky when it comes to taking them off than Elastoplast . Hmm , maybe you know of better ones yet !?

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 08:27 PM

Moleskin is good for blisters.

MammaMia 19-05-2010 08:31 PM

I think I got boot's own one & a type for sensitive skin apparently :)

frenchhorn 19-05-2010 08:32 PM

*hugs mark* I'm sorry they are still messing you around with the bills, that really sucks, I hope they sort themselves out soon.
Yes plasters are horrible, I just go for it and pull them off.

*hugs Crimson, helen and Heather*

I shall do more individual replies later, going to a meeting taken by su president in a min about the new way the su will run, cos it is crap at the moment.
also stuff is happening in my life, scary stuff, there is the person in first year who has liked me for ages and started talking to me the other day and yeah not sure what is going on at the moment, but they keep saying they like me and what me to be there boyfriend, I'm just scared cos I don't like to let people in, so am majorly freaking out and also get freaked out cos I don't think people should like me or anything.

*hides in a corner until he has to go to the meeting*

taz35 19-05-2010 08:56 PM

*hugs Mark & Hels & Crimson*

I'm... alright. Lost in my own mind.

*hugs Heather* You should eat your lunch hun <3

*hugs Oliver* sounds like an odd situation to be in. Have you talked to this person about it?

I spy an April!

Louise 19-05-2010 08:58 PM

Hi everyone

Doikers 19-05-2010 09:05 PM

*Hugs Oliver* I'm sorry but I am NOT the right person to help with relationship advice of any kind , and I figured this out in my head as su meaning Student Union , is that right?

*Hugs Taz*

*Hugs Louise* Hi how are you tonight?

Having my not shaved as I don't want to be touching tools ( or potential tools) pickle right now , I can't grow a beard I'm too fair even at 29 , it just get wooly I guess I have always shaved , figured it out myself with one piece of advice from my Dad when I was about 25-26 that the shaving cream tube seems to cotradict hmmmmm

Louise 19-05-2010 09:08 PM

*hugs mark* I am not feeling that great, how are you?

katnovia 19-05-2010 09:25 PM

*crawls in and sinks into a pile of duvets in the corner* I hate domestic shopping, it always takes longer than I plan and then I get stuck with the parents toooo long into the evening.

I so want to reply. I want to. I can't. *sighs*

me want play

now why did i do that? why?

cos u r an evil ****ing bitch

shut up. shut up. shut up. I can't do this anymore. Why am I doing this? I dont get it! *shouts at self* GO AWAY! *cries*

katnovia 19-05-2010 09:29 PM

eek. I must be mad. I'm going mad. I dont know why I do this and I cant stop. I don't know if I just choose to do that. Why did I write that? why did I do that? I dont understand. I really dont understand. Oh **** I'm scared. I'm frightened. I'm sorry. I'm pathetic. I'm.. I don't know any more. it felt like I chose to do it, but I had no power in choosing, the option to NOT choose didn't seem to appear..does that make sense? no, nothing makes sense. Oh **** i'm so messed up. I can't think straight. I dont know what Im doing. I can't breathe.

Doikers 19-05-2010 09:30 PM

*hugs Louise * I'm ..... coping is the best word , keeping myself distracted .

*Hugs Kat tons*

Doikers 19-05-2010 09:33 PM

Kat , you're not mad , TRY and Breathe , deep breaths , breathe slowly ...

katnovia 19-05-2010 09:35 PM

i cant. i cant. im frightened.

