Hey all.

I'm back from an odd day at school. It's weird, I feel like I'm starting all over again. I have some new subjects, but we are starting fresh courses in all the familiar ones, and English was so weird without my old teacher...I miss her so much. I feel pathetic, I mean, she was my teacher, but I know what I felt, and I loved her. I still do, her going doesn't take that away.

Still, in theatre I was talking to this boy (I go to a girls' school, but boys are allowed to join in year 12) and within the first 10 minutes we were discussing porn and his cross dressing habits (there's an explanation, I swear) and I don't normallly go in for talking to boys because I find the male sex in general uncomfortable, but my teacher made us all talk to the person sitting next to us and announce stuff about them afterwards.

My laptop's making funny noises at me...

Anyway. *Hugs Crimson* Morning! Although it's late afternoon here. How are you today?

I'm sorry you're feeling bad today Mark, and whereas coming off self harm in two months when you've been harming for 16 years may be hard and unrealistic, there's nothing to say you can't have at least lessnened the habit by then. You could get it down to once every other day, then twice a week, once a week, couple of times a month etc.

*Hugs Reaper* I'm sorry, you seem to have a lot of problems with the voices. If you'd rather be tired and get rid of them than it's your choice. The meds are meant to help you as much as possible and the sleepiness will wear off after a while.

*Hugs Crimson* Morning , how are you today?

*Hugs Lia* Sounds like you had an eventful day, I hope your laptop is okay :)

Seriously, wtf?! I keep getting a stirry feeling in my tummy, like I'm really nervous about something, but I've tackled the incuction day and the first day back in lessons so I have no idea what there is to be nervous about! It's annoying, it makes me lose my appitite and feel sick as well as hot.

I just had a phone call from the college ^_^ Starting next Monday at 9am. Ah roll on the joys of 7am starts again, haven't had those for almost a year :|

*cuddles all*

So stressed today. Mum is off on one at me over nothing all over again. Just want to curl up in a ball and disappear. :(

Am seeing a monster standing the other side of the room its looking at me am watching it it keeps snarling at me

*Hugs Helen* Are you excited ?:)

*Hugs Sarah* Are you okay? I'm sorry your Mum had a go at you :(

*Hugs Reaper* Is there anything you can really FOCUS your attention on? Music , The Net , T.V. , Go for a walk ? Maybe Read a book ?

I'm ok so far today. but it's just 845 am here.

I want to move out of the US. This is all.
Also, I need to get out of this fascination with Medieval Britian (which probably means I don't need to go to Brit Lit anymore lol).
Overall though, today's been okay minus my sore throat and aching sinuses, and the fact that I need to walk to the bank so I will finally have money in my account to pay my credit bill.

*hugs ward* I will try to do some individuals tonight if I feel better.

Mark, too right I'm excited!! *hugs*

Repear, I'm sorry you can see something horrible, but remember it's not really there. *offers hugs*

Felica (sorry have probably spelt it wrong), hope your trip to the bank goes okay and you're feeling much better soon. *cuddles*

Sarah, sorry you're having so many problems with your family right now. They're a pain in the bum sometimes aren't they? :( *cuddles*

Being driven insane by her. I want to travel to Cuba this summer but mum is currently refusing to let me. I'm following my councillor and doctors advice to move out next August, its always like this, every day :(

*hugs everyone and then hides away*

*Hugs Laura in your hiding hole*

I need a hiding hole. I spent a chunk of today hidden behind my fiance's sofa because it felt safe. Put all the cushions on the top building a little fort to hide in. Mum is yelling even more now, I want it to stop :(

peeks in and leaves safe packages and hugs* i hope you all have a good week

*Huggles Sarah* I wish I had more to say .
I'm just empty inside. I Harmed it didn't / doesn't hurt much , I don't know if I'm in a S.I. trance or what :S sorry.

*hugs Mark* I hope you're okay, take care of it yeah? Want a nice cosy cushion fort? I'll share mine

I am so close.
I feel like my whole life has fallen through, even though I know I'm being dramatic. I had plans to go to an amusement park with 4 of my friends over fall break, one of these friends being the guy I'm horribly in love with. And... It just fell through today, the guy I love can't go cause of family things, my other friend doesn't have the money. I don't really have the money, but I would do damn near anything to see Mike again (he lives 5 hours away from me).
I feel like my one shot to maybe possibly make him realize he loves me has gone. And I can't stop crying.
I just want to make the tears go away.

*cuddles Felicia*