Such feelings are the reason my therapist suggested I get rid of the OTC pain meds I use to OD... hasn't happened :-( and it won't. Too much comfort in having them, in knowing I can OD when nothing else works...

*hugs everyone*

Stay safe people

Grrrrr *doesn't want to be safe*

*hides in tent feeling silly things like nobody really does care*

Helen...she didnt TELL me to go....but she woke me up asking if i wanted a tea or coffee and i was like "can i just have a knife?" she shook her head and left to see other patients...so i walked out...
Crisis team just called my house...they are calling back later

I realised she didn;t ask you earlier, I mis-read your post- silly me!!!

I hate myself for what I'm planning =\

What if I start the plan, and then the last part falls through, it'll all been for nothing...unless I buy alcohol myself?

:| ****.

Helen, how you doing?
I've kept myself busy, but I tonight isn't going to end well.

I cant do this anymore ><
please let me go...
please :crying:
Im sorry guys...
love you all so much
xxxxx

Alex, stay safe. Please hun, we all love you too.

Can someone please take these pills away from me? I can't control myself much longer.

I'LL HAVE THEM!!

Heh, oh hun. Whats wrong with us? xxxxx

*snuggles Alexx and Helen*

Alexx love, please keep on trying, I know it doesn't seem like it but it'll get better.

Helen, hun, please stay safe... And no pain meds with the alcohol chica.

Me? I've got alcohol and am getting trashed tonight... Thank god gor alcohol...

Take care all.

*hands around blankets and pillows and a tea tray*

I dunno...
I'm just brokened :'(

I don't know what to do. Should I go to A&E?
Part of me just wants to ruin me.

go to A&E sweety...
please...for me?
I did last night...just like you said...
pretty please?

I've been talking to people on chat and they said mybe i should call samaritans or NHS direct.
If I phone nhs direct theyll tell me if A&E would take me seriously so I'll do that before going.

Im so scared :'(

huny they WILL take you seriously...
they'd much rather help you before you OD rather than after...

Zowie, Alexx is right, they'll take you seriously sweetie.

*curls up in a tight ball in her corner under her blanket*

I'm not doing so well... I'm looking forward to tonights drinking binge and yet I'm worried it won't turn out well :pinch:. Actually I'm kind of scared :crying:

I'm doing crappier than ever woooooo :)

No freaking ass way hun, I love you too much. :crying:

*yawn* im so tired.
Parents have just got back off holiday..so are recounting the past two weeks to me...
and im nervous coz the crisis team are calling me tomorrow...
what if my mum or dad answers?

Grabs a duvet and sets up camp on first avaliable bed. Never been to a psyc ward before but think this is probably the safest place to be right now.
Hugs to all arounds.
Squiggles