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*tucks Chloe into bed and kisses her forehead*
I'm sorry sweetie, I hope you can get in to see your doc and she can do something to make you feel better. *snuggles* So, this guy the FBI had been watching in connection with those anthrax mailings after 9/11 committed suicide the other day... Using the same OTC pain killer that I use to OD on... :crying: don't know why it bothered me... After all, I know how much to take to reach toxcity and how much to take to off myself so it's not like I didn't know one could kill ones self with it... *retreats to her corner and tries to not lay on her arm while she sleeps* |
*props ally just so and then makes sure she's all tucked in with a motherly kiss on her cheek*
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*kisses her lovely RYL-mum on the cheek* thanks, you made me smile.
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thanks ally. i hope your arm is ok.
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*cuddles chloe*
I hope the side effects wear off asap :-) tc there xxx |
Went to A&E again yesterday, was there for six hours.
Took an OD and had to have a blood test, which he botched twice and ended up poking me with the needle three times and called me childish for complaining. They were going to admit me to hospital but there are no beds at the moment. So the crisis team is phoning me today and visiting. Still feel hopeless, the crisis team can't help me, I'm going to die. |
*cuddles zowie*
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*hugs Zowie*
Sounds like the doc was an absolute ass, I'm sorry sweetie. Please take care. *huddles up in her corner and...* |
Just dropping in to see how everyone is. I'm still waking up.
*hugs and cuddles everyone* I'm off to look at the Sunday newspaper, see what back to school ads there are. Philip needs some new jeans and this is the time of year to get them. |
My dad's cross because I asked to borow a tenner. he think im gonna spend it on cigarettes (which, granted, some of it will go on) and because I asked him a second time (because his first answer was open-ended) he got really angry.
Stupid. |
*drags her sorry ass in*
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*hugs mors certa and alexx*
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I know I don't belong here/don't deserve to be here but um... *sits in a corner with a bottle* |
I.need.to.cut.
I miss the stitches :( |
*cuddles pomegrantae*
And thanks =) *curls up with a blnket* |
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It wont be this way forever.... Im sorry guys....I havent got much else for you :( |
*throws a pillow at Zed* there, a pillow to go with your blanket* Of course you belong here silly, though I for one am not of much use at the moment there are other very lovely people to offer support... And I'm always available to throw a pillow at you ;-)
Emma, sweetie, please don't cut hunni, especially not stitches worthy*snuggles* I love you sweetie and want you to stay safe (this is the pot, calling the kettle black). If truth be told I want to cut too... Stitches worthy, though seeing as I can't afford to get stitches I've become very good at getting even my longest and deepest ones closed. But I'm trying to resist it... He hasn't asked about my cutting in a while but after last weeks session I would certainly ask me if I were him (quite the trigger that session and the fretting that followed). *shuts up and returns to her corner for a nap... Or a round of head-meets-wall* |
Going to bed. Goodnight all xx
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Thankyou Alexx *cuddles*
Andand *holds onto pillow and trieds not to cry* Zed doesn't deserve support but maybe it'll be ok to stay here amongst ye people...or maybe it'll be worse...or...*gulps more vodka* |
Night Zowie, I hope you sleep well hun.
Jeff, I get it, I do, but you don't deserve it all, not really, you just feel like you do. And FYI stitches, not to keep it from scaring because it doesn't really do that... But to close it when all the tape in the world won't do it... *cuddles you* |
Ooo *'borrows' some of Zeds vodka* my alcohol of choice.
And that's ok hun, we'll support you anyway cause you really do deserve it. Oh, and don't try not to cry or you'll end up like me, virtually incapabil of crying:pinch: |
Zed...can I have some?
My anger nearly got me in serious trouble... Im still shaking with it. |
We don't have to sacrifice blood to keep our demons away, sure feels like it some times.
I tried it back in January, thought if i dug my character defect in deep enough, it might help. It didn't. There are times i want to get a big red marker and write "insecure" across my forehead. So everyone else could read it. |
Hi all please stay safe.
I am now going to be a hipocrit (wtf thats wrong spelling), I dont cut anymore since i found my new way but i just give myself the pain i deserve. (not wrighting down what i do in fear of shareing) |
Can I have some vodka Ally?
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Isn't alcohol banned from here?
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Its non alcoholic alcohol?
I really want to know what your new way is :( |
Sorry shouldnt have bought it up.
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hi everyone *places pizza n choc on the table, snuggles in her corner with her blanket*
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*shares out yoghorts (spelling??!?) and lemon meragne (i suck at spelling)*
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Can someone please tell me what the ****ing point is?
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The point to what?
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Jeff, you've been protecting us from the outside world. Your broad shoulders and your hugs mean the world to us. Despite what you think of yourself, we really do want you here.
*cuddles everyone* *sits in her corner blinking back tears* |
I've not had a Jeff hug....
*digs her toes into the carpet* |
*scrounges around in her freezer till she finds her vodka*
Ah, yep, here you go Emma, my lovely across the pond drinking buddy. Jeff, no buckets, that's too much blood. And for heaven sake don't leave! Who's sholder will I cry on then? Blondie-mom, what's wrong, why the tears? |
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*gives cuddles to everyone*
*curls up in the corner* I'm just going to stay here today... |
*hands blondi a fresh brownie and a cuddley ploar bear*
Whats happend? Jeff are you still here? please come back! |
*scoots over next to Jess*
Ok, I'll keep you :-D ... Does it technically count as cutting if you just re-open it..? |
I just wanted to come and send you all hugs before i go back offline, sorry i haven't been around lately, i'm not gonna be around as much as i used to be but i'll try and explain sooner or later, but one thing i might have to leave RYL :( i don't want to but i don't really have a choice.
I'll try and come back online soon xxxx take care of yourselves xxxx |
*rolls on top of ally* yes it counts! Don't do ti! *bounces*
*cuddles em* thinking o fyou sweetheart, i hope you don't have to leave!!! |
I need to drink. Tomorrow I am getting slaughtered. I need pain and I need my body to be torn and gaping. I can't continue without it. I need it :(
*leaves hugs for everyone* |
you don't need it enm! you don't!!!! it's so not good :*( it wont fix it!!!
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*hugs everyone*
I... have no words, words don't come now. I've been awake for 35 hours and I still can't sleep. I had a great weekend, I really did, but I want to.... destroy myself? I just... there's not even a reason for it. I wish I could give you guys support, but... I don't have anything. I'm sorry, I shouldn't even be bothering to post. |
*cuddles* when you've had a great weekend and stuff... it's common to crash afterwards. Please don't think that it's a bad thing, it's normal. But you CAN get past it! Write about your weekend! Try to get back into the headspace you were in then.
don't stop posting becasue you think that you should be giving support. you need support so it's important for you to post. |
*tackles Jess*
Lol, love you sweetie :-) Um, as to cutting... too late :blush: just wanted to know if I needed to change my last cut date. *sigh* Em, hunni, what do you mean you're getting slaughtered tomorrow? Sweetie, you don't need the cuts, you don't need to injure. *snuggles* sweetie, I know I'm once again being a hypocrit but, please, luv, don't do it. Please be safe sweetie, I love you so much. LP-Emma, sweetie, I hope you don't have to leave sweetie. *cuddles* Auburn, sweetie, I'm sorry you're doing so poorly. Of COURSE you should post. And if you can't support atm, well hunni, we've all been there, we all understand *hugs* *wanders off to change the 'last cut' date in her sig* |
8snuggles with ally*
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Once again I would like to express my sorrow at the fact that our psych ward is not real :-(
And... I don't want to go tomorrow, please, don't make me go :crying: |
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