*hugs*

fallinstar, maybe you could print what you wrote out, so that they can read it for themselves.

still struggling this morning, just trying to forget everything. Got to clean my whole flat today because my mum's coming and its in a right state. Am hoping it might make me feel better

*hugs everyone*

Sorry it can't be more. I'm not in such a great place myself...

*walks into room ,sits in corner*

asks shyly, Have room for one more?

*hugs kahlia* Its okay that it is not more. Hope you are alright.
*hugs deathdancer* Of course there is room. U alright? *offers welcome pillows and blankets*

*hugs Fallinstar back*



no I feel so numb right now and its scares me :crying:

I have been three months free of SI but I feel like im falling fast

*curls up* :(

Thanks for being so welcoming.

I'm struggling so much at the moment, I want to hide away

*snuggles close to Accidentally Abstract*

*hands over blanket*

You ok?

*cries* If i cant do this physically im doing it virtually.

feeling really sore from stiches and emotionally drained. Trying to keep on going but its so hard

*hugs everyone*

curls up in the corner cos cant deal with everything thats going on at the moment! and reallly need to hide away.

*curls up* :'(

*sneaks in and curls up in a ball of essay stress and uselessness in a corner*

*walks up to the check in desk*
may i check in please?

*walks in, hugs everyone then disappears into a corner*

* sit in corner and crys *


Why does life have to be so freaking difficult?
I hate my life I don't know why I try.

*hides in the denial tent*

Ahhhh thats better =D

*hugs everyone*
Sorry I'm too tired to do individual posts.

It's family time here since its thanksgiving week. Being around my family is so draining most of the time. I always like the idea of seeing everyone, and then when I get here I always just want to go back to my school.

*hugs everyone*

If anyone wants me I'll be curled up in a corner crying since I can't cry in real life.

Same here Kahlia *comes and sits next to you and gives you hugs*

goes over to kahlia and mamma and gives them ea a hug and sits in the corner galad to b a away from "familyness".

*hugs Helen*
*hugs Sarah*
*hugs everyone*

I woke up to find a knife beside me that I don't remember putting there again this morning. I think I'm losing my fragile control. *sigh*

that is kinda scary. i'm sorry. anything i can do?

can i cum n hide in the corner please

Sarah - yeah it's very scary. I'm not sure if there's anything anyone can do. But thank you very much for the offer.

*hugs everyone*

I should be happy because I ordered a new laptop today ... but strangely I'm not. Probably because my special saving bank account is currently close to empty. Meh.

Leaves hugs for everyone.

Well suppose I finally have a diagnosis today, though I was still told in a way I'm not good enough. Can I come and curl up with you guys in the corner please?

big hugs. hope ur ok chick head up

Of course you can sweet *cuddles you*

*goes around cuddling everyone else*

I finally had a good night's sleep and feeling much better than I have all week and since yesterday (was in extreme pain >.<) but I still pants too. Hurrrrrray (Y)

Got to love being told there's nothing's wrong when you continually feel low for months and months and months on end :D

Thank-you *cuddles back*

I envy your good night's sleep!

Silly doctors *shakes head*

You're welcome for the cuddle :) Ah I'm sure I'll be envying it before long haha :P Silly docotors/mental health professionals etc indeed. :D

yeah, i wish they would just listened and try to understand. but i don't think that'll happen. ((hugs to mamma, faerie and everybody))

*hugs everyone*

Still waking to find knives beside me ... Am going to tell my GP about it when I see him tomorrow morning and my tdoc when I see him on Friday. Still having bucketloads of anxiety every time I have to leave the house but on the outside at least I'm appearing calm. *sighs*

*hugs kahlia* So sorry that you are anxious and that is really scary about the knives. I'm glad that you are planning on telling your doctors. Hopefully they can help.

I'm finally back at my university after a very very stressful break. It's just so loud at my house in my hometown and I can't be me there. I have to pretend to be super happy in front of my family b/c I don't want to deal with their reactions to anything... Too bad I have to go back there in 3 weeks for winter break... *sigh*...

*hugs Laura back*. Sorry to hear that home is so stressful. It's so difficult when you have to act all the time.

*hugs everyone*

school is done and i can come back here a curl up in my corner. i really like it here. ((curls up with her blankie possible naptime))

*walks in, hugs everyone then disappears into a corner*

Me and my housemate went to the christmas party for my disability employment network provider. We rode our bikes there and my housemate ended up being taken away in an ambulance with chest pains. Fingers crossed that he's alright.

While I was there on my own, I met up with an old friend. That was the best part.

It's been a long day...

*hugs everyone lots*

*hugs everybody then goes and hides in a corner*

My uncle died early this morning...
He'd been sick for quite awhile so it wasn't unexpected.
I hate funerals (I feel completely selfish for hating them)

((hug everyone))
i'm sorry about ur uncle. i hate going to funerals too. i especially hate looking at the bodies in the casket. i don't why. my mom and i talked already and i told her i wanna b cremated. so no scary people looking at my corpse.

(hugs everyone)

Had the worst shift ever at work, ending up crying for ages, going to bed now :(

*hugs Laura* - I know what you mean about funerals. I hate singing at them...

*hugs Helen* - Sorry to hear about the shift at work.

*hugs signing child* - sorry I don't know your name.

*hugs everyone*

*Walks in tentatively...bites lip*
Hi guys...I know I'm not a veteran...but can I come in for awhile?

*hugs everyone*
vanessa - of course u can come in...

So now I'm not going to the funeral, apparently it would be too stressful for my family to have to come get me from my university. its okay though, Im not upset, i feel like I should be... but I am kinda relieved... Am i horrible?

Thanks!

*hugs Laura*

You are not horrible! Funerals are hard!

*makes a huge pile of pillows and blankets...dives inside and hides for a bit*

i'm sarah. it's cool.

((hugs Vanessa, kahlia, and everyone else))

what's going on Vanessa? anything we can help with?
//snuggling up in blankets w a stuffed doggy

*cuddles everyone*

Feeling back to my positive self today..been feeling bit positive because of work. Although yesterday was not that way at all. But it's back :D Last shift for 3 days woop :)

*hugs Vanessa* Hey come on in. We're here if you want to talk about what's going on.
*hugs Laura* No you aren't horrible hon. We all grieve in our own way and in out own time. Funerals are usually times of closure but we are still all individual. Just be kind to yourself and give yourself time. (hard to do while studying I know)
*hugs Sarah* How are you going?
*hugs everyone*

I had a pretty bad session with my psychologist today. He went into the stuff I never talk about and then he said he wanted to involve my mum and housemate - like ring them up and invite them to sessions and stuff. I told him no but he wants me to give him reasons and I don't think "because I said no" or "I just don't want them involved" would work. I'm at the point where I'm ready to walk away from seeing him altogether...

*sighs then walks over to an empty corner and cuddles up to a teddy bear*

Just feeling really down. I recently hit the four year free mark for cutting. But instead of celebrating I just want to cry. For the last two months cutting is all I think about. Nothing has really changed, nothing to make me think like this. It is so unbelieveably discouraging. I'm trying so hard to get past this...I'm trying to believe that if I can just make it a little longer the thoughts will go away. Part of me just wants to do it and say it was a slip up, but I know it woulldn't just be a slip up. If I start again it will continue. I just want to have a good cry, but the tears wont come.

*hugs Kahlia*

I'm sorry about your session. I had a counselor that would bring my dad in for the last 15 minutes of our session and basically tell him everything I had said. I hated it, made me not want to talk. If you stopped seeing him would you see someone else? How long have you been seeing him?

*hugs Vanessa back* I've only been seeing him for just over a month now and if I stopped seeing him I'd have to go through the whole rigmarole of finding someone acceptable (from my GP's point of view) and getting a referral. *sigh* I don't know anymore ... I really don't.

*hugs everyone then curls up in her corner*