Doikers 19-05-2010 09:40 PM

*Holds Kat if OK?* You'll get through this , you will.

katnovia 19-05-2010 09:49 PM

but to what end? where am I going? what is happening? *sinks into mark's cuddle*

nicole94 19-05-2010 09:50 PM

*hides*

katnovia 19-05-2010 09:51 PM

i want my daddy

katnovia 19-05-2010 09:55 PM

there i go again. why? i dont understand. idont want to do this any more. who am i? what's going on? I just want to know who i am!! whats wrong with the stupid head of mine? why cant i be normal? why? why. they'll take hazel i know it i know it. i dont want to lose her i couldnt i cant i cant stand it dont let them please. please not my hazel. not my litte girl. oh god if theye find out im like this then they wont let me keep her. how cna i carry on? how can i do it? what do i do? *panics*

Doikers 19-05-2010 09:59 PM

Kat , don't panic ok , I'm sure they woulden't take Hazel from you . You are going through a really tough time of it and I don't really pretend to know anything about DID , you , have a partner , Jack right ?could you talk to him ,make him see you are struggling so much , he may be able to help , I hope I got my information correct there .

Doikers 19-05-2010 10:00 PM

Whats up Nicole? you ok?

I'm just gonna get changed for bed I'll be back in one hot minute.

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 10:03 PM

First thing's first Kat. Breath slow before you hyperventilate yourself and pass out. They won't take her if you aren't a danger to her. You haven't shown you are and your parents and husband are there for her too. *cuddles Kat* you'll both be ok. I'm sorry I had more to say but the state of my mind today is failing me right now.
Do you know who was writing in the purple ^up there^?

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:03 PM

*nods* jack's my hubby. he knows i'm struggling. he's known it ages but it doesnt matter to him because he cant cope with knowing it so he shoves it under the carpet. but i think he's just afraid for hazel. cos when i told him earlier about the thread i wrote, he just said he was calling the dr because it was unsafe for me to be alone with hazel and i needed to get some help for it because i was getting dangerous. he doesn't care about how I feel or what's going on in my head. as long as hazel is alright and he can go to work theres no problem. he didnt even offer me acuddle.

nicole94 19-05-2010 10:05 PM

no. :( group was scary and i feel **** and i dont care if thats a judgment! and i feel ill and i want a ciggarette but i cant because its too late to go out and my mum cant know i smoke! :(

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:06 PM

no i dont konw. my current state of mind wont let me decide what the truth is.

me?

if i had to say it was anything else, in my usual state of mind i would say it it was shadow. the thing i try to keep locked up the most because it would do anything to destroy me.

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 10:07 PM

aww Kat. *cuddles more* i'm sorry he's so unsupportive. do you have other family or friends you can talk to about this? That can help you when ur struggling?

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:08 PM

hes only unsupportive because he's in over his head and cant cope and doesnt know where to turn for help because we've been turned away so many times. I dont have friends, not that can help. my bestie is miles away and we never get to talk andd my family are ostriches

Doikers 19-05-2010 10:16 PM

I'm really sorry but I'm tired and have taken my meds one of which is sedative so I'm going to head to bed ,I hope you sleep well Kat *HUGE HUGS*

*Leaves Hugs and a fruit selection with extra pinapple in on the ward table*

Night all :)

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:18 PM

lob some sedatives over here wont you mark? i wish. but im feeding hazel. so i cant. no sleep help here. night *cuddles* sleep tight

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 10:19 PM

morning all i'm so late for class:notsure: :notsure: :crying:

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 10:19 PM

*grabs some pineapple before it's gone*
What about his family Kat? Even if it's just you having them take Hazel to their place when you're in crisis?

Good night Mark. Sleep well.

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 10:20 PM

Good morning Julie. What class?

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:22 PM

hmm, that i'd have to think about. i dont really trust them with her. they're not really 'involved' shall we say. they're two towns away and dont bother to visit us, we have to go to them. apparently its because they're working for a living and dont have time. like we have time with jacks shifts, but then again they dont like his job so they'd love any excuse to tell him to jack it in..(oh dear..that was a bad choice of words.!) meh, i'm whinging.

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 10:26 PM

lol no worries i have issues with my in-laws too (as if that wasn't obvious by the last few days of ranting and whining and complaining) but if it comes down to it and u really need some time and a break any family or friend that is willing to help is good

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:28 PM

i guess. im just really really protective..probably over. but my mum allowed me to get hurt..i cant..*shudders* you know.

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 10:31 PM

yeah. i know and totally understand.
but this is why we're thinking now to make a plan for later if you need it :) something you can put into practice and be ok with that will also help you.

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:33 PM

i wish i could think now. but everything hurts. i think i might need to sleep.

Scarletdreamer 19-05-2010 10:37 PM

G'night, Mark, thanks for all of the support today. :) Pleasant dreams... *tucks you up and gives you one last cuddle* :)

*cuddles Kat* Sweetie, calm down... I know, it's so so so much easier said than done, but I honestly don't think that they'd take Hazel away from you. As Crimson said, you haven't shown yourself to be a danger to her or anyone else, you seem to be handling things pretty well (considering the circumstances!! I would be doing much worse, I think), and you have us for support. I wish I could be there IRL to help out someone, sorry your family is such an arsey one (lol), and sorry that Jack isn't there to support you more... will keep you in my prayers if that's okay? *more cuddles*

*cuddles Crimson* Read your earlier post(s) and wish that I could help you as well. Keep plugging on... How's WoW going? :D Does it cheer you up at all? keep you distracted? because it does me. I FINALLY completed a warlock quest today on Silvermoon server (41 gnome 'lock :D, named Shadedsoul if you want to look her up on the Armory), that's been waiting in the wings for probably about 6 months now. Gahh. That's what happens when you have a ton of toons, lol. :-/ What levels are yours on Runetotem? and Alliance or Horde? I'm thinking of starting a night elf hunter or something on that server, but we'll see. :) Sorry for all of the WoW-speak, hopefully it got your mind off of things for a bit? *cuddles*

*cuddles Louise, Nicole, Julie, Laura, Kahlia, JK, Oliver, and everyone else I'm forgetting* So sorry if I forgot you... that doesn't mean that you're not important to me, it just means that I'm forgetful!! lol...

Going to see Ironman 2 tonight... am nervous about that. Don't like being around people - hopefully not many will be there tonight. Also don't really want to go, am really exhausted and just want to sleep. I need - NEED - to start exercising again, am so effing FAT... :crying: ...but I don't have the energy to even try. I suck so much and I hate myself even more. :crying:

I think I need to update r/v... will be back in a bit.

*cudldes everyone some more*

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:40 PM

*cuddles april back* your prayers are very much welcomed, and blessed. thank you.

xxjuliexx 19-05-2010 10:41 PM

my art school
and i slept in and missed a fitness class
i just wanna hit myself grrr

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:46 PM

*hugs julie* wish i could say somthing good

Scarletdreamer 19-05-2010 10:49 PM

updated r/v............

*hides* :crying:

katnovia 19-05-2010 10:49 PM

*yawns uncontrollably* i need sleep. *musters up all the energy she has and leaves piles of cuddles and safe hugs on the table for all who want them*

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 10:55 PM

Quote:

*cuddles Crimson* Read your earlier post(s) and wish that I could help you as well. Keep plugging on... How's WoW going? :D Does it cheer you up at all? keep you distracted? because it does me. I FINALLY completed a warlock quest today on Silvermoon server (41 gnome 'lock :D, named Shadedsoul if you want to look her up on the Armory), that's been waiting in the wings for probably about 6 months now. Gahh. That's what happens when you have a ton of toons, lol. :-/ What levels are yours on Runetotem? and Alliance or Horde? I'm thinking of starting a night elf hunter or something on that server, but we'll see. :) Sorry for all of the WoW-speak, hopefully it got your mind off of things for a bit? *cuddles*
:) i mailed em to you on permasoul the other day lol WoW is good when i wanna escape people other than D... for that I go out for a walk, hide in the bathroom or go to bed.

*cuddles Kat and tucks her into bed* Sleep well.

Doikers 19-05-2010 11:33 PM

Can't sleep , I don't understand it I'm TIRED but just laying there tossing and turning is getting me frustrated so I'll hang out in here for a few minutes I think

Doikers 19-05-2010 11:36 PM

*pokes around , anyone awake ?*

PoisonedApple 19-05-2010 11:37 PM

*huggles Mark* your mind keeping you awake or just can't get comfy?


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