Well well what do you know.. we have to be out by the 20th of Feb. The house sold today.. bugger it. This is ****. We havn't found a place yet. We're STILL waiting on the stupid letter from Miks dad so we can actually APPLY for places... FFS... This is just crap.. PLUS mums anniversary is on the 13th.. Guess how I will be spending it? Packing, stressing.. all that **** i don't WANT to do on that day.. oh well nothing turns out right hey? Dunno how we're going to get a place since none of us are working.. Grrrrr

Sorry guys, just majorally upset and angry and stressed *huggles*

*cuddles all and returns cuddles*

Have to be up in 3 hours.
Don't want to sleep but need to.
I'm too scared to sleep.
I'm sure, well I know he wants me to sleep so he can hurt agaim.
Whatever.

Stay safe helen.. hope he doesnt do anything =(
love you *cuddles tight*

Hi everyone *Gives cuddles to everyone* just checking in. Am ok right now I think it is due to the 12 hour sleep I had sunday. Just wishing this pain would end. *pats puppy SinClair and goes back under the bed with denial teant over it*
Sorry am not being very helpful at the moment.

Checking in. Feels like I should have a long stay.

Feeling totally numb and sad to the core.

No fight in me today, Im totally empty........

*hugs everyone* theres too many names for me to remember.

All I want to do is sleep, I feel overwhelmed and deflated and just meh. Im so glad I get to go home in 3 sleeps, I need the bf.

Checks in wrapped up in purple blanket with bear* i am okay.. for now

*cuddles everyone*
more bad news. where is the button in the universe that says enough is enough?
crawls into denial tent for another day.

I want to come check in here...

But I have nothing to say :/

things are just a bit crap.

*leaves hugs for all and hides in a corner*

Afternoon everyone,

Helen - that's a busy week - hope you have fun.

*Leaves hugs for everyone*

*cuddles all* Just a very quick check in as I have to get back to my friend in uni halls...

I'm having a **** day- overslept, train cancelled which delayed me and now I've found out I've failed yet another assignment, meh

*sigh*
gonna.
sleep....in here for abit...

&&...
when I wake up..

maybe...


someone...


will


love

me....

Bleh *hugs all*. Council went okay. Don't owe as much as they said, 'cause they're twats. Looking at a house tomorrow. Losing my mind. Cba to go into more detail

Welcome Becca and Katie *big hugs*

*hugs everyone else too* it's a good job the denial tent doesn't have a max capacity :)

take care everyone, wishing you all the love in the world

comming in to just give hugs is fine rockaroni

Anyone know how to make the flashbacks stop ?? Am getting truly sick of them. Last night I started thinking one of my housemates was him. Took me ages to get myself in control. Would not be surprised if the house collection of knives found its way into my room. Twice last night had walked to the door of my room on my way to get a kitchen knife to defend myself with. Think I'm losing the plot .... that's if I ever had it to begin with.

Anyway, sorry for my ranting.

*offers hugs to everyone and gives attention to puppy SinClair*

that sounds horrible kahlia. *hugs*
*hugs to everyone*
god i feel sh*t
just want it all to end.

*hugs purple goddess* im sure ur ok to eat. sorry that chat made u feel bad. :(

Hello Katie :) *big hugs* Wanna talk about why you feel so crap?

*Hugs for everyone else*

Having a terrible day. Slept for most of it because of lorazepan and my care co ordinator never called me back.
Cuts don't need stitches though, so I guess since I'm not SHing everyday I'm still two months free. Right? Or does anyone think I'm copping out? x

*hugs Ella* - I have similar issues when people mention BMI/weights etc. Just try and hang in there. You will be okay to eat, I'm sure of it.

*hugs Arwen* - I'm glad the cuts don't need stitches. You can count it as a slip Arwen, it depends on how you think of it.

*hugs Kija back* - Yeah it isn't easy or nice. Are you okay ??

thanks for asking kahlia. no i'm not ok. everything is just getting too much.

*hugs Kija* I'm sorry your finding things too much, is there anything you can take a step back from at the moment.

Secrets is actually a little more positive though she can't stop eating...bad secrets

Anything in particular Kija - pushing things over the edge I mean ?? Anything you'd like to talk about ??

theres just so much going on, and im letting everyone down. plus my meds are being reduced and i think thats making me "low".

I have no control over anything.

*crashes*

burnt out.

written off.

broken down.

messed up.

Jeez.


How can One person be soooo broken?!?!?!


Is anyone else dreading Valentines as much as me?

I think I may hide...

It'll only make me feel WORSE

*sniff* Not sure I can do this now =(

*gives out hugs to everyone* sorry I get overwhelmed by replying to more than one post but I'll try to improve.

I got some sleep last night but still feel really tired today. Have felt a little bit better but my head is getting noisy now and it's too late to take my medication. The drink is tempting me too but I'm trying to resist.

*hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs* I feel completely helpless to say anything, all I can do is offer big, gigantuan, friendly, binary hugs and hope that tomorrow is better than today.

Feel free to take puppy SinClair for a walk, I find dog walking very therapeutic.

Oh my God, yes. I tend to ****ing hate it anyway, but it's going to be ten times worse this year >__<

Valentines Day- Yes.. Mum died day before it, then her bday is 2 days after it. So it's just going to be painful. PLUS unless all this housing stuff gets sorted out we won't be spending it together celebrating, we'll probs be doing all we can do bloody survive.. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr

*comes out of denial tent* *offers lots of hugs for everyone and gladly receives those offered.*

Sorry, I'm not able to reply to everyone atm, I get too anxious that I'll forget someone, but I am thinking of you all!

Hope things start to brighten for people soon.

About Valentine's Day... can't we have like a space dedicated in here where we can hide out from it and all the things that go along with it??

Ohh Katie, I'm sorry... *hugs tightly*

Ravyn: Sounds like a damned good idea to me

*hugs Katie* I hope February passes quickly for you; and this all done and the stress leaves soon.

Dayna: if everyone agrees, I think we should have a nice cafe to sit and chat and drink some coffee or lattes or whatever; and forget about mid-February [I think I will try to refer to that day/days as that instead]. We already have the denial tent to sleep and hide away in; so maybe a cafe where we can hang out works? I'm open to lots of other suggestions.. my imagination isn't all that large :P

*hugs Katie* I know it's not the same but 4th Feb is when my best friend's birthday would've been.

*hugs pixiedust* sorry to hear that; do you want to talk about it at all?

Ravyn: I'm tempted to go around shouting '**** Valentine's Day' on the day <__<;;

Pixie: >__< I'm sorry as well *hugs*

Thank you both but to be honest I'd rather not at the moment. I'm scared it would send my over the edge.

Dayna: I'd support that... never been much of a fan of it.. that's for sure.

Pixie: You need to do what is best for you and take care of yourself first; *Hugs*

--

well i'm off to bed early.. still not quite over being sick; so I need my sleep :S

*hugs back*

I hope you sleep well and feel better tomorrow x

*hugs all around* btw when did we get a puppy here :)

Ravyn: >_O *Hugs* Nighty night then

Pixie: Tis understandable

Anarchist: *Hugs you too* When Wildly Insane started posting, if I remember rightly

:( i feel bad that i had not posted in a while i really do need you all. *snuggles in blanket a bit*

Don't worry about it, Anarchist, it's fine *hugs tightly*

thank you cyanide

No need to thank me, and please, call me Däyna

okay :) since i am new to you most here have called me becca

Thanks guys *cuddles* And pixie- thinking of you its tough hey =(

Ohh well good news, shes going to get him to write the letter for us tonight so we can start to apply yay plus i called my counsellor at uni, im seeing her on monday yay..

Alrighty then, Becca it is ^__^. Nice to meet you

Katie: Yaay! Hope that all works out for you