I have a counselor but since she is on "university time" I dont get to go back and see her until the 13th of january. I could schedule an "emergency" appointment with one of the school faculty but wouldn't do any good I don't talk to people I dont know in rl. Cant see my doctor until the 3rd.

-spots and hugs mark- hi mark how you be?

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Kitty* Amara Is NOT right Kitty hun , please hang on . I haven't cried about my Grandmas death since I first found out Kitty , It's doesn't make us ****ed even though it kind of makes us feel so sometimes .

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Willow*

I thought I had 3 meetings today but Anne is on leave so it's 2 but Kat can't get in so Accupuncture is cancelled so it's just the 1 and thats been moved to midday heh . I'm feeling numb , pouring coffee into myself , getting out of bed has become so hard for me latley , I went through a phase when I felt okay that I would hop out of bed now I just lay there until I can work up the motivation to get up :S

-hugs mark again- sorry to hear you are low at the moment. wish I was better able to help -cuddles mark- and sorry that your appointments got canceled and one got moved to this afternoon.

*Squishes Kitty* Thanks , I was looking forward to accupunctre , it helps me relax and sleep but at least I get to meet my Nurse before she go's on maternity leave :)

Yeah, that's a positive. -squishes back- Sorry I not better.

should I go on a walk? =/ Amara says I should..

Noo Kitty stay in , It must be pretty late where you are , and I think you should stay home tonight .

its 2:41 am. She says I should go walk down the middle of the road..

No Kitty , Please stay here , I'm about for 48 minutes if you want to talk , please don't listen to her , Don't walk down the middle of a road please hun thats so dangerous :S

I bled for her but its not enough, she wants more...

Don't listen to her Kitty Hun , I'm sorry you cut but let that be the only thing you do do tonight because of her , Perhaps you could sleep? , it's laaate where you are , I'm concerned about you :S

hey guys, just popping in, I'm still in bed and posting off my phone. Been ditched by a few friends recently and just can't motivate myself. I SI'd last night so I'm just fed up. I'll not be back until a lot later, take care *cuddles ward*

-cuddles sarah- sorry to hear that hun

my last post vanished o.O

*Cuddles Sarah* Don't beat yourself up hun , we are always here to listen .

Ohhh what did it say Kitty ?

it said I bled for her but its not enough, she wants more..

Oh that posts up ^^^ there , *Hugs Kitty*

-hugs back- gah 10 mins is forever

* hugs everyone *
Am so bored at the moment

Whats in 10 minutes Kitty ?

Why so bored Willow?

-hugs willow- sorry you are bored, know the feeling all too well. maybe listen to music?

Mark: nothing is in 10 mins its just my hands getting tired from holding pressure..

Kitty, How deep did you go? Do you need medical attention? Sorry for all the questions I am very worried about you :S

gah no way am I goin for a walk is too windy out there!

edit: not sure but couldn't afford it even if I did -sighs-

That's Good Kitty :)

I've got to run an errand for my sister before my Appointment so have to leave in 15 minutes , will you be okay Kitty?

Because i have nothing to do apart from drinking coffee and listen to my partner talk to his friend on X box
i have the radio on now

mmm prolly not bu ya gotta do what ya gotta do mark. dont worry bout me, really. I dont mean to be an extra stress-er.

Kitty , please take good care of yourself , you are a part of this ward now and we love you :) *Hugs*

-hugs back- any idea how long you will be gone?

Maybe an hour and a half , Could you try to sleep hun? , I'm really worried about you, I'd feel better if you were asleep then you would be safer.
I REALLY have to meet my nurse , It's my last oppourtunity for a year ! Please take good care Hun *Squishes*

Kitty am around if you want to talk .
help relieve my boredom

-squishes mark- I know. I understand.

-scoots over next to willow- hai. dont be bored.

* hugs kitty*
what time is it there ?

-hugs back- 3:30 in the morning. what about where you are?

Am in Scotland it's 11.37 am

ah. I am in the great and wonderful united states (thats sarcasm by the way I really hate it here...mainly because health care is so damned expensive)

yea i heard that it's expensive there for health care
we have the NHS here but you have to wait ages before you are seen

Ya here a person can go to the hospital but it comes with a hefty price like I was in there for 20 mins top last month to see if I needed stitches and they charged me over $600. I can't pay it which means it will go into collections and ruin my credit. Lovely. I hate Obama. Makes me a "terrorist" according to the government but he's a dumbass. His great idea to fix the health care problem was to make having health insurance the law. So when that goes in effect anyone who does not have health insurance will either be given a hefty fine or arrested. But oh so mr intelligent did not make health insurance companies lower the cost of health care. I mean, that's the reason people like me don't have insurance in the first place...we can't afford it. So ya I'm pretty much screwed.

wow i didnt know things are that bad for people there I thought they would have done something for people who cant afford health insurance .

Well see they offer this program where you can get "assistance" with your bill but it's such a pain in the ass to apply for they want information from like 5 different sources including bank statements which well if I gave them those they wouldn't accept me for the assistance program anyway because of the amount of money I have in my account. Problem is, that's financial aid money, and I have to use that to live off of (pay my rent and bills) for the next 6 months.

mmm it dont sound very fair

It's not. It's totally unfair that a person has to pay to live - and at such a high price, too.

Hi everyone.

hi lindsay -hugs if ok- how are you?


grrrrrrrrrr :(

Do you need medical attention, Kitty?

I don't know. I don't think they need stitches. But even if so, like I have said, I couldn't afford them. Gotta do the best I can with what I've got. I've used neosporin and bandages on them. Had to double bandage this time and tape over but I think they will be fine..

[edited so my bestie can't find out her pressie ;)]

Hmmm...that sounds good as is, helen. Maybe you could add your favorite memory of you and that friend? I don't know though sorry if the idea sounds dumb. -hugs